Dreaming of rainy days
Beside my sweet heart
holding his hands, closeness to heart....
Oh what a day it was....
will the dream come true...

Yes it came true for two days..
Rainy days....
started my journey.. to his place...
carrying all dreams...
thinking his smile..
meeting him after three months..
whether to Hug or kiss first
how to start??
all the questions were falling into my heart..

suddenly came a pop message:
message me your coach no...
Train stopped...reached PKD
It was raining like hell...
i was little wet..got down..
eyes were searching for him...

Saw a flash of white striped T-shirt..
sparkling eyes searching for me..
and seeing the mobile for my message.
it was my sweet sail....
butterfly were flying inside my heart..
after seeing him....
first time in my life felt that hunger...
Saw me going towards him...

How to start...the smile which was seen after three months..
and he  saying,"Happy to c u here and my sweeto is with me..."
literally made me dumb..
He took my bag and holded umbrella in another hand..
got into an auto..
My sweet heart holding my hand...
closeness to heart..
Heat was felt...not only in my hand
which was holding him..
but also in my body..

climate was cold..
but heat was overruling it....
we were travelling
rainy days..
Sweets beside,,
it was dark..
seeing his eyes in the lighting light...
wanted to hold his face and kiss there...
but could not as the driver interrupted inbetween..

Reached his place..
He cooked and served the food,,
my happiness knews no bounds...
i felt O God wat a life,, u have given..
Im blessed....but didnt realise that it was temporary...
slowly after we cleaned the kitchen.

Moment came for my dreams to come true
Rainy days..
My sweets beside,,
room was dark
my hands was chill...
heart beat alone was heard in the room
it was complete silence..
how to start...
by the time i went near him he rushed hurriedly
holded me in his arms,,,and kissed me
saying cannot wait.....
heat was felt on me..by the time i wanted to cherish the taste of his lips...and tongue.
he was inside me ..
O GOD im thankful to you for those beautiful moments...
Tears fleded...in my eyes...i have got a guy who luvs me...and wants me...
but didnt realise it was temporary...

Rainy days are here,,,
Standing all alone......
Waiting for my Luv..

Sweets you have given those beautiful moments to me.....and taken away back all the happiness with you...

Miss you sweet heart...

It was 5:30 pm yesterday when i was in the busy station it was so crowded , as soon the train stopped people flowed like a water spouting out from a shuttered dam doors...

When all people were getting down with multiple reactions in there faces...there came a voice a loud. calling "Mom where are you"..
with a hope that his mom will be beside him ...he was calling her...within a minute mom came and holded his hands..
one of his leg and hand was paralysed....had a squint ...smiling at every one he saw....not Knowing about his future....walked away happily waving his hand.

I was sitting in an end of wooden chair at station, observing all scenes......tears flowed in my eyes..and my heart boomed...there is no difference between him and U.....

As i was handicapped too....
Had heart but was broken...
Had legs couldnt walk beside him....
Had hands couldnt hold his hands...
Had eyes couldnt see him and his sparkling eyes..
Had smile...but lost ...

Was with a hope ..
thinkin my guy will be beside me..
It took a minute from him to move away from me

Not knowing about my future.....he walked away happily waving his hands...

All women are unique..
celebrate the one in your heart....

Why can't I speak when I have so much to tell?
Why can't I write when I have so much in mind?
Why can't I sing when there's...music in my heart?
Why can't I dance when there's rythme in the air?

Too many words left unspoken
Too many things left undone
Why can't it be and why can't I?

For all I know this pain deep inside
Took the gladness from my heart.
Is this the pain of missing you?
Is this the reason behind it all?
Hear the agony of my heart
Longing for you and for your touch
Feeling your lips, feeling your face
Missing your chatting and too many sweet fights...
When will the waiting ever be over?
For as long as were apart I can never be whole
Oh! My Dearest Love
I just want you to know
That my heart is aching because

"I'M MISSING YOU!"..

Married girl liked a guy...
This liking slowly changed into Love....
Craziness in his smile,talk, walk & style
Slowly she got addicted to it...
went deeper into him
not even thinking about her family
her kid....her world was only that guy..
They loved each other, he wanted her to come out of her married life...
She did moved her papers...to show the love which she has for him and was longing for him
she was always given a hope that he is there for her
Fool she was not even thought about the darkness in the other side....
Her addiction turned into madness....

Whenever she asked him about life..
He said Im there for you
Even the world is against you i will be there for you...
Fool she was didn't understand the meaning of it fully
Now her own world is against her.....
thrown her in to madness, pain anguish....
Don't know how to SAIL.....

Alone....in tears......no one to share, smile,talk, walk.....
In her own world of darkness...
Scared about life......
loosing happiness, peace.....
Waiting for him...to switch on the lights..

When i lost the happiness, i felt it when i was with you.....
When i lost my family, i felt you are my family...
When i lost my time, my wait to talk to you made it worth
When i lost the love from my kid, i found myself moving ....for your love

After loosing all when I surrendered  to you...
I found my love is lost from you......

Hurt:-
Body & Mind knows...
         that you are hurting me...
               But still my heart cares for U......

Our Love:-
Thought for many days and nights,
              built in years...abolished in a minute.....
                    
U don't feel the pain.......
          It pains more here.....

Is there any chances of going back to those days i longed for you...
Mind says dont...
Hearts says please..
Undo my Luv which i had for you...

those lenghty eye lashes
which i loved to touch
wanted to be mine
glittering smile
which i have fallen for

those long rides
where you and me
together felt like WE
holding hands
touching hearts
asking will you be mine forever...

Where are you now
unable to undo my luv for you
people ask if the luv is true
i should holded you

was it my slip from the heart
or your hatred towards me
missing you here
are you missing me?

wanted those squint eyes stares
wanted that smile
wanted that luv
wanted those flying kisses
wanted those hands to hold me

Oil and Water we meant to be
but by fate water is drained out and oil strains remain

Undo my luv which i had for you..
While the person whom i long for are feeling for his first and lost love betrayal
Are you not hidden in me...

When you spoke to me
I liked you

When you proposed me
I loved you

When you told me you already have GF
I felt to cry a loud....because of loosing you

When you walk beside me holding my hands
I felt secured in my life

When you said that Im beautiful..
I understood the true meaning of beautiful..

When you said that you wont leave me
I saw the trust in those words....

When you said that these words are not decided in one day....
I saw a matured man behind it...

When you said that cannot see a life without me..
I dreamed a life of happiness with you...

but the same person

took a night to break the relation ship...which was built in beautiful, trust, & happiness..were was that maturity......

Wanted to ask him:-

Was it because of my ugliness
Was it because of my age
Was it because Im a divorcee...
Was it because i had a kid...
Was it because i fight with you..
Was it because you had any revenge on me..

WHAT IT IS????

you  left me...i have not hided anything from you dala....

Many people say me mad
some of them stare
some of them laugh
some of them tease
some of them scold
some of them think to take advantage out of it....

when i start thinking about U ...
the arousal....
the smile
the kiss
the hug
the beautiful fingers
the sparkling eyes
stylish walk....
beautiful voice..
& the way of talk...
all make me mad.....

out of that group someone asked me even after he left you..
u still prefer to luv & become mad on him ....

i smiled and said...
im in confusion in choosing the words...between
Forever or always....

I Luv You Sweet Heart .....

Im ready for the night...
for the parade...
where there will be many lovers...
to proach my flesh, squeesing me...
making them to feel the heat....
and immerse them in the pearl beads of my sweat....

Made as a victim.....
Holding the guns...
bullets unloaded....
yet waiting to get shooted by them......

Day started with happiness....
felt the sun was rising for me ..
yes im going to see him today.....
will he be in uniform.....
or stripped shirt....
Whatever it is,  he is mine

Hot he is with his glamour eyes
cute he is with his ***** cheeks...
all memories rewinded back...
Whatever it is, he is mine

Entered office with a silence ..
heart beats was heard to my ears...
eyes was searching for him...
but only empty chairs and tables was seen..

came to my work station ...
stared at his face...
Whatever it is, he is mine

there came a call saying he has come...
was running to the room...
with happiness which came to me after a long time...
by seeing him..
But he was not ready to see me..
rather he would have thought walls was beautiful than me...
as he was facing it and sitting...

hopes got faded away...
Tears flowed into my eyes....
was it a same person...
who wanted to meet me in peace..
made me to meet him into pieces...
Whatever it is, he is mine...

Saw his side face...his hair,,his shoes...
those beatutiful eyes....which made me to fall into love ...
came with lot happiness went away with lot of sadness...
Whatever it is, you are mine....

I may not be your first love
first kiss,
first sight,
or first date
And
I’m not in this to be your first
anything
I just want to be your last
and
I cant share you with any1
u r mine and only mine

God what revenge you have in me ?
you made me to see the downs in my life
you made me to see the failures
you made me to take pain all the times
you made me to love and get hurt in return

God what why you did this to me?
you showed me the way to live but diverted in between
you showed me the light and when i came near to light
to avoid darkness, it was a candle which is melting...
you showed me love but with conditions
you showed me the man i deserve but confused himself
whether he deserves me or not

Now i have no tears in my eyes,
body is not able to accept the hurting it pains,
heart just works.
not able to differentiate the happiness and sadness as the second is felt a lot
living just becos you you made me to do everything and face everything

When i have lost everything, including the hope,
life becomes disgrace and death becomes a duty
God confirm me whether my death is the only want from you
you have showed me all now plz show me the way to reach you..

My Love is like candle
Even though it is throwing light to you,
Melting its own soul,  
Knowing its end…
still says ......Light me!!!!!

Is Love is true and can be felt.....


The day you decided to become mine forever...
leaving all souls caring for you...not bothering about the society...
That made my luv grow stronger towards to you....

Not even an iota of second thought you holded my hand...
Kissed me in head...strenghtened me and said worry not "Im there for you, will face together"
That made my luv grow...stronger again towards you...

Love which was seen in cards and flowers and gifts was seen in veracity thru you....
You proved im worth your love.....made me to think that you are Man of my dreams...
You made me to listen my heart beat ...
Stood against all, faced the truth...
won my luv....giving colors to my life....

Those blues and white colors reminds me of you....
those kisses shared inbetween the fights....
those luving calls which says I luv you.....
being in same room...
Your smile....which always reminds me of happiness what i received and gave to you...

Now where is that happiness gone....
Im pushed far away from you...dont know where im ......
What im doing....cannot hear those heart beats....
it is all pain n sufferings which i can see..n hear
where are you gone ....
Luv is so painful....
which made me to forget all happy moments...which i had....

All that you gave are taken by you.....except loneliness....
you always remain in my heart....even you have gone away from me....
I dont know how you are....
but still luv n thoughts clings inside in my heart ......

Happy Moments where are you??????.....lost in memories....


Yes luv is left(changes which occured by the word "L" taking first place in word)

Where are you sweets.....
It is painful, to be all alone
days goes by
months goes by
life is so scaring

Where are you sweets...
i came to you for the luv
you showed me what it is..
i came to you to know how our life will be after our luv
you showed dis is the way it is

All were said and given,
finally you also showed me what is the pain.... in life and luv without you..
which i never wanted to experience in my life
Where are you sweets....

I dont know to write a poem, my english is not as good as yours, but still you are the person who showed me what is life, what is luv, .
Where do i start and where i do end? ....when you are inside me.....
Life is beautiful.....when you are with me.....now the same life is fearful when you have left me......
Sweets you said you will be there for me till my death...kiss me on my forehead....before i go inside the sand..
now i pray atleast that death should come now....so that i can have you beside me....
Missing you SWZ.....

The most painful moment in the conversation is saying "Good Bye" to a person whom we loved knowing that he will not be saying "Hello" again...

Ask My eyes to stop seeing you..
Ask my brain to stop thinking about you....
Ask My imagination to stop dreaming about you...
Ask my heart to stop beating for you....


Ask me everything....but not to stop luving you.....