I'm a hopeless romantic
Because I'm in love
And I would do absolutely anything
Absolutely anything

But there is nothint I can do
There's no hope
I'm just romantic

You have made it very clear
but for some reason I can't hear
when I look in your eyes
no burning fire only little white lies
its so easy to see
you don't have for me
what I have for you
so if this is true
and i completely understand

then why can't I accept it?

I'm here
Listening to this music
Over and over again
I listen to the same thing
Over and over again
The same lyrics
Hoping you hear it
But I ball my hands in a fist
As i realize theres nothing left
But this playlist

Love is an infectious disease
and My heart is contaminated
i didnt know you were contagaious
so i forgot to wash my heart
its spreading through my body
from cell to cell like mitosis
white bloods cells are no help
and there is no cure for this
ive passed the stage
where it's just in your heart
It bursts through the blood vessel
and spreads through every vein.
And soon it will seep to my brain
and in the final stage
ill go blind

I no longer believe in fate
In destiny
Or anything pre ordained
Because if such a thing existed
If anything was ever meant to be
You would have been meant for me

I can't go back
To how we were
Maybe back to our first kiss
But no way in hell
Can I go back to anything before

If I could describe in words
This feeling my heart
Then this would the wildest poem
And the most beautiful art

I asked you to wait so long
To come to a place
That clearly you belong
And right in your face
I made you wait
And now I'm here, ready
But you're sad cause I'm to late?
But I'm here, ready
if your sad that I'm too late
I'm confused cause I'm here, ready
you're the one now who's decides our fate
you decide if its too late
and that makes you sad
So i ask again.
Am I too late?


Cause I'm here, ready.

I fall asleep with my phone in my hand
Waiting to hear from you
When I wake up in this world of land
First thing is did I hear from you?
Your always on my mind
because even in the time in between
You're in my dreams

I think about you all the time
All day theres only you on my mind
You are a star in the night sky
Even when out of sight your always there
But when night comes around and I look in the night sky
All I can do is stare

A song never meant so much
Until it came true
And happend to perfectly describe
Me and you

Oh the irony
It was a song I showed to you
And after you sang the words
They came true

So now we can both sing along
And I wish we never did it
And I wish we never loved it
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you
And now it ain't no way we can be friends

little do you know
the danger of those words
when they fly off your lips
more persuasive than a thousand swords
my throat pressed at the tips
with the graceful weight of 2 humming birds
as they pierce my ears
my heart starts grinding its gears
something inside that refuses to subside
pushes my pride to the side
and here appears one of my worst fears
what would happen if you realized
the power you had from inside
absolutely any task
im here standing on my knees
all you have to do is ask
others would have to twist my wrist
but for you it would come with ease
all you have to say
"come on please"

If I could make you believe
That I'm okay
After watching you leave
And didn't want you to stay

If I could make you believe
That I didn't want you back
That I didn't greave
And my chest wasn't under attack

If I could make you believe
That I'm not in pain
My thought you don't interweave
And alone I wish to remain

If I could make you believe
That your not what I want
And there nothing I wish to retrieve
Then I'll be blunt

If could make you believe
That I'm not completely in love
Then I may not be the best poet alive
Because that did not rhyme
But I would be the best liar of all time

My heart is on fire
But by the look on my face
No telling how dire
My honor gone with disgrace
Content with being this liar
I hide wounds with grace
Deserving to be admired
I can't stay in this place
Relief is only a require
Nothing but empty space
This is your empire
I have nothing left to displace
No more to inspire
I can't retrace or erase
No pain in this embrace
Doest hurt,  I'm a liar
As burned skin is scraped
I make it seem as if I escaped

Do you know how much it hurts
To lie and pretend
After everything
That I like just being your friend

I guess what hurts the most
While I still can't believe
While I still greave
And certainly can't achieve
You were able to move on
And I have this painful happiness
When I see you having fun

I woke up this morning
After weeks of letting it go
I woke up in mourning
After weeks I havnt let it go
"Does it even matter?"
To me yes
To you no

High hopes hurt the most
so some never get them up

So here's a toast
To never giving up

The next time you feel all alone
Think of the wolf
And the moon
A love story
Lost in history
Lost from every memory
The meaning of a wolf
Still crying for the moon
A howl on a lonely night
A message with a doomed flight
To never reach its destination
Tragedy in manifestation
Mistaken as warning to those around
But Its a scary sound
An eternal vision
Of your eternal desire
That burns your heart to see
A place you can never be
So When you feel alone
Think of the lone wolf
Crying for centuries
Over countless seas
For the moon
Eternally lost in the night's sky
Still holding on
Every night he will cry
Never ready to say goodbye

Why would you pretend
to want to see me
why send a smiley
when you arnt smiling cause of me
yea lets hang out
but let  me wait around all day
tell me absolutely nothing
while you spend my time
where you would rather be
while i'm sitting in a chair
waiting for you to get back to me
and now that's twice in a row
you blew me off
and completely wasted
my last day off



that I just wanted to spend with you

I thought you would be the one
that was willing to wait
but it seems even for you
I take too long

I don't want to see you with someone else
but your heard about something
that I did a while back
and its pointless to try and explain
that I'm done with that
It would be impossible
at this point to tell you how I feel
because there's know way
you would believe it for real
Its time for me to pay for every mistake that I make
and letting you go
is the biggest one

It's taking everything I have
Not to talk to you
Everything I have
Not to convince you
Not to explain
Because with every thing I am
I want you
But your telling me your happy
And that's more important than me
So I'll smile when you see me
So you dont feel guilty
So you cant see my pain
You don't need to know
That ever since I watched you leave
I've reached a brand new low
And It hurts just to breath
But as long as your happy
I don't want you worrying about me

I wish you could see
Exactly how I feel
it may seem confusing
Like I'm not real
But your the last thing I want to be losing
These are the only feelings I've had
In a very long time
But I take things so slow
It's not fair to ask you to wait
And it kills me to know
That it's now too late

This smile hurts to keep
Fighting the urge to weep
The cracks in my face
So obvious the smile is fake
When my eyes look like mace
But what else am I suppose to say
When someone asks
Are you okay?

We are facing dark times
even though the future may be bright
on this day the sun is hidden
behind thick clouds
with no silver lines
the rain is pouring
the thunder is roaring
and everyone is running
but have faith
for every storm passes
see there is beauty in this rain
just as there is beauty your pain
and meaning to your struggle
so when the clouds finally fade away
when the son comes out
and the lightning stops
when life is its brightest
you will find your self looking back
thankful for your darkest day.

You deserve everything
But my heart has been split apart
Many times again
Each part roaming the world
Refusing to return
Half of a half
I'm not all here
So it pains me to say
I can't give you all of me
Only what's left of me

I'm a gambling man
all or nothing
over and over again
I've lost all I had
only to start over
and pray i get it back
So just know
Im a gambling man
all or nothing
I'm putting my whole life at risk
so spin the wheel
show your hand
flip that 16 as i call for a monkey
holding on to my lucky Keychain necklace
Im taking everything I have
and I'm putting it on you

I wrote you a message
even put it a text
with your name as the recipient
telling you everything I said and did
And what it really meant
but it's just another message
that will never be sent

Your asking me to leave you alone
But that is an impossible request
Because you are the life and soul
I lost long ago
And became this monstrosity of a man

You must not know
Asking me not to want you
Is like telling me not to breath
As I'm strangled underwater
Not to gasp for air
as soon as i get free
There is nothing that could resist
And urge such as this
And that's what's it's like when you say
"leave me be"

This isn't a want
This a need
Just like in order live
I need to feed
And I need blood
And I'm sorry for this
But I thirst for your love
with a vampire's lust

The difference
between family and friends
and its not defined by blood
but by a response
when you make a mistake
and throw them in the mud
family will just say (ily)
friends won't say anything
cause there is where it (ends)

I thought you were like me
I thought you understood
I thought i could talk free
I thought i could confide
I thought you would respect me
I thought you would know how i am
I thought you would believe me
I thought not the rumors
always thought this world was full of humors
see i heard from a bird
that you were the source of the word
so after
I thought i found you after so long
it seems
i thought wrong

you've heard stories
that you probably think are true
but i never went home with a girl
until that one night
i saw him with you
and i saw in your eyes
you wanted him too

I wrote a poem today
that explained exactly how i felt
a story of emptiness
full of nothing
but possibilities and opportunities
never realized or even tried
but you might think i was crazy
If I ever asked you to read it
because you would just be staring at nothing
but a *blank page

wake up
work

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work

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work

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work

work up
wake

work up
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up work
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up wake

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I didn't want you for myself
Until I saw you with someone else
But what kind of man would I be
If I didn't leave you be
And atleast let you be happy

Purer than the whitest Winter snow
As many flowers as Spring can bring
You bring more life to my soul
Your heart is warmer
Than the best of Summer nights
And you'r more beautiful
Than all the colors of Autumn
And just like those leaves
More and more each year
I Fall for you
Every passing season

Compared to the night sky
Above a busy city
You are the northern lights

Compared to a fish in a pond
You are a dolphin
Swimming in the ocean

Compared to the freezing rain
You are the warm sun
Rising on the beach shore

Compared to rush hour traffic
You are roadtrip down a winding road
Speeding on a motorcycle

Compared to a want
You are a need

Compared to having a crush
This is love

I'm drunk
And that's the only time I speak your name
When everyone else is gone
Your the one I want by my side
But when I wake in the morning
It will have just been another night.

No one has ever given you a chance
They don't see you
they just don't know
how big your heart is
how funny your laugh is
how wide your smile is
or how wild your nights could be
instead they just walk by
and you think you will never have someone
who will call you his


but I see more beauty in you
than the prettiest model in the world
its as if i'm the only one with this luxury
this special ability to see all the beauty
Of the Invisible Girl.

As everyone passes you by
like your not even there
screaming silently so no one seems to hear
hiding all your fears and transparent tears
you wonder if anyone even cares
about all the things you've never shared
you wonder if anyone will ever see everything you are
you asked "am i invisible?"

*no, the world is blind

I was never a poet
until i looked into your eyes
and saw the sun rise.

There you were
standing in the middle of the room
when you saw him; your eyes met
and he came right up to you

maybe this time will be different
and he will end that ironic trend

but then,
he too


asked you about your best friend.

The sky was a dark blue
with a hint of purple
the way the moon played off the clouds
as the stars leaped across the sky
and the wind stood still
As if no natural laws
Governed this night
even time seemed to stop and pause
as soft touch was felt against my lips
almost as if in awe
my eyes opened and that is what i saw

the difference between
first and last
the future or the past

the difference between
a prince or a king
a fling or a ring

the difference is timing

and timing is everything

My window has closed
I'm sitting here staring
at what could have been mine
through this crystal clear glass
and all i see
is window pain

When ever you walk in
You are the main attraction
the biggest thing in the room
everything else is just a distraction
because who could matter more than you
Stuffed with nothing but love and affection
with everyone you meet
you build a connection
like a gentle giant
you're always there to listen
so basically your ears are huge
and for this you are my muse
your strong powerful and durable
practically immovable
but so **** lovable
you'll never know how much your friendship has meant
your someone i could never forget
and neither could you
Cause you're my elephant.

ok here i am
just a little drunk
and its no secret ive been in a funk
but that doesnt seem to matter
cause you dont care
you're more caught up in your own problems
that you never want to share

and im okay with that
cause i undurstand
the only thing that bothers me
is that you dont see

i have been here the whole time
i see you for who you are
and you only wanted me
until i told you i wanted you
so i guess its true
that we only want what we cant have
so should i chase other women
Or hook up with your bestfriend
just so i can maybe have a chance with you in the end?

I know it's crazy
seriously considering it
and thats how much i want you
see im really a nice guy
but when i showed you that
you stoppped saying hi

I dont understand
you say you want a man but is that not what i am
im here
im honest
but that doesnt seem to matter
i tell you you're pretty
and you're not even flattered

ok thats fine
just tell me you dont want me
and i will mind my own
cause there's plenty a girl that wants me
its just you that im fond of
dont compare it to love
cause maybe thats the problem
you think you have me
but the truth is

i dont want you

unless you want me too

look i like you
dont act like you dont know
just cause i never said it doesnt mean it doesn't show
cause yes you and i both know
but none of that matters if your answer is no
so tell me the truth
right here
right now
if you want me im here
if not

then let me go

I need help
i'm stuck in a place with no time
there are no clocks on the wall
phones arnt allowed
and im appalled
cause i just put up my very last dollar
my rent is sitting on the table
Jack of spades
and a 6 of hearts
seriously is this the **** i get
as my life is picked apart
Why have i worked so hard
just to throw it all way on the flip of a card
yet i cling to this like this is the answer
this is whats going to save me
but im digging a grave
im buried in debt
the dealer has BlackJack
and i have nothing left