reminders of you are everywhere
in my mind
on my lips
on my fingers
as they curl up in frustration
why
why can't i just forget
every time i think
see
smell
think i hear your voice
it brings me back to a day that used to be
a day that i shouldnt be letting play over and over and over and over and over again
until all i want to do is cry
because it hurts
it hurts so much
it hurts to know that you don't think of me a one hundredth as much as i think about you
and then i think about how you are touching them
with the same hands and mouth and words and feelings you touched me with
and i want to scream.
i want to scream so loud and so long
because you knew exactly what to say to make it better and what if it all was a lie
one that you fed my hungry soul
because you said yourself you know
exactly the right words to say
and you use it to your advantage
you’re so ******* smart
and i couldn't keep up
you ran circles around me until i was the one out of breath.