and on the night I thought I lost him
the heavy air did hang sweet, and tears flowed down my cheeks
maybe there was a resounding birth of things I couldn't have if I was taken
and maybe there was fresh air to be breathed and the sky felt that tomorrow wouldn't loom as heavy
if I didn't know then that I would never be ready to leave
because letting go is never simple
and less than simple, are my feelings
I know now
a love comatose, drunk words spill out of you and I wish they never had. "I love you" sounded so good when it was whispered in my ear...not so much when it is left behind, unspoken of again
I am always straight and so sober are my thoughts
I wish I didn't love you
and I wish I hadn't fought

If I where known
By my famous poems
Would not the world
Be at my feet?
Sacred halls
Gathering all
Of the words
That I speak
Special days
For my praise
As they repost
My every thought
But instead
I struggle
To make one trend
As my ego
Pays the cost...

~
Romantics find her flawless
and the mystics find her wise.
The ancients found "The Huntress"
in her sharp and searching eyes.
Italians say "bela luna"
when they look at her and sigh.
The cavemen painted pictures
as they wondered at the sky.
The moon has many faces
and her light's a work of art...
And to the simple poet...
she is tonic for the heart.
~

It's our two month anniversary today
Do you think its possible to love someone
To know you love them
That quickly
Without a shadow of a doubt?

sometimes I feel so far away from where I want to be
I feel like tearing out the living breathing moving soul from inside me and throwing it far into the heart of a big city
setting myself on fire
and maybe then I will be big enough and I will feel the warmth of power and potential this world seems to revolve around
be one of the "big guys" just because thats the game
and thats how you play to win
and thats how you die painlessly
leaving only destruction in your path