You simply sit there
A miraculous marvel to my eyes
Every movement fascinates me
And i watch hungrily
Never able to get enough of you
Yet always aching to

I am stuck in a tantalizing perception
That perhaps I could have your entirety
And yet you slip through my fingers like sand
And so I stare, wishing for time to slow
Just enough…
So I can momentarily have a proper dose

Love is....
Another person joining your path and saying "trust me with your heart, I shall be by your side to share the burden"
It is not having to do it alone, suddenly the world loses it's terrifying edge, instead becoming strikingly beautiful

They promised, my dear you cannot trust anyone
For this world is selfish, surely you know,
It is filled with evil lurking,
That feasts upon your skin and bones

Stay away from all the darkness,
For the monsters show no fear,
They will laugh at all your failures
And whisper nightmares in your ears

But a saviour came striding through the darkness,
Though I had become the monsters prey
He showed me light and love and freedom
And with him I ran away

He gives me company when I am lonely
He reads to me when I am blue
Holds me close when I am crying
Does all he can to bring me through

He shows me sunshine on the dark days
Holds my hand when I show fear
Gives me his everlasting patience
And provides a listening ear

He builds me up when I falter
Makes me strong when I feel weak
Gives me hope when I feel hopeless
And says he loves that I'm unique

He is the one I wish to be with
For every day yet to be
For he is my soulmate, my true love
And this is our destiny

You say I am enough and more,
Say I am worthy and worth it
Your love, feels at home when given to me
You say I deserve it

I can see only what the world has told me for so long,
That although I hope and dream, good enough is something I could never be
To maybe aim lower, because my broken pieces could never form success,
This mess that I am, will only ever be that…. a mess

Sometimes when you look at me,
The love in your eyes makes me feel just short of good enough,
Like I cheated somehow
You appear as a miracle in front of me,
I feel like a child playing dress up,

You whisper sweetness into my body,
I am convinced you have confused me for someone else
I feel not worthy, like I hold a secret deep within me and one day my flaws will hit you like a wrecking ball
And in that moment of realization, you will see who I truly am…. and walk away

He is an image of illness,
Feeding tube through his nose,
An IV his constant companion,
Every procedure altering his personality
His fragility terrifying, ghosts would envy his pasty complexion
His cells mutating, he is frustrated,
And I stand and watch...
And wish I could save him