Who decides right from wrong Sometimes the line is so fine You can’t see both shadows and light? Why do we have to be so far to one side Creating a distance where we can each hide Regurgitating words without taking a breath Speaking on death, and definitions of life Heaving on sighs, the nazis and woke Spewing our spittle until we both choke Look with your eyes, who’s truly in danger The people you hurt aren’t always a stranger
Why can’t I escape you? You’re always close, it seems, A shadow in the stillness, A whisper in my dreams. I try to leave, to heal, But you’re there in the quiet, A piece of me I lost, A weight I can’t deny it.
my shadows warn of looming undercurrent it is already here familiar shackles ankle-biting at old touch points feet trudge heavy then light heavy then light
I cut my strings 2 years ago (some of them)
the crown tips
shedding is continuous heavy light heavy light heavy light I am learning to carry it well to march — in spite of burdens /excess is a burden /my burden is light
a forced dance at my feet I shuck and jive for a reticent forest leaves applaud trees are unamused — they’ve taught me better
stop running plant in it breathe it in winter is here
I wish i could explain myself Fully explain myself... Stop delivering pain to myself Be deliberate, and save myself Instead of filling out the page by myself Speak in full sentence to you by myself I'm tired of being lame by myself Not interested in fame by myself So the emotions on the page are for myself I wish i could give them to you myself Explain why i need all of you to myself I sorta need saving from myself And you know what else... I'm getting used to it being me and myself.
Manipulation, there's no prevention, you know I keep coming back. Keep pretending, you are helpless, while you play with my heart. My obsession is my profession, I can't forget you, but I can lie. It's all illusion, my confusion, you are never gonna stop coming back.