Dear mue
I cant trust myself
Or anyone else
Really its
All because of
You

Your dedication to
This lie was great but
Once the
Fabrication slipped
It was just chaos

We burned bright
Together
Or maybe this was
All in ny own mind

Were you just
Using me
Putting on a show
Til you
Found someone better
Like im just the
Punchline to some
Sick twisted joke

Dear muse
I trusted you to
Protect my heart
Now you're another
Scar chinking my armor

Dear muse
Part of me
Wants to thank you
For giving me
Inspiration to
Write again

Maybe you didnt
Know Ive been having
Trouble with words and
Insecurities but ****

Hell you
Created for me
Lead to this
Burst of energy

Creativity was
Oozing from my mind
Bursting out inside
Last remaining
Shards of my heart

These words
Falling onto the page
I dedicate them all to you
This is what you deserve

Dear muse
I hope you
See this someday
Know how bad
Your "love" scarred me

Dear muse
Why wont you leave my
Mind like you left
Me alone in the dark

Its getting
Harder to keep
My thoughts im order
Without drifting back to you

I have so much to say
More to lose and i
Cant stop
Writing to you

You are everywhere
Except where
I need you to be

Dear muse
I hate needing you
Missing you and that
You left
Please
Find your way back

Dear muse
I thought you
Were different
That you may
Keep your promises
Or actually stay

Who am I kidding?
You left like it
Was your job and I
Acted like that was okay

I feel so cliche
Missing you when
Lets face it
Whatever love you told me
Was a lie and

It makes no sense
Why did you have to lie?
Things coulda been different
At least I tried

Dear muse
I should have
Known better than to
Think you'd stay
Like an invitation to
Walk away

Dear muse
How unlucky
I still dont
Know what to
Do without you

Its unfortunate
Really that
Everyone else will
Get compared to
What we had

Even worse
Its very possible
It was nothing
That part of you was
Fiction-
Just the part that loved me

Im not sure
Where it all went wrong
How we wasted
Emotion fawning over each other
When most of it was
Likely a lie

Dear muse
So much of me
Wants you dead
But who would I be
Had I never met thee

Dear muse

Dozen times Ive tried
Writing the pain away
Memory doesnt so
Easily fade

The thing is
I dont want to
Feel any of this
Not sad or angry or hurt

I dont know
How to make this
All better

Turn me back into a person
Not a shell
Struggling to
Define the worth of life

Dear muse
If I die now
I hope you feel
Enough to know
What we had was
Real to me

Dear muse
Another day
Without you
Leaving me alone
Despite the fact
Youre already gone

I dont get it
Why it was
So easy for you to
Leave
Forget about us

We were perfect
Now everything feels wrong

Dear muse
Help me
Understand
Where it
All went wrong