Long and painful are my days without you,
And heavy becomes my heart
Oh my darlin how I  despise
the days we are apart

This sometimes troubled ******
So loves  your detached Aquarian soul!

Surprise Skin
Wiggle
Round and round
Bounce
Smile and giggle!

Saw you in the hallway and you said the loveliest thing-
         "I was just writing you a poem."
And it filled my heart and my head with
Anticipation of all the lovely words to come

My tempered heart
beats steadily for you.
It melts from your heat
And cools in your absence.
The final product deliciously appealing to the eye
Tastier and smoother than at first
But oh-
How painful the process.

...My eyes are closing
Your gently breathing
Our skin is touching
I must be dreaming...

Write me a poem please
I miss your sweet sticky words!
They warm my heart
Feed my soul!
Keep me hopeful...
And so much more.

Your kiss is like a roller coaster
Sometimes like a jolt of electricity
Some said -stay away from that
And I tried to seperate you from me

It's something I could never do  
Because long ago 310
I truly became a part of you
I remember exactly when

That day as you came closer
I could smell you
and I knew it right away
We are suited for eachother

No choice
We are lovers
For a long time now
And the bond gets tighter
and deeper

I see you swirl round me
Dizzy intoxicated with your love
I had no choice baby
Cupid  shot me from above

Trying to map out a way to you
Trying to anticipate all the stops I need to make
And how much I'll need
And where to stay
To bring me closer to you

Don't really want to get lost
And afraid that the trip might take too long
I pray by the time I get there
You are not gone-

In between
Limbo
Unsure
Unworthy
Seasick
Nervous
Compared to
Sad
Restless
H
E
L
P

My world is upside down tonight,
I feel inside out and full of doubt.
                      The path I'm on seems quite bumpy,
     I'm not sure of which way I'm headed.
          Although to someone new I might seem dizzy and distracted-
I usually know exactly where the map is...at least the map of my heart.
                                             But everything's changing and so am I.

I'm going to the sink to wash my hands
I start to remove my rings
And as I try to pull off the ring you gave me I realize it's stuck
Not like a sticky stuck but-
More like it's a part of me not meant to be removed

This is much like how I feel about you
You are so a part of me
That pulling away from you
Feels wrong and I will not do it
I'm not stuck

So I will not take my beautiful silvery ring off
You can
when you're ready
to put it on my other hand

I'm missing you
It hurts
It makes my wrists numb

You are so hard to convince-
Words were not the weapon
But the sight and smell and feel of it lured you in.
And once there you seemed relaxed
The cool water, the early morning sun,
The feel of skin on skin-
But when I opened my eyes
I saw your eyes open watching
and thought... Maybe one day
no matter whose around
your eyes will stay closed
Because you'll be lost
in a lifetime of me.


We can try again tomorrow

Our love
So complicated, so contrived
We try so hard to keep it alive
And...
When we are face to face
           breathing eachother in
You lips on mine
The weight of you on me.
Or...
An understanding of
how we are with our generosity
The sight of you
Allergy medicine in hand
Bottled water
And a full take of gas.
But...
Especially watching you try things
Eating a garbanzo bean,
Painting a mural.
Oh...
I know,
I know deep down
That you are the only one for me
You have as much as I can give
And in time
I know there is more
More from me,
More for us
Evermore
I love you

The images are rolling
through my mind
They are  powerful
and of the
lustful kind
Mixed with love
I'm happy to say
I wouldn't
couldn't imagine it
Any other way

How do you do it?
The sound of your deep whispery voice,
The sight of you sweet bright smile, oh
Makes my heart skip a beat.
You my darlin,
Lift me up  so naturally.
I don't need a pill
Or some other substance.
You and  only your energy-
Powerful and intoxicating
Giving me a high
it's-electric
Unlike anything  I've ever known!
More, more, more...

You can forget it
Because...
I will ******* use all this wanting
All this achy longing
And this ridiculous patiently waiting
To unleash something serious
On you
So please don't even think of telling me
What the **** to do!

The moon is so bright tonight,
That I'm going to moon bathe.
Going to angle my lounge just right
But forget the shades.
Because that I want that sweet, silvery moon light all over me.
Join me and play the music that I like-
So we can howl at it together.

You fill my heart
And other things
And make me feel
Like I have wings
And when you spin me around on the dance floor
I fly

Feeling unsure and blue-
Yet still in love with you.

And oh yes
I am
I am yearning for you touch
Craving your taste
Searching for your smell
I am
I am missing you so much

I can see us in a cloud of sparkling dust I'm in the black dress, the hair and heels are  big as usual.
You are making your way toward me doing that silly dance you do
Your white dress shirt is open at the collar andGod only knows where your ties at...
You grab and spin me around and the lights lower and the crowd fades...
Your body curves to fit mine and you pull me into a cave like embrace and you begin to sing in my ear, in that whispery deep way.  I smile.
And I'm there in the place that you and I created.
It's heavenly sweet and hellishly dangerous. Just the way we like it...
It's love- and while it's not original it's like I've never felt it before.
Because I love you truly, madly, deeply. And the way you love me makes it easy to paint these pictures in my mind...

D Disturbed by the reality
I I'm not there... I guess
P Painful reality of it being her not me

Only a day away and
I miss you-

Although I usually miss you
with my mind
The moon must have it that
I'm missing you with my body
Because ever since she's been full, so have I-

Full of visions
Full of desires
Filled with lust

And I fear that I am not wanting anymore
But now I'm needing...
Craving another taste
Another  touch

Your touch lingers on my skin
For a long time
Your taste stays with me for hours
Your love is powerful

Thoughts of you fill my bed,
Thinking wickedly of you!

Pushed up and together
Leopard straps and string
(And some tan lines)
Two pieces of sin...

Cupid-
What a fine marksman you are!
Gold or Lead?

I really enjoy all time with you
The work time
The play time
The let's figure it out time
Because no matter what
It's ours
Intimate messy passionate love

When our eyes meet
And your face is so close to mine
The love talk starts
And our world starts to spin

I can still feel them
Warm sweet kisses on my
bare shoulder
Gentle and passionate
I could feel and others could see
How much you love me

So soon it seems
I will step out of my dreams

Out of my poems
And into your arms

And once again
Willingly
Fall victim to your charms

And sweetly,  my dear
I'll surrender...

But first I will wrap your arms-
Then your legs
And tease you so badly
Make you beg

For a taste,
Or a touch,
Oooooooooo I love you so much!

(Red thinks to herself)

My beautiful brilliant  brain
Has the ability to see
A very Vivid picture
of your plans for you and me.

And you see, they never seem unreal
And always leave me thinking,
Of all the sweet and nasty mischief
that we'll surely be mixing!

Oh I can't wait Wolfie!
               And do you know why?
Because when I pause and picture it -            
               You are as big and bad as I!


See you in the woods ;)

Your love is like a lucky charm I keep close to me
Hidden  from view deep inside my pocket
When low or out of sorts I reach in to find-
Your loving words
Your acts of kindness
Your support
Your lust
You are my lucky charm!

There are no words but there are pictures that dance in my mind and warm my heart
When you are wearing your sweater or
Waiting for me to eat
Coming back to kiss me or
Playing my favorite songs
Bringing me tea and chocolate or
Choosing to order lunch instead of make it
An un expected rose or roses or
An unexpected plan
Surprise CDs or ...

Oh my darling I will never forget these supremely sweet gestures.
I could not even tell you with words how happy you make me, but-
My body feels like it's on its favorite spiny ride and it never wants to stop.

You have filled my world with love and
You're right!
There are no words but there are so many sweet scenes in my mind.
You are truly one of my kind!

Why do people get mad at me
For things like sickness
It's not a choice or a weakness

And for a person like me
Who needs to be out and about
This sick feeling is something
I could do without

So why
Why be mad at me
I want to be feeling good and free

Right before your very eyes
Lemme whip you up
A little poem surprise!

It may not be what I do best
But taste it atleast
It may just pass the test

Poems of love
And of  lust
I hate to beg but
You simply must
Try my poem surprise!
                         Sweetie!

Open and exposed
The air stings the wound
As my tears sting my cheeks

Tourmentimg pain
Building anger
Sabotage

I hope I wake from this awful dream
Pushing away the sweet
Pushing away the hope

It's killing all the love in my life

And that man would never know the
Tourmemting pain
Unpredictable  anger
He inflicted on a little girls soul

Tested
Torn
All of the past gone

Weak
Manipulated
All while being envied or hated

POP

I'm going to need a pill for all this...
To numb me.
To bring me forgetful patience
and  delicate bravery.

This up and down
In and out
Round and round....silly caged clown.

I'm going to need a pill for all this...
"As if" acting and sad smiling and normal-ness?
For-if I don't swallow that pill
I will sink into the abyss.

And now steaming with
four hours past, I think at last I have it
The raging energy and adreline laced anger to let it go but
I reach for the bottle and swallow the pill, whole.

I wrote Down
And you liked Soulmate
turned  that right around!

Oh god
I have been ripped apart
By this game called love
And I really really need some help from above

I am not the diamond girl,
That is, I am not strong for compassion often overrules
I am not clear it is quite difficult for me to express my self on the first try
and hard no I'm soft a mush...
Although sometimes I wish I was strong, clear, and hard

But maybe I am the diamond girl
The diamond girl who emerged from a blackness-
That is prismatic
Ha! a piñata at times,
Shiny(glitter tactlessly applied),
With many faces, hmmm
Who am I tonight-

That is I!
That is the diamond girl
I am!
******* :)))

The sad part of it all
Is not that I want you-
But more that I needyou.

The way it feels to be with you-
I just felt like you were home.

I just could smell something that
Was so familar it caused something inside me to shift.

I will never not get emotional
Because when I did tonight
It was because I felt close, closer than ever before to having someone better suited for me.

I love the way you love me up,
I simply just can't get enough!

Used to love to find them
Not quite sure why
Those sweet little purpley bruises
Reminders of thick fingers on
Hips, sides, thighs

They are the reminders of thick rough fingers
That pulled and prodded me
Out of misery
And into love

I want to give you a beautiful Japanese robe
I want to watch you walk from our living to our bedroom with that look in your eyes
I want to watch that robe fall to the floor
As you approach me full with desire and more

What will they say
What will they do
When we become a we
And I say I do

They will laugh
They will frown
And most  definitely
Put me down...

But I'll smile and say
Ha -that's life!
As we stroll arm and arm
As husband and wife!

Eyes open
Searching for a sign
I hate being so far away from you.
I feel you love
I read your words and
My vivid memory serves me well.

But nothing can replace
that feeling of touching your face.
It's so easy being around you.
I miss you badly and this is hard.