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Nov 2014 · 459
A Girl of ZTA
Derek Wings Nov 2014
She is steadfast and strong
Clean of heart and mind
This is where she belongs
And i want her heart as mine

Satisfied in being
Rather than seeming
Theres no one more appealing
Even when i am dreaming

She is of humble birth
but of noble worth
And she sees the same
In everyone on earth

She wears pink one Wednesday
In the fight against cancer
And its because of her one day
We will find the answer

She is humble in success
Without bitterness in defeat
She is one of the best
There is no one you will meet
Who is as worthy to pursue
One so devoted
To the Right, the Good, and the True

It's With a girl of
Zeta Tau Alpha
I fell in Love
The greatest of all things
Many of the line come from the creed of Zta to give it some context
Oct 2014 · 439
Speachless
Derek Wings Oct 2014
your beauty is captivating
everything is raptured
all my words are captured
i'm speechless
any talk is reachless
like a clock that doesn't tell time
words are useless
if i can't say to you what i'm suppose to
Like some kind of cosmic joke
every time i get the courage
to speak my mind i choke
i cant breath
everything is trapped underneath
all because you simply showed your teeth
this all happened
because you smiled at me
Sep 2014 · 430
A Crush
Derek Wings Sep 2014
My heart starts to rush
as i see her from the corner of my eye
my cheeks start to blush
as i watch her beauty pass by

sometimes try to say hi
but i grow weak
unable to the speak
im brave so atleast i try
but i only managed a wave
which feels more like goodbye

My knees start to wobble
and i feel as if my about to topple
im too old to have a crush
but here i am trying to talk to you
and the only sound is hush

Gibberish
its all i can come up with
then you leave
after i said something wierd

I hold whole conversations with myself
"why would you say that?
whats wrong with you?
dont you want to her know you like her?
next time you should ask more questions
and get her to talk
dont you know you talk to much
and sometimes cut her off"

I can barely talk to her
then i realize
how can i expect myself to make the first move
Leaning in to place a kiss
i blush so hard
my shoulders turn red
my chest is pouding
i can hear my heart in my head
and thats just when i think about it

she's the most beautiful thing in this world
and im just a boy mind has completely unfurled
just by looking the eyes of the only girl
Sep 2014 · 379
Fear
Derek Wings Sep 2014
Usually im fun spontaneous and cool
but when you come around
im no more than a fool
scarred speechless
stumpling over my words
Fear is my motivation
So i try to speak
to say something anything
hello or hi
I try with all my might
every syllable paused by fright
i simply watch you pass by

See I love the thrill
the adrenaline that im feelin in every part of me
How my heart beats fast when I jump off a 100 ft cliff
but with you my opinion suddenly shifts
i see you, my heart beats hard
im suddenly nervous anxious scarred
the sound of my heart beating in my ears
as if i can actually hear my fears
everytime i see you smile when you look a me
a thousands thoughts run through my head
and even more emotions
fear filling me with dread
over thinking everything, like im the girl
my stomach starts to swirl
butterflies at the the simple thought hi's
what do you think of me
i wish i knew
cause i dont know what to do
this something brand new
im confused
whats my move

Usually i know exactly what actions to take
exactly what to say
but this isnt something i can fake
i have this terrible feeling that it might be to late
so focused on making the right move
have i waited to long
or did i do something wrong
when i hinted at something between us
did i lose my opportunity
but then again
doesnt alcohol give me impunity
or do you just look at me with more scrutiny

I told myself i was waiting for the right moment
but i refuse to let the time pass by with giving it a try
this is crazier than anything i have ever darred
telling you how i feel, ive never been so scared
but fear is my favorite emotion
because it only comes around when your near
I swear I tell you everything the next time you appear
Oh no wait
Your here
*run
Aug 2014 · 406
A Man
Derek Wings Aug 2014
I sit here looking in the mirror
at a man i dont know
a man?
can i even call my self that
after my actions of last night
how can i be a man
how can i pride myself on being a gentleman
when all i do i sin
two girls in one night
one in the pool
and one in my morning sight

im disgusting to me
and what do other people see
ive become what i hate most
while "men" sit there and call me a player
like its some kind of toast
a compliment of sorts
as if its something i should boast
these boys think they see a man

a man.....
is that what i am?
Jul 2014 · 383
I see you
Derek Wings Jul 2014
I see you
watching me closely
hanging on the texts i type
cause god know we don't talk
at least not often

I know i could make you happy
I know i seem like everything you want in life
and maybe you have even imagined being my wife
though you wouldnt admit to something so sappy

Im sorry
thats all i can say
but not to you cause then we would both have to acknowledge it
what we both saw but knew are selves too well to pursue
but i guess then again
i always did encouraged you to try something new

but still im sorry
everything i did may have seemed like folly
but know everything you know is probably half true
if even at all
its cause i care for you as a friend
that i decided to save you from the me you would hate
it always ends bad
and thats why i dont date

Just know I see you
i see your pain
i know you think your insane
you think your feelings are in vain
and that i'm a little vain
just know not everything you see is true
cause maybe not as much as you would like
but i do think of you
Jul 2014 · 282
lost opportunity
Derek Wings Jul 2014
I was in the perfect position
everything was in place
then my pulse started to race
and i made a terrible decision
while in a liquid induced trance
that cost me my one and only chance

I did something foolish
she's as beautiful as a fresh bloomed flower
so i told her i wanted more
i gave her my doomed power

so now she wants me no more
the mystery that surrounded me has vanished
any rising feelings for me banished
her past is her fear and her heart is soar

the worst part....
these words that escaped the cage of my heart
through the trap door underneath my tongue
the same ones the threw water upon the embers
of a fire that could have outlasted time its self
came from a night
i don't even remember
Jun 2014 · 650
I tried to write a poem
Derek Wings Jun 2014
I tried to write a poem
To express how I feel
But there is no order of words
That could properly illustrate what
I so deeply wish to say
No rhyme scheme
Could make it more meaningful
No gracefully placed word
That is in just the right spot
Could compare your beauty to anything in this world
So my deepest fear
Is that you will never understand
How I feel
May 2014 · 561
An empty Chest
Derek Wings May 2014
Here lies an empty chest
at the bottom of a cave
and through a maze
carefully hidden to protect whats left
if you knocked against the hard exterior
you would hear an echo in what seems like a distant abyss
nothing but darkness
a pulsating sound is the only sign of life
everything else seems motionless
once a hiding place of great treasure
has been ravaged and robbed
everything of value stolen
there is nothing left
but an empty chest
May 2014 · 271
to do nothing
Derek Wings May 2014
I want you more than anything
and to get you i would do everything
but the best thing i can do
is the hardest thing to do

nothing
May 2014 · 373
A Former Self
Derek Wings May 2014
You can have anything you want,
but you can't have everything.
The time comes in everyone's life
where they must choose what's worth risking

I've been living day to day,
chasing something I can't even see.
It's a competition I didn't know I was in,
until I realized I was losing.

Now what's at stake and what I have left
is being weighed by Justice's scales.
All I'm left with is the skeleton of who I used to be
and a face that I barely recognize as my own...
Written by Jevette Brown

#LateNightTalks
May 2014 · 2.0k
Reputation
Derek Wings May 2014
The old me or the new me
Which do you see
My reputation is quickly changing
My own thoughts are rearranging
Who am I?
If perception is reality
Is it what you perceive
or me
If everyone thinks I did
And that's what they believe
Then I might as well have
But what if I didnt
And your interperpration is just speculation base on false accusation
Would your realize the man I am
Behind all the rumors
Or are you so accustomed to assumption
Unable to see my true character
Blocked by a mere reputation based on hear say
If I may
Come walk with me
Talk with me
Find out the truth
And maybe with you
We can find me
May 2014 · 481
Fuck Twitter
Derek Wings May 2014
**** Twitter
Every time she makes a post
I feel like I'm with her
I know why you retweeted that
Yes I'm still bitter
Thank you I needed that

Sit here studying every tweet
attempting to read between the lines
like its a portal to your mind
140 characters
not enough space to speak my mine
but for you thats probably plenty
if we are being honest
like your feelings for me
you probably dont need any

Unfollow her
dont search her name
to see if she has tweeted
since you last sent a text
just leave it be
**** twitter
your just bitter
of every tweet i see
not one is about me
May 2014 · 206
I would
Derek Wings May 2014
If i could make you happy i would
If i could make your pain go away i would
if i had to give you my happiness and take on your pain i would
i would gladly make that trade
and it would be the best decision i have ever made
May 2014 · 339
inside these pages
Derek Wings May 2014
I don't express myself
Except for here
Where i put everything
Only to fall on deaf ears
Words written on paper
That no one hears
You'll never never know
Sums up all my fears
Inside the storm rages
But its all here
Written
inside these pages
May 2014 · 436
text message
Derek Wings May 2014
Every minute I check
Always pretending
Like I felt a vibration
As I pull my phone from my pocket
And look with hesitation
I stare in the screen
Little green light in the top right
That's what I've been waiting for
That's the clue
I finally got a message
But its not even you
May 2014 · 223
why
Derek Wings May 2014
why
This is the type of night
Where i can think with ease
Soothing and cool
As I lay on my back
a soft gentle breeze
asking questions of the stars
i even look to mars
as i stare in the sky
i sit and wonder
why?
May 2014 · 227
Even Though
Derek Wings May 2014
I can see the future
i can see where this leads
And pain and regret
is all I see
but if i can ease your pain
even if just for a short while
ill take it all away
i would rather have had the chance
than nothing at all
this is my choice
so let me hold you
even though this ends in me being hurt
let me be your comfort
May 2014 · 608
A good life
Derek Wings May 2014
A good life
is a compilation of bad decisions
and risks taken
no regrets for the life i've led
my only regret
is what's left unsaid
May 2014 · 466
Let's Take a Hike
Derek Wings May 2014
Let's take a hike
let's go on a journey for life
no car or bike
this journey ends in you being my wife

I know you have a lot of baggage
but its good that your prepared
so of the mountain dont be scared
If your load is too heavy
then your load i will carry
put it on my shoulders
just think of them
as your pain holders

and when your baggage starts to hold us back
as our connection grows older
we will take a peak in your pack
and take out all the boulders
everything that no longer matters
ill take all away
ill even remove his dagger
from where he stabbed you in the back

sometimes we will go left
cause not everything is right
this mountain is tall
sometimes we will have to fight
Its an uphill battle
and the journey is long
you will feel tired and weak
but i will keep you strong

Remember this is a hike
and we're climbing by foot
there's only one rule
don't stay put

This is a journey for life
that ends in you being my wife
so get your baggage
bring what ever you like
and whenever your ready
let's take a hike
May 2014 · 228
The man i was
Derek Wings May 2014
What would you think of me
if you  knew about my past
every mistake and bad decision
do you think we would last
would it affect your vision  
if you knew about every choice ive made
would you be too afraid

what would you think of me
i wonder
would you think me less of a man
if you knew everything
that made me who i am

how can you expect me to open up
somethings, i can tell you now
will bring doubt of character
so my question is how
how can i tell you
when i'm afraid to lose you

What if i've cheated on a woman
opened up someone else's mail
What if i've even been to jail
how much judgement would you hold
if was so bold
to tell you about the old

if i say that the old me dies
when you look in my eyes
how would you feel about me
old or new
which man would you see
i question what would be your view
if you knew
the man i was
before i fell in love
May 2014 · 550
Finals
Derek Wings May 2014
Much more tired than I appear
My mind filled with fear
I hate this time of year
Just when the end is near
Finals are finally here
May 2014 · 320
more than nothing
Derek Wings May 2014
I just want more
Not a lot
Just more than  nothing.
May 2014 · 463
I love my life
Derek Wings May 2014
I love my life

yesterday
in bed i laid
with my best friend's sister
just one of the mistakes i have made

I love my life

I fell in love with my best friend
and maybe i will be until the very end
but even though it may never be returned
at least this much i have earned

I love my life

Geraldean
kindness in a world so mean
My godmother
has now joined my father
she went to heaven
days before i could give her the best news she has ever heard
as they fly across the sky
i cry everytime i see a bird

I love my life

In a world full of bad
and things that make us sad or mad
no matter what
there is something to be had

I love my life
May 2014 · 1.0k
Rebound
Derek Wings May 2014
I thought we had a connection
A lot more than a mere *******
I didn't tell anyone
but don't say you didn't see my affection
cause who knew?
everyone
everyone but you
now i'm sitting here giving advice
to a friend whose stealing the girl i like
from a man we both know wont suffice
will he?
is he not just a rebound you have found
or was that me?
May 2014 · 254
Formal
Derek Wings May 2014
At the bottom of a box
laid a question
for the woman i chose
and top of that
laid a single rose

i knew the moment you looked in my eyes
you would be my date
this isnt something that just happened
not an act of fate
but a choice i had made

i decided right then and there
that you would be mine
they said she's a freshman
but i didn't mind
she's beautiful cute and adorable
and even though i may not get a cooler*
im a fool For her

so i invite you to spend this night with me
as if to travel to a different world
walk through this portal
the question at the bottom of the box
Formal?
*Formal dates traditionally make a cooler for the man
Apr 2014 · 522
Patience
Derek Wings Apr 2014
Good things come to those that wait
something said by those who believe in fate
I've done my fair share of waiting
a better word is wasting
nice way of saying procrastination
an excuse made out of fear and desperation
lack of confidence and courage
your being held back by hesitation
patience will do nothing but have you wait too long
hold back for no reason
sabotaging your self
you've committed self treason  
dont wait on fate
if you think your being patient
your already too late
Apr 2014 · 351
Black out
Derek Wings Apr 2014
Black Out or Back Out

Music blowing in my ear
but temptation is all i hear

inhibitions subside and all that remains is desire
if you told me what i did last night
i would call you a liar

drink in my hand
women in my sight
i can barley stand
one hell of a night

my memory of my actions
as questionable as my actions themselves

everything is blurry
whats wrong, whats right
what did i do last night?
Im starting to worry

That line is so thin
i stumble from side to side
right and wrong
i stumble back in forth
until i swayed into a decision
that maybe i shouldnt have made

the only thing i do remember
is waking up in a place i don't remember
Apr 2014 · 409
A bullet to a Gun
Derek Wings Apr 2014
How am I to survive in this world
when you have left me for another
you were my diary my adviser and friend
but some man with a mask brought you to an end
who is he to take what i loved
you were taken from me by a bullet
its crazy cause when i think about it
you were like my gun
i...nothing but a bullet
when anger overwhelms
you were the safety the kept me from poppin off
when i lost all motivation
you were the gunpowder that pushed me forward
when i was lost
you were the barrel
you pointed me in the right direction
a gun made out of love in affection
the opposite of the tool destruction
that emptied you from chamber of this world
Now i have no gun
anger is now my gunpowder
and the safety barrel are gone
so anyone who is around should run
cause i'm popping off at everyone
in any every direction
A weapon of mass destruction
destroying everything I see

including me
Apr 2014 · 569
Bottom of the Bottle
Derek Wings Apr 2014
Everything i am is inside this bottle
I struggle with everything I have to find the bottom
But it seems endless and eternal
As i press my mouth to the lip
I sip from this bottle until i feel myself rip
Everything that dwells in the cavity of my chest
Escapes and leaves me
All the pain happiness and anger
Im left looking in the mirror at a stranger
Everything i was before gone
All i am is only what is left within this last bottle
This soon to be empty vessel now looks as i a feel
As hollow as the world i live in
Empty and cold
But i drink to the contrary
To place scolding and crowded
When I reach bottom of this world
And all that I see in life looks to be hostel
That's when ill know
I have finally reached the bottom of the bottle
Apr 2014 · 455
Bare Skin Angel
Derek Wings Apr 2014
Born with full white wings pressed against our backs
That represent all the sins that we lack
For every sin committed
A feather will fall
No sin is omitted or absolved
In the end, unable to fly
We call ourselves Fallen angels
Is that why an angel is the only way to describe you
As I notice your wingless back
There's not a feather in sight
Just your beautiful bare skin
Gleaming in the night
A life lived in sin
Yet an angel in my eyes
You take a glance behind my shoulders
Seeing evidence of my feathers
Although they may be torn beaten and weathered
I still have hope to fly
No
I have dreams to fall
Falling into you
A deep abyss
Full of pain and regret
I feel the fire dormant in my soul
As I wrap myself inside of you
With our backs beginning to touch
We lose sight of the open sky
My feathers begin to fill the ground
Where your innocence has long been waiting
Where we were once all angels
With wings full of feathers too heavy to bare
We lost sight of the faithful
As my back sheds its wings
The weight is much less painful
With the sins
of a Bare Skin Angel
Feb 2014 · 429
the struggle for strength
Derek Wings Feb 2014
As Men we are constantly judged on our strength
the more a man bares upon his shoulders the stronger he is
so as men we put as much on our shoulders until we can no longer put any more
we struggle to carry this load and the more we struggle the stronger we become
but again as men struggle is looked at as a weakness
so the strength of the struggle then is not apparent until our shoulders are left bare
and then there are many men who put no load upon their shoulders so they do not struggle
they shed that weight a little too early
and yet they think themselves strong amongst those who struggle
because do you not walk faster with no load upon your shoulders
putting those who are stronger further behind
all this is to tell you that you cant judge a man's strength based on the load he carries, how far he has walked, or how fast he got there.
There is know way for you to know how strong I really am.
Feb 2014 · 771
Forbidden Fruit
Derek Wings Feb 2014
If you were the forbidend fruit
Then you can call me adam
They say seduction is the devil’s playground
So wont you be my play mate
Many say adam made a mistake
But I prefer to think of it as fate
Because sin is my favorite vice
And I don’t listen to any advice
So come indulge in me
And our love will burn forever
In the darkest place
Where only a few will know what we do
Put that devilish grin on my face
As I plunge into your waist
You make my road to Hell
A Heavenly place
Feb 2014 · 2.0k
lonely
Derek Wings Feb 2014
i know more people than i ever have before
but im more alone than i've ever been in my life
these people dont know how i feel
so i question if its real
do they know who i really am
how could they if everything i feel is hidden inside
how can i expect them to trust me and stand by my side if even my thoughts i hide
it must be like staring at an empty sky
when it seems like nothing is there
but that's not quite fair cause its filled with air
something we need to survive
and i know there's wind at least that i can feel against my hair
just cause you dont see anything
and looks to be bare
that doesnt mean nothing is there
and thats my pain
my loneliness and fear
and no matter calm i appear
this empty feeling is always here
even when surrounded by the masses
i feel no different as every interaction passes
i feel as alone as man who lost his mother and his brother
his father and his daughter
this is the loneliest feeling of my life
and after all that
i feel like a man who even lost his wife
Jun 2013 · 1.2k
Feenin You
Derek Wings Jun 2013
Baby I want you
so come to my room and make it soon
cause its been a while
and i want to make you smile
If you come, i promise
you will be happy for days
and remember it always
if you're not convinced yet
then let me tell you what ill do
As soon as you come in
on my face there will be a big *** grin
First ill give you a kiss
then i will take a pause
and breath down your neck
let you wonder whats next
then i will pull you in close
and lay you in my bed
ill take a moment; stare in your eyes
until your face turns red
as my hand gently falls down your back
and pulls your shirt off
you'll lean back and giggle a little
as i take off mine
ill tell you your beautiful
but in my head its **** your so fine
as i hover over you for moment
and admire your body
right before we get naughty
it the calm before the storm,
and your body feels so warm
i take a breath
then ill take you
ill put you on the floor
have you on all fours
begging for more
and you will feel it
deep in your core
but thats just the beginning
the start of our sinning
so bring that ***
and make it fast
the sooner you get here the longer it last.
May 2012 · 851
a heart bleeds tears
Derek Wings May 2012
I run to my car
and speed to the ER
there's blood on my face
running like a flood
stuck in a death race
i fear that i might die
because im bleeding from my eye
i finally get to the nurse
but the pain just gets worse
she asks me whats wrong
theres a pain in my heart
but im bleeding from my eyes!
i see, so when did this start
i  tell her about you
how i had a strang feeling in my chest
from the moment that we met
it felt good so i thought it was for the best
but the pain didnt start
until the moment that you left
she told me i need to rest
and cleaned my face
dont worry, this is a very common case
you have a broken heart
well in your case it was torn a part
basically on your heart the is a tear
it happens a lot even though love is rare
when heart is broken, your body lets out a tear
its like blood but it comes out clear
its like that since you have nothing left inside
don't worry you will be fine
the fact you can talk is a good sign
your heart will heal with time
and you will be back in your prime
so how do i keep this from happening again
its a hard fight to win
your heart will be stronger once it has healed
after that you just have to keep it sealed
May 2012 · 603
how you make me feel
Derek Wings May 2012
with you i feel like super man
like i am just the ******* man
when you kiss me i get so high
everything you do makes me smile
basically you make me fly
and i stay up there for a while
much longer than just a few hours
im up there for weeks
like you gave me some sort of super powers
and you are my only weakness
you give me weak knees
but even though my knees buckle and i drop
you take me to the top
cause when you fall in love
you fall up
and everthying keeping you down you rise above
you bring out the best in me
in short
when your around i'm a better me
so i guess i must confess
that with out you i am much less
you inspire me to be more
now imagine standing on the shore
starring at the ocean
and compare what you see
to the vastness of my emotion
Apr 2012 · 488
so close
Derek Wings Apr 2012
you use to make me smile whenever i saw you
but now
i make myself smile whenever you see me
how did we get turned around
we were so close
nose to nose
how is it we never kissed
i shot his arrow
but i guess its no good without cupid's assist
it seems you think feeling go away
but thats only when they arnt real
you must not know how i really feel
cause mine will never leave
and i will never say farewell
until i see your are happy
until i know that you will always be well
Apr 2012 · 663
Depression
Derek Wings Apr 2012
lying in this bed
unable to sleep
thinking of my pain
unable to weep
the mess in my life
unable to sweep
i'm on a falling ledge
unable to leap
everything dear to me
unable to keep
all the benifits of life
unable to reap
my wounds wont heal
way too deep
just leave me alone
and let me sleep (forever)
Apr 2012 · 585
Feeling of the Moon
Derek Wings Apr 2012
When i look at the moon
i wonder how it must feel
to be surrounded by so much
nothing but space
surrounded by stars
lights years away
how lonely the moon must be
above a busy city
there are no stars
and the moon is full of craters
it must have so many scars
no one to understand
how much can a star compare to the moon
its easy to see how lonely it is
when at night it is put on display
for everyone to see
but it still shines bright for us
each and every night
sometimes the pain is to much
you only see the moon's might
but never its pain
because thats when its hides behind clouds and rain
such a beautiful being
with such strong feelings
all this it shares with me
as i look at the moon
a sight truly worth seeing
Apr 2012 · 861
young love
Derek Wings Apr 2012
you make my heart melt
and then evaporate
let me elaborate
when i see you i get butterflys
so much; i throw up
this means i love you too much
not an obsession
more like an addiction
something only seen in fiction
you can tell me anything
but i wont listen
i use to say life's not fair
but now your here
and its too good to be true
i finally found you
like you were the olive branch
and i was the dove
call it true love
Apr 2012 · 1.4k
a life worth living
Derek Wings Apr 2012
setting goals worth achieving
saying no words without meaning
trusting only those worth believing
putting my heart in girl worth loving
looking for sights worth seeing
carrying any weight worth lifting
taking on any pain worth bearing
rescuing everything worth saving
indulging in things worth sining
letting go of affliction for those worth forgiving
staying in my own world that's not worth leaving
sharing anything worth giving
looking in the mirror at a man worth being
i'm living a life that's worth living
Apr 2012 · 4.6k
Commitment issues
Derek Wings Apr 2012
haunted by things that could of been
or are they things that should of been
i guess if they were they would of been
my lack of commitment seems like a sin
when everyone around me is happy
they have someone to be with
they have someone to kiss
when i have nothing but people i miss
all the ones i  really cared about
i forced myself to live without
to me it seems beautiful some how
thinking bout that girl from the past
but i went for another girl
becuase i knew it wouldnt last
now it seem like time is passing by too fast
and im losing the chances that i thougt i would always have with the women i thought would never leave
but they all do
what reason would they wait for me
they dont know how i feel
and they dont know how i am
i didnt let them in
because they were already too close
and thats when we hadnt even kissed yet
its like when you texted me
but i took ten minutes to reply
because im not sure exactly what to say
maybe i should have said
i want you
and i want you to stay
Apr 2012 · 590
One Kiss
Derek Wings Apr 2012
All i want is one kiss
one chance
to see what it would be like
to have your lips
i know it is forbiden
but i dont care for the rules
your not that kinda girl
and he's not the forgiving type of man
you guys have something special
but you cant deny our connection
that's something yall dont have
i see you for more than you do yourself
and i know my time to make a move has past
feelings refuse to subside
its my fault i let you slip by
our first and last
all i ask for is this
a small piece of everything i missed
just this one

single

kiss                 *(bliss)
Apr 2012 · 3.5k
Caged Heart
Derek Wings Apr 2012
my heart is in a cage
the cage is invisible
but my heart is barely visible
hidden behind so many bars that are practically invincible
because every bar is made from a scar
i dont even know how many there are
so many; it seems more like a prison
everytime feelings have risen
they couldnt get break out
and who wants to break into a jail
when every attempt seems to fail
it seems ive been trapped in this cell
ever since that one time i fell (in love)
how long have i been here
i cant even tell anymore
sometimes i just sit and stare at the lock
and everthing that is blocking the door
someday it will open
as long as the lock isnt broken
atleast thats what i'm always hopin
I do believe one day
you will find the key
to this invisble cage
but you better hurry
it only gets stronger with age
beware of  the jokes
and meaningless conversations
that never get serious
because they will turn you away
as i try to run away
but i hope you swill stay
and break these scars
so i can let go of all the pain
and all this rage
stuck inside my rib cage
May 2011 · 574
Bars of Scars
Derek Wings May 2011
Pain sadness and fear

i was left with these...
feelings i can't appease
they rarely go away
atleast never with ease.
and when ever i get close,
my heart will freeze
put my feelings behind my head
as they put me behind bars
when i look around my cell
theres nothing keeping me in
nothing but Scars
May 2011 · 378
Dreams of Reality
Derek Wings May 2011
I'm in a deep sleep
and im living my dreams
so dont wake me
i like how everything seems
to be
i dont think you even could
these dreams are reality now
they become real
every time you look at me now
i am blind to everything but this
so i cant leave this world
when everything is right
reality is out of sight
and for my dreams I will fight
so i close my eyes                        and take flight
Nov 2010 · 494
True Pain
Derek Wings Nov 2010
True pain....
true pain is a secret
the kind you bear alone
no ones even knows
and as time goes on
it only gets worse
tell some one it hurts
get some help
it only gets worse
so you go on by yourself
an invisible load you carry
where every step is pain
and every step is harder
but you carry on just the same
this is true pain
the kind that is unrevealed
locked inside you
this pain is sealed
Aug 2010 · 811
Hope is My Curse
Derek Wings Aug 2010
I curse this iron Hope i have
That ties me to you
Like an iron rope,
That forces me to chase you
It has taken hold of me
and it wont let go of me
So I cant let go of you

I have every reason to forget you
But there is no reasoning with a heart
So every time I see you
I feel like this could be the start
I know its cant be true
but still I Hope
When I know there is no Hope

Even after all the lies
All the painful sighs
I still act suprised
To see my happines denied
Because my hope never dies

This Hope is so cruel
No matter how hard i try
No matter how many times i cry
I am still a fool
Still chasing after you

I am cursed by this idea
and the feelings it brings
forced to chase
what i know i can't have
these feeling are the worse
so i curse this Hope
Because,
This Hope is my curse
Jul 2010 · 553
love is, but love
Derek Wings Jul 2010
love is blind but it shows you the way

love is unreasonable but is gives you reason

love is pain but it takes it all away

love is priceless but has a cost you must pay

love is earned but also given

love is right even when its wrong

love is not needed but nothing else matters

love is crazy but makes the most sense

love is....but love
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