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Jun 23 · 37
Broke my Family
Ria Jun 23
My time is spent lying around
Hoping my body will give in
And my tortured soul will be set free

I make mom worry
Behind the door she knows
I am carving my skin

When things get hard
And mom loses sleep
She runs in hope for piece

My poor father stays with me
Jun 22 · 92
"I get it"
Ria Jun 22
In a haze of anger
The touch of a horrible boy and my screams shake my bones

My mentor repeats my name
Until I am in front her
My mind folding in on itself

I tell her every ounce of rage, fear, and hate
The only things my heart can grasp
I spill until I am empty

The person I look up to
Funny, kind, understanding, strong

Says
"I understand more than you will ever know"
I realize we aren't so different after all
Jun 22 · 34
Finally Free
Ria Jun 22
Living at camp
Parents far away
I do not call home
I wake in the morning
I get myself ready
And walk to where I need to be
My family cannot isolate me
My friends are my roommates
This is freedom
Jun 11 · 17
Middle
Ria Jun 11
To be in the middle is to be surrounded
By warmth, love, acceptance
I am in the middle
I have never felt so alone
Two friend groups clash
I observe
I keep to myself
I refuse to take a side
I am in the center of everything
Yet I am all alone
Ria Jun 9
I sit alone
In my bed
Wrapped in a blanket, four walls, and a beautiful home
I have never felt so alone
Will I ever get better?
I want to slice the pain into my arms
and a mother who loves me
and for someone I could talk to
literally anyone
I am drowning and I am begging for help
Jun 9
Refuge
Ria Jun 9
In school my mind wonders
Why am I so different?
Do these people hate me?
I just want to go home
Instead I go to my favorite teachers office
Whether he is there or not I take a seat
I put my airpods in
And for a few minutes
I can breathe
Jun 7 · 502
Dear god
Ria Jun 7
If God is up there
I wonder what he thinks
I wonder why he messed up my face
And made my mother cry
And why he sent that evil boy to my house
And why he took my grandfather
Despite everything
I wonder why he filled my heart with so much love
And why he made the boy I love so much the boy I cannot be with
Jun 7 · 81
Hypocrite
Ria Jun 7
When I hear that my friends put lines on their wrists
And draw their struggles in blood
I get mad
The same lines cover my body
My skin is marked by my past
And cannot be erased
Am I jealous?
Or am I angry to watch someone else take the same path I did?
Jun 6 · 19
Rage
Ria Jun 6
I was ***** at 7 years old
He was 10
Because of him I stayed quiet
He told me to stay quiet
Because of him I do not sleep through the night
I have to retell what happened because he is still in my school district
I am scared when he is around
Because of him I learned to carve my emotions into my skin
Because of him I am so, so angry.
Jun 6 · 292
The Bear
Ria Jun 6
I still have scars on my thigh
I put them there by myself, why do I care?
And when a little girl asked "what's on your leg"
I responded with "I was in a fight with a bear"
And with every child I feed the same lie.
I hope they will never awake to find
That the bear that attacked my leg
Was my very own mind.
Jun 5 · 53
Alone
Ria Jun 5
I once told a teacher
"I hate therapy, I don't want to talk about it"
and he responded
"Who do you open up to"
I thought and considered
Every person who left me
Nobody knows the full story
Nobody knows that i tried to ** myself
Or that even though I said I stopped I still SH
What do I do?
As I drown under water a cry for help the people around me keep swimming
And when they get tired I whisper advice on how to swim
I can't seem to do it myself.
And in the night time while they live it up
I stay under water with nobody to save me.

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