Dear muse
How could you
Act like you
Never knew me
Act like we never
Had anything

You can't just block me
Pretend I don't exist or have feelings
Pretend that it all
Meant less than nothing

It hurts
So ******* much
That it could
Get me in trouble

Dear muse
You treated me
So very wrong
Im scared
Someones treating me right

Dear muse
I hate the way
It feels
Like nothing
We had was real

We definitely had
Something special
Between us two

Even if it was
Just friends I
Never had anyone
Like you in life

I thought we would
Last forever
Have a love that
Refused to die out

I wanted us
To be together
To have a life
To feel love
Us two together

Dear muse
I hate writing about us
In past tense
Hate what we had
Is over now
I hope someday
We find our way back

Dear muse
I didnt really
Believe
In love before you
Proved me wrong

We were right together
Just us separate
From the world around us
Me and you
We had forever

Its not all
Hateful animosity
Its more like
Confusion and
Regrets
Eating away at me

What changed?
Did it mean
Anything to you?
Was this all
In my head?

Dear muse
I just want
Answers to
Move on and be
Happy
Stop blaming myself
For your actions

Dear muse
I thought I was
Closer to
Being over you
Man do I wish
That was true

This morning i cried
Again over you
Feeling so much hurt
Yet all it felt was empty

You were
Everything to me
Still are and I am
Unsure of
What went wrong

Dear muse
I miss you
I love you
Why
Why dont you
Feel it too?

Fingers flying across the
Keyboard
Freshly clipped from the
Confines of my mind
Wishing these words
Made sense
Meant something to
Any faceless name


Trying to
Escape the memories
Past has left behind
Destruction left in its wake
Never holding the
Culprit responsible

Your touched is
Etched into my body
From a time before
Everything surrounding me
Broke with each breath

Solace isnt good for me
Left alone too long
Thoughts creep back in
Reminding me that
Broken has been surpassed

Not sure how long
Its been of
Existing without
Living or surviving
But I know that
Im alone in this

Nobody knows the truth
Emotional exorcism of
Dark days
Not so long gone

Thought I was better
What a lie
My scars can tell you
Different stories

Truth will always
Be hidden behind
Madness and lies
But it's there
Reminding me
What I've done

Trust is my
Biggest flaw
Forever a mistake
The ones I need
Always leave

Dear muse
I dont want to
Feel this anymore
All the pain and heartbreak
Caused by your selfishness

I am tired
Blaming myself ***** and
I need something to change

I lnow this isnt
All my fault
All in my head

Its real and flying to
These pages
No longer blank canvases

Dear muse
Just talk to me
One more time
Give me the answers I
Seek to make me whole
Close the door and
Start a fresh chapter

Dear muse
You are the
Worst of everyone
Who hurt me
Which is saying a lot

You knew all the
Insanity people put
Me through
Knew the way to
Get under my skin

You lied when you
Could have been honest
Did six years of friendship mean
Nothing to you?
Was any of this real?

Dear muse
Ive already lost
My will to fight this
Already forgiven you
All I wish is you
Would love me too