Sometimes
    not always, but
Sometimes
          I lay in bed for 19 hours
          get up
          take a shower
          pace around the house for a bit
          think about calling a friend
          go back to bed

Sometimes
    on a bad day
Sometimes
          I tell my friends I have plans
          say I've been busy
          say the interview went well
          say there was an interview
          say everything's under control
          lie to everyone I see

Sometimes
    occasionally
        more often than I'd like
            more often than I'll admit
                more often than not
                    most of last month
                        all of last week
Sometimes
          I really don't like myself

I spend all night in bed
trying to sleep
sometimes succeeding

I spend all day in bed
trying to leave
sometimes succeeding

I spend my life in bed
trying to live
sometimes succeeding