If my tears taste like blood am I doing it wrong
Not too sure what's happening because I thought I was happy

Give me your word and stay with me tonight
We don't have to do much
Just look at the stars with me and let me tell you about how I want to be one

Imagine we can float up into the navy sky and have people look to us for guidance and admire our beauty

I was once a hopeless soul
Wandering lost and I'm not saying I'm found
But I've gotten onto a path I'm trying not to stray from

I want to live up to your expectations of being the best thing that's ever happened to you
Because that's what you are to me and darling you deserve all of the worlds in every universe

But I am different and difficult to love and I'm not sure what's wrong exactly but you can't get me outside of my head and that's what I really need

Don't fret over failure though darling because it's simply impossible
I just want you to know you've come the closest out of all of them

I just have a feeling I'm not supposed to be here and that I'll never feel at home and this skin will never fit quite right and this voice will never quite sound the same and I'll never be able to love you like I want to because I am a flawed system and

Darling
You are everything I've always dreamed of
Every wish that could've been granted
Because I've wished for impossible things as well
And you do seem so impossible
Improbable
Yet you are here and my happy place exists inside your bones and those strong arms of yours

I'm sorry if I stare at you often
I'm probably just trying to make sure you're still there
And I'm so in love with your face and skin and laugh and entirety and I love you from the whites of your eyes to the souls of your feet and every inch in between

I listen to your song because that is my religion and you're the only faith I've got in this world and I'm sorry for how I act sometimes I don't even know myself but you are the brightest light and most comforting night and I'd like to spend the rest of my days with you

You did nothing wrong and
I should've said goodnight
It's just been a long week, month, and I'm worn down from fighting so I don't fall back into that place I used to be in

And I know you don't really understand
Truth be told neither do I
And I wonder if I should try to explain or let the pieces fall where they may
You deserve truth but you deserve no burden

Maybe I can climb back on my own and brush the dust off my shoulders and stand taller and smile brighter and maybe it'll stay

Maybe we'll make a little money and something of ourselves and get out of this town that I hate but you don't mind

See the thing is I'm desperate to run because I think that will solve my problems but I read somewhere that you can't run away from what's inside your head and it's true but has anyone really tried because you know how determined I can be

Maybe it won't fix anything or maybe it will fix a lot

But all I know is I have to see some of this world and some of these people and
I have to live and not walk in circles on Main Street and come back to a house that I can't sleep in because the memories keep me up at night and I've befriended the dark and whatever is under my bed

Forgive me darling I know you'll never see this but I had to say it somehow and I'll go to sleep and talk to you in the morning and we'll go right back to being big dreamers and lovers of all sorts and I'll forget for a while that anything was even wrong in the first place

Couldn’t sleep so I got dressed and went outside and puffed on a cigarette and saw this cute lil bunny hop right by me and I wondered why the lil guy was awake and I guess he didn’t really mind me standing there in the shadows but the air was clear and you could see the stars so easily and I could hear birds chirping and wondered why they were awake as well but then realized I could ask myself the same question and I know I shouldn’t have smoked but I justify it by saying it was only a couple puffs and maybe I’ll get some sleep now and dream about pleasant things and not old memories

Do you remember when
I knew I could have the world
And you knew that you could fly
How we knew just about everything?

Do you remember when hugs
And bandaids and forehead kisses,
Chocolate candies, plastic flowers
And sweet hushes could fix anything?

Do you remember when we
Were invincible and unstoppable,
We were the superheroes and super
Villains and we wrote the story?

Do you remember when those feelings
Faded like those plastic flowers
And our words fell like the petals
That never were

And how we wondered
If we ever were
As well

And baby,
No. You're not my baby..
But you once were

Baby, I'm listening to these
Songs and this man's voice
Speaking of mind-numbing
Drugs and pills and poisons.

His tone is smooth and light
Like those summer breezes
When I didn't mind your company

And I listen to these songs and
Flash back to cold winter days
When I drove out to see you,

Stranger. Bachelor. Uncharted Man.

That air was cold and heavy
But you greeted me with warmth
Or maybe just ****** reaction

And I threw my inhibitions to the
Ground before you and let you
Step over them to reach to me

And you brought me into those
Deceitful and welcoming arms
And I wasted my winter days
With you, Bachelor,

trying to be untamed