Do i ever find myself
Living a life
That isnt real?
Being in a world
Thats only surreal?
Dreaming a day
That wont ever be
Longing for something
I cant ever see?
Hope seems so
Far from reach
Today becomes tomorrow
Yet i am not free.
Yesterday seems better
Gone and redeemed
Bringing me only
More sorrow than glee-
And this is true
Im not living realy
Im longing and waiting
For deaths release:
From the live
Im not living
To the live
That wont be
Do i ever find
Living becomes survival
Indeed?
Dont tell me
Be thankfull!
You live in paradise!!!
When i am not living
Inside i have strife-
For something else
A world and a "being"
Thats always surreal
Do i find myself living
Life thats unreal???

In honesty spoken
Im not indeed
For the moment
Thats "being"
Defys me- succeed,
Im wasted and broken
And hopeless unspoken
Living for noting
Im living
Indeed,
And Life becomes
Unreal
And LIFE INDEED...

From up Above
Mercy rain down
like droplets Of Love
Kept in a clove
Droplets of hope
like flight of a dove
Bringing your heart
secrets unkept
Memories stained
in tears that are wept
Lifting your Soul
It carries you home
Guiding light
reflects what is said
Prayer for the journey
The road outstretched
Like stars in the night sky
Shining so bright
Raining down on me
From up Above

They say time is ever fleeting
That todays not yours to keep
But all alone in dreamin
i hold you close to me

They say moments turn to gold
When a memory you hold
Deep within your lonely soul
Of tales gone by and told

They say lifes an ending journey
Once your born just to grow old
And as sure as rain will fall
You die and thats just  all

But what they never spoke off
Things you ought to know
Is if you find a true love
You find that keeps you whole
And spending days with someone
Time youre not alone
It guides you to a rainbow
And at its end is Home
So listen not to what they say
And you will be ok
I am right beside you
Every step you take

And time becomes eternal
Life -only begun
Forever turns to always
Each moment carries on

When all around me ends
And days turn into memories
Remember this truely
I miss you like crazy
Yes i always do

And if all have forsake me
And im alone only
Remember this plainly
I miss you like crazy

So keep this in your heart
The distance i cant part
All that i want to
Is be right beside you

So Believe me fully
Im true and ill always
Feel this each day
Yet time holds the way

When all around me ends
And all have forsake me
I still miss you crazy
Remember this plainly
Yes
I miss you like crazy

Death is nothing to fear
It is but a step into Eternal sphere
It is a new beginnin as an End
draws near
It is the continuating of Life ever more
It is the opening onto a closed door
Death is purpose as to Life is for

Leaving but this mortal stance
Death is merely Life's new dance
In a realm of peace and a new chance
Finding the answer to hidden alms

Death is nothing to fear
As a new day borns a days end near
Simply but the entrance to new years
That is waiting in anticipation clear
Death itself holds no fear

May your Heart take courage
And your Soul
Eternal peace

When the evening falls
and memories of yesterday calls
remember days of sun and truth
never forget i belong to you
dreams are born for lovers true
When the evening falls

Though i may be an ocean apart
Your name's forever
etched on my heart
and just like the stars in heaven above
Im promising you my eternal love
Minutes turn to hours and days
Yet near my soul is where you'll stay
Though i may be an ocean away

And when the night turns to day
Still linger words i long to say
But Hope remains the same each way
And so faith sways to always stay
When the night turns to day

Forever all my heart and soul

Standing watching the sun set
Another day has come and left
And still my heart waits
Broken into pieces ,contemplates
If i again will see your face
Standing now alone in place

Never had i dreamed it be
The last journey befalls me
Never knew i'd have to go
On in life all on my own

Holding back unendless tears

Listening just to hear again
Your voice-now lost from within
But only being filled inside
With silence,loneliness cant hide

Holding back unendless tears

Never had i dreamed it be
The last journey befalls me
Never knew i'd have to go
On in life all on my own

And if i could wait here forever
Just to feel your soul again
I'd surely be standing forever
Knowing you are off better
Yet i am living now till ever
Alone again till time end

Holding back unendless tears
Yes
Holding back tears forever