alice into wonderland
this pill makes him larger
your entirety enthralling to me
completely nailed to grey matter
this pill makes me small
wishing to be each article of clothing of yours
everything infiltrating me i call by your name
singing to you solely in moans

do you think of me

sprawled on top of you

ridden of purity

deep rooted insticts

no act of seduction

pure lust

true love

heart shaped entrance

for this moan is lone

shattered smaller and smaller

fine like pollen

jump from your mothers roof babe

and i will too

i wish youd leave me alone

i wish you would just *******

turn up on my door step

sever myself and sever you too

drawing lines on my eyelids and my thighs

are these pills making me better or worse?

severed again and sever forever

it was the 22nd of october
smoking outside of your dads house when it started
you started to leave me
i could feel you
you were digging your hands into me
trying to stay
burning me with lighters and cutting me with nails
if i could i would scoop you up and push you back inside of me
you are dead now and i think i am too

my fingers pushed inside myself

i can almost swear i feel your hair on my neck

to hear your reciprocated love

feel your lips entwine into me

i go places i know you visit hoping to bump into you

pretend incidental

that my body isnt wrapped in things i think youd enjoy to take off

softer and sweeter voice

i see you in everything

youve gone now
ive lost you
trying to find you in other people but i seem to only find you within myself

i wish you knew i was still yours completely and i wish it wasnt like this
for im miserable now
you are probably thriving and i feel so conflicted on that
i just wish i was the one making you thrive
but im just glad youre not in the same situation i am in
i just hope we meet again
it may be in years
i just know we are one