Look up, behold the garnet star
High up in starry heavens far
Bright amber jewel that shines pristine
What ancient secrets have you seen
Over a distant desert void
Its crumbling castles, long destroyed
And ghostly armies passing by
Naught could escape your piercing eye
Bold crimson star, we're far apart
But your deep gaze enchants my heart
So radiate your mystery
That through the night, calls out to me
And please impart, I do appeal
Your mystic secrets to reveal.

Taken from the most
Intimate corners and
Crevices of my heart,
Written from the deepest
And darkest ounce
Of my now dried blood,
Shown in the most
Painful and lasting lines
Etched on my palms..

Is the fact you came,
You celebrated,
You exploited, and
You got left behind.
Evidence that I prevail.

If the stars ceased to shine
And the wind no longer blew
I would still
Be thinking of you

Behind my tears there lies anger
Behind my brave face there are lies
Behind my smile there is sorrow
Behind my lip gloss there is fear
Behind my laugh there are sobs
Behind my eyes there lies the truth
Behind my mask there lies my frown

The world
Or him

Choose between
A safe, calm, ignorant life
And the
Right life for me

My parents' ideals
Or mine

Give in, give up this pain
And forever lose him

My heart breaks at this
Choice

I've given up my
Friends, comfort, dreams,
Nearly everything
For him
And now this

I wish it wasn't so hard, but
It's still worth the pain
If you have true love
If you have salvation
If you have a happy life
Why would you give it all up?
For a faulty marriage,
Damnation, and a lifetime
Of regrets

I won't
I refuse to let this go

They can hurt me,
Take everything away from me,
But they can't change this
And if they can't accept it
I'll leave

I can't do this anymore
I can't stand these names they give me
Why can't they see words hurt
They cut deeper than any blade or razor could
My eyes fill with tears just waiting to spill
But I won't let them they can't know that I have failed
I'm just another mistake
Just another waste of space
Stupid they say and never do I argue
Ugly, fat, pathetic, *****, annoying of course I agree
How could I not be
Depressed to a fault I just have two things in mind
How can I make it this long why can't I just die?

I'm sorry I hurt myself
I know you felt the pain to
I'm sorry I wasn't always there
I just wanted you to know I care
I'm sorry I was always sad
I knew it only made you mad
I'm sorry that your there crying
When I stopped trying
I love you
Forgive me

Just lay with me and blow away the world
You don't love me, only what my body can do
I cry whenever you tell me I'm pretty
Because I know it isn't true

I never dreamed of dreaming of you.
Every time our fingers are intertwined,
forgetting everything bad that has happened in this life.
You squeeze my hand tighter.
I'm exactly where I need to be.
I'm exactly where I want to be.
The way it fits so perfectly, your hand in mine. The way your multicolored eyes light up when you smile, the way your smile makes me smile, the way your lips move when you conjure words, the way your eyes..
I've already said something about your eyes, they're rather easy to get lost in,
lost in thought about the way your voice enters my mind and doesn't seem to want to leave, I am without a doubt, completely, pathetically in love with your voice, hoping that it and you will not become just another voice bouncing, bouncing aimlessly off the walls in my skull.
I've already said something about your eyes, they're rather easy to get lost in.
-h