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Sep 2010 · 882
The Way It Used To Be
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Why have I just trudged along,
Every day just as before.
You have caused my heart to yearn,
Yearn for something more.

And though I was not satisifed,
Before you came along,
I was complacent with what I had,
Now that all seems wrong.

Now what used to be just "okay,"
Just isn't good enough.
But leaving my little comfort zone,
Is going to be quite tough.

But I'm not sure I have a choice.
I can't ignore this any longer.
Like a magnet I am pulled to you,
I am scared..but also stronger.

I'm afraid if I never see your face,
I will lose the bigger fight,
The one I have with just myself,
Almost every single night.

So please don't treat this tritely,
For it's so much more to me.
And I can't let my life to go back,
To the way it used to be.
Yes it's for you.
Sep 2010 · 1.4k
Meant
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Come and lay down with me.

Place your head next to mine on these soft pillows.
Let's breathe each other in.
Pretend that time is paused and we have forever to spend.

I want to touch your hair and the spot right at your temple that meets your jawline.
And run my fingers over your lips, slowly, as if my fingertips could memorize the lines in them.
I want to look into your eyes with mine fully open, so that you can see within.
And seeing you, and knowing you, my heart will swell up inside, and feel like imploding.

And we could lay like that for hours...in no rush, yet knowing we will do more in a little while, but wanting to prolong it, savor it, to put it to clear real-time memory, so we can recall it in detail later, whenever we wish.

And it won't be a heated union, not a fast release.
We deserve more than that...we deserve so much more than that.

There will be no tearing off of clothes, but rather, we will both stand, and undress one piece of clothing at at time, unveiling ourselves to each other.
Unveiling ourselves and discovering each other together.

And my hands will guide you to all the parts of me...all of them..because that's what I want to give to you.
And we will move without thinking...only feeling, only depth.

And we will surrender together to us....

There will be nothing like it.
Nothing to compare it to.

It will be meant and it will be all that is you and me.
Sep 2010 · 660
Heart Heed My Warning
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Sometimes I hold just a little back,
Avoid issues close at hand.
There's a good reason for all of that,
But you'll never understand.
Look closely, you will never see,
The scar I've learned to hide.
Behind my quick-witted humor,
My IQ, and my pride.
It's deeper than most valleys,
And it's never gonna heal,
And I can't stand the thought of you,
Ever knowing what I feel.
Torture would be recreation,
In comparison to this pain,
That I've tried to cry out, pry out,
Many times in vain.
And I'll never allow you to see it,
For what an atrocious sight,
To watch a beaten spirit,
Cry itself to sleep each night.
And so I cast a glowing smile,
I laugh and joke, and then,
Repeatedly warn my broken heart,
To never love again.
Sep 2010 · 799
Here's a Riddle For You
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Oh, to decipher riddles,
And scrutinize the word.
Yet voice can also alter,
Simple into quite absurd.
Rhyme, an open forum,
Is vague and often grey,
Sacrificing nothing but,
The words I can not say.
deanena tierney Sep 2010
I am made to feel ashamed,
Because of love I feel.
How does loving more than one,
Make that love not real?
There are so many faces here,
With wisdom, for which I long,
And I've fallen in love with many,
But I'm told that it is wrong.
And I just can not understand,
Why I'm taught I must not care,
For more than one soul at a time,
It just seems so **** unfair.
Sep 2010 · 398
How I Know
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Your qualities are limitless.
Each day's a newfound smile.
And I just love to laze with you,
And enjoy them for a while.
And it feels as if my entire heart,
Surrenders in your wake.
And I know it's love because I want,
To give more than I take.
And I just can't get close enough,
Please morph me into you.
As this longing, it feels like pain,
That's how I know it's true.
Sep 2010 · 401
Lost Poems
deanena tierney Sep 2010
The words they came so quickly,
To thought and to the mind.
But no one will ever know them,
Because of the pen I couldn't find.
The words they only visit once,
Oh memory!! Fail me not!
The greatest poem of all time,
Is the one I just forgot!
Sep 2010 · 790
Home To Me
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Home to me is more than just
A place I lay my head,
More than just four walls about,
Home to me instead....

Is my wooden swing that creaks a bit,
Everytime I sway.
Smelling jasmine when I walk out front,
Watching the puppies play.
The photo albums in my cedar chest,
My favorite Formosa tree,
The birdhouses on the fenceposts,
All of this is Home to me.

It's picking myself a tangerine,
From the car as I come up the drive,
Just sitting around the bonfire,
And waiting for Fall to arrive.
It's the kites that got tangled long ago,
In the top of the pecan tree.
It's everything I remember here,
All of this is Home to me.

Home to me is more than just
A place I lay my head,
More than just four walls about,
Home to me instead....
Sep 2010 · 432
I'm Sure To Go
deanena tierney Sep 2010
How many days will I be granted?
Is it based on how I live?
Will I be given an extra hour,
For every dollar that I give?

When I stop to help a stranger,
Do I gain another week?
Tell me will the inheritance,
Be postponed if I am meek?

Or do I have it backwards?
Does it work the other way?
Does every kind act- shorten,
My earthly length of stay?

Well I must be very honest.
The answers? I don't know.
But one thing is for certain,
In time, I'm sure to go.
Sep 2010 · 433
Not So Fast
deanena tierney Sep 2010
New love with its weak knees and nervous touch,
Slowly fades away, and the quivers aren't as much.
And when that day comes and boredom arrives,
I guess we'll both just move on with our lives.
Sep 2010 · 448
When all is quiet
deanena tierney Sep 2010
When all is quiet, I breathe out,
And can almost hear my heart,
As it beats in metered rhyme.

And I think of so many things,
Like mortality,God, and reason,
And the quickening of time.

And I find that all my thinking,
Does very little to even no good,
Just wasted hours it seems.

If we are just only heartbeats,
No just cause or purpose here.
Why do we have dreams?
Sep 2010 · 539
Welcome Death
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Weathered granite tells the day, when progress did but turn to mirth.

But, Alas! Does that mere marker pay, due tribute to a mortal's worth?

I do not hasten, nor implore, nor track; Nor speed, my certain demise.

But lo! I will not flail against in vain; Rather greet noble, as no reprise.

Recall of me, please, on finite close; Pacified; appeased; did he meet thy will.

Ere’ the task completed and thy journey done; Welcome Death will lay me still.
Sep 2010 · 758
You Are All So Hungry
deanena tierney Sep 2010
I feel it but their only loss, for society to cast me out.
For failure to follow guidelines set, by one who is without.
For it is but a shameful sight, to live, yet not be free.
Bound by a common prudence, is naught but tragedy.
What mine eyes take pleasure in, I will see, and see again.
And blinded be sad, the rest of men, to deny and call it sin.
And touch I will, repeatedly, the softest of all places,
While all the other's scrutinize, with disapproving faces.
And I will trespass, forbidden land; with fruits for my partaking.
And find the taste irresistible, despite society's forsaking.
And eat I will, until fill is full, then wipe my mouth in glee.
While stands 'round a miserable crowd, desiring to be me.
And if I love another, and yet another, and another more.
Won't I just be pleased and sated, more than I was before?
I find it but a blessing, that my heart can expand... to place,
Inspiration and diversity, into such tiny bits of space.
And I will not beg pardon, from thy judgemental hand.
But rather, offer pity to those, who will never understand.
deanena tierney Sep 2010
My Dear, Dear, Sweet, October! Come to cleanse again!
No passion can compareth, to the day you doth begin.

Summers' last bloom faileth; embers fully spent.
Winters' preparation; Spring has long since went.

Your healing powers riding in, on tails of northern wind.
Long I have been hailing thee, my dear and sweetest friend.

Crisp and cool, your depths of air, they soothe me as I tarry,
In Nature's muse at dusktime, thy winds..my troubles carry.

My Dear, Dear, Sweet, October! Come to cleanse again!
No passion can compareth, to the day you doth begin.
Sep 2010 · 570
By Nature's Way
deanena tierney Sep 2010
The waste of many years spent, neglectful, chaste.
The passing of time with trivial toilings - stealing,
Nature's harkened plea.
Come to me! For I am the enduring.
And you belong to me.

Smell the ripened apple, view landscapes' vast abode.
Dive into thy river's broad; Eye with wonder upon:
Mountain, vale, and sky.
For you are of me, and they; you..fixed.
Hear thy Nature's cry!

Each hour, whispered feet, they travel nearer to thee,
To meet with deafening silence, feast while you may.
See, feel, listen..be soothed.
From whence body born, you will return.
By Nature's way..removed.
Sep 2010 · 434
...they will go
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Oh, my dear friend! ...I hear the demons are at play!
And it saddens me that I can not, cast them all away!
While you're turning exhausted, every night in bed,
Demons are also toying with me, deep inside my head.
The draft slips in, as they usher in, yet another friend,
But be patient and be wise, as dawn foretells the end.
Waste not a bit of energy, on a battle vainly fought.
Hold fast; Endure the madness, in time t'wil be forgot.
The demons which do visit, are sent with reason. Know.
That once you learn the game, my friend, the demons?

...they will go.
Sep 2010 · 466
I Hurt Too
deanena tierney Sep 2010
I may never feel your arms about me,
Or your kiss upon my lips.
And I may never know your scent,
Or your hands upon my hips.

And I may never get the chance,
To hear you whisper in my ear,
And feel your breath upon my neck,
While you call me "my dear."

And there about a million things,
You and I may never get to do.
And I don't know whose fault it is,
But it's breaking my heart, too.
Sep 2010 · 619
Doomed
deanena tierney Sep 2010
There was a time when all that I knew was a lie.
But then I started a search for truth.
And I tried to always be honest and good,
So I could live without self - reproof.

And I thought that just by doing so,
That all would be easier to bear.
How could anything ever go wrong,
If all was approached with care?

But it appears that even when open,
Exposing all for others to see,
That, ironically, I can still inflict pain,
Just by being a "better" me.

So, once again, I've been proven a fool,
It matters not whether right or wrong,
Doing my best, has again, failed the test,
Perhaps I was doomed to fail all along.
Sep 2010 · 572
This Can't Even Express It
deanena tierney Sep 2010
No words can ever tell you,
Just what you mean to me.
But close your eyes a moment,
And imagine this with me.....

Lying flat out on your back,
On warm, white, powdered sand,
On a secluded hidden beach,
Pen and paper in your hand.

And peace just washes over you,
While basking naked in the sun,
Nothing to worry at all about,
All the day's work is done.

And your hand is clasped with another,
And you are not alone at all.
You listen to the waves just rolling in,
And hear a lone seagull's call.

And the clouds which are above you,
Are so soft and feathery,
That you lose yourself within them,
And you're totally care-free.

The image I have described above,
Is my most peaceful place- to be.
And it still doesn't compare to you, my friend,
That's how much you mean to me.
Sep 2010 · 760
An Old Book
deanena tierney Sep 2010
In a tiny, old, used bookstore,
In a quaint town in Tennessee,
There's a book that's in a stack,
That I wished belonged to me.

I happened upon that bookstore,
By accident, or it would seem so.
While on a very long road trip,
Searching for a cup of joe.

The boy that worked at the diner,
Where I stopped to get a bite,
Said there would be a coffee shop,
Just up the road on the right.

So I drove just a little bit farther,
Until the street turned into one-way,
And I saw that little coffee shop,
With a sign that said, "Closed Today."

But suddenly I felt a strong desire,
To park my car and get out.
To look closer at a very aged steeple,
And antiques that were scattered about.

And right next door to that coffee house,
Was the bookstore I mentioned before.
And the smell of dust and dry paper,
Engulfed me when I opened the door.

From somewhere in the very back,
A woman's voice said, " I'll be right out."
And I replied, "It's ok,  take your time,"
"I'm just gonna take a look about."

And starting at the very left front wall,
I made my way slowly around.
Moving from "Fiction" to "Philosophy,"
My footsteps, the only sound.

I may have missed a book or two,
Along the very back wall,
For fear that if I moved even one,
The entire shelf would fall.

Just when I decided that I should go,
That it was late, and I must leave,
I saw a book that beckoned me,
That had "Old Poems," on it's sleeve.

It was in a rack at the counter,
Where now sat the woman with a smile.
And because I love "Old" and "Poetry,"
I read through it for a little while.

Most of the pages inside that book,
Were so faded, that I could not see,
But the words on the inside cover,
Made quite an impression on me.

The child-like script was in pencil,
And the little girl went on to say,
That grandma had given the book to her,
In 1890, on the twelfth of May.

She went a little further to remark,
It was a present for the day of her birth,
And then I spied a little orange sticker,
That was to indicate it's worth.

The sticker, it said ten dollars,
But I noticed it was marked down.
The woman behind the counter said,
"That family still lives in this town."

And I knew I had to have that book,
And take it back home with me.
Because of all the memories it held,
And all of it's history.

Suddenly I remembered I had no cash,
No money with which to buy,
And, yes, I could have found a way,
But I really didn't even try.

And ever since that very day,
When I left that book behind,
I find myself checking inside covers,
Just to see what I might find.
deanena tierney Sep 2010
I will take the harshness,
And a beating I can bear.
Even though it's undeserved,
Embarassing and unfair.

You can tell me what to say,
And criticize all that I do.
And I will bend right over,
So it's easier for you.

I will be all your effort,
So you won't have to try.
In fact I will do anything.
But don't ask me to lie.
Sep 2010 · 583
The Uncertainty Inside
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Put me where you want me.
Set me in my place.
Can't you see the look of,
Indecision on my face?
I don't know what I need to do.
Or even where that I should be.
Can't you see I am confused?
Please make this choice for me.
You see, I am a naive girl;
A coward, so it seems.
I can't even trust myself,
Let alone - my dreams.
I wish my faith were stronger.
Even if unreal, it still would guide.
And help me make some sense of,
The Uncertainty Inside.
Sep 2010 · 866
Regretfully Yours
deanena tierney Sep 2010
When the sands of time have finished,
And I wait to breathe my last,
Will I wish I had done something differently,
While reflecting on my past?
There is one thing which now comes to mind,
A "once in a lifetime" chance I may have lost.
When I stifled a dream with a soul mate poet,
Because I was afraid of what it might cost.
The days, they pass so quickly by.
And doors that were open - now close.
And stagnantly I still just sit here.
Looking for answers that nobody knows.
And in my heart I already feel,
A loss that swells with every sigh.
Of the great love affair I almost had,
But instead,  let pass me by.
deanena tierney Aug 2010
We gazed upon a butterfly,
as it rested on a tree,
And as I sat and looked at it,
a thought occurred to me.

Many words could be used,
To describe that butterfly.
But first, I'll choose to use the ones,
That are strictly clear to eye.

The diverted tail was of black,
The body, was likely an inch.
The wings were many shades of blue,
With a spot of purple, just a pinch.

White outlined all of the colors,
From where I sat, this I could see.
Theres my objective description,
Now I'll describe it differently.

The fragile little butterfly,
With violent, majestic hues,
Gave off a translucent shimmer,
That changed with changing views.

It paused ever so sweetly,
To bless me with it's grace,
And my heart swelled within,
While I sat here in this place.

The colors were made deeper,
By the brilliance of the sun.
There's my subjective description,
But one more thought before I'm done.

It really makes no difference at all,
The words we use or choose to imply,
Because in the end if you think about it.
It's still the same butterfly.
Aug 2010 · 483
I Missed IT
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Somehow I missed the sunset.
Though I'm sure it did occur.
The sun appeared clear this morning.
But last night it wasjust a blur.
It seems in my quite hurried pace,
I neglected to take it in.
And I am sorry to have missed it,
And I hope it happens again.
Aug 2010 · 785
Selfish
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I just can't find the balance, you see.
Of where my energy ought to be.
And/or, if any, and to what degree,
But currently, sadly, it's all about me.
And that may possibly be my biggest tragedy.
Aug 2010 · 527
Ravenous
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Force feed me your reality,
I am hungry but can't eat.
And my mouth is drooling,
From the smell of rotten meat.

Pry my teeth like iron bars,
A little bit is all I need.
Offer me just a  little taste,
Then leave and let me feed.
Aug 2010 · 579
Shh!
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Somehow you always find a way in,
Through the bleakest me.
And cause me to admit begrudgingly,
I've a gentler side to see.

But do me a little favor, please,
Keep that secret deep inside,
For it has taken me years to find,
A place the nice me can hide.
Aug 2010 · 592
Fools' Game
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I am the wisest in all the land,
You are but a fool.
I am the master of a great work,
And you are but a tool.
I hold the strings so tightly that,
You move at once to my will,
The power that I impose on you,
It gives me quite the thrill.
And I won't ever relinquish it,
In fact, I'll use it more,
Until I find the amount of force,
That you just can't endure.
And I will take such pleasure in,
You falling to your knees.
And not relent at all, even when,
You beg me pretty please.
And fully at my mercy,
I will offer no balm for pain,
And then I will find another fool,
And do it all over again.
Aug 2010 · 500
The Shadows Are Mine
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I stare through the shadows,
With eyes acutely keen.
Eyes that have adapted to,
Light, dark, and in between.

For I have fought the shadows,
And I did win the fight,
I exposed the greyness,
Of all the black and white.

Crouched there in the shadows,
There waits a hidden foe,
Mistakenly believing that,
His colors will not show.

I live within the shadows,
Accustomed to their feel,
And effortlessly I ascertain,
What is false or what is real.

Come forth from the shadows,
Challenge if you must.
But be warned, you naive soul,
You will be turned to dust.
Aug 2010 · 651
The Master
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Oh yes, you are the master.
The master of disguise.
Shielding dark deception,
Behind those honest eyes.
With your total mastery,
Making truth of lies.

And I am but a puppet,
Moved by your command,
Feeling false compassion,
When you hold my hand.
With your total mastery,
That I can't withstand.

Leading me to hopefulness,
Using words as bait.
Taking pleasure placing me,
In a delusional state.
With your total mastery,
Bad just feels so great.

Then with but a smirkish grin,
Never shown before,
You shattered me to pieces;
Left them on the floor.
With your total mastery,
I changed forevermore.

Now I offer many thanks,
Because upon review,
I am so much the wiser,
And self- protected too.
For with your total mastery,
I am now just like you.
Aug 2010 · 618
Promptly
deanena tierney Aug 2010
To know a love that transcends all,
Where all else fades to grey,
And all the trivial toilings known,
Promptly drift away.

And there's no longer any need,
To question future lot.
And all the failings of your past,
Promptly are forgot.

And euphoria is a daily breath,
Effortlessly received.
And all the love that is professed,
Promptly is believed.

And any foe which may appear
Is easily defeated.
And every "I love you," softly spoke,
Promptly is repeated.

And all thoughts, silently known,
No words even shared.
And any injury received by one,
Promptly is repaired.

But when one of two depart,
And one life is ended.
Hasty promises of forever,
Promptly are rescinded.

And I'm not certain all the pro's
Can make up for the con,
Of enduring a day when such a love,
Promptly is just gone.
Aug 2010 · 619
Two Become One
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Can I be the spark
That doth ignite your flame?
The prompting of your pen,
To express us both the same.

The quill and talent yours.
May the catalyst be me.
Separated, intertwined,
One product.........poetry.
Special thanks to A. Thomas Hawkins...a great mind...for his assistance with tweaking this poem for the better.
Aug 2010 · 1.8k
The Safe Harbour
deanena tierney Aug 2010
When the sea-raged ship came into view,
And the crowded harbour's whistle blew,
The sky took on a relieved hue,
As did my face when I saw you.

And there I stood, with eyes frozen so still,
And by just staring, they beckoned my will,
Closer you came, Oh! the thrill!
Inch by inch, my heart did fill!

And I gave just but a begging whispered plea,
For safety to attend from the shore out to thee.
And so ended a wonderful voyage at sea,
My love, once again, had returned to me.

When the sea-raged ship came into view,
And the crowded harbour's whistle blew,
The sky took on a relieved hue,
As did my face when I saw you.
Aug 2010 · 657
I Don't Really Care
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I once played under a waterfall,
With spray whipping my hair.
I got fully soaked and dripping wet,
But I  didn't really care.

And once I ran around the house,
In only my underwear,
And my big sister laughed at me,
But I didn't really care.

And one day a big storm came up,
And I just stood right there,
Lightning flashing all around,
But I didn't really care.

I would ride my bike so very fast,
And jump fences that said, "Beware."
And take a few licks when I got home.
But I didn't really care .

And now I simply write poetry,
Words with a little bit of flair,
And no one really "gets" me,
But I don't really care.
Aug 2010 · 1.3k
Everything Comes Around
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Once upon a time, there was a little blonde haired boy.
Who wished upon a shooting star, for a brand new toy.
And no, it was not any toy, it was a boomerang he desired.
And so he asked his mother, and here is what transpired.

"Oh mother! Can I have it?  Can I have it pretty please?"
The little boy, begging, dropped right down to his knees.
The mother quietly replied, " But, I just don't have the money."
And then she tried to make him smile, by saying something funny.

The little boy, he understood, as luxuries were always so few.
And he never even said a word, when the neighbor boy got two.
He would just sit outside and watch as the other boy would play,
All the while just dreaming of getting one of his own someday.

And then one windy day in fall, when the all the trees were bare.
The little boy saw a boomerang, on a branch just hanging there.
And after giving some thought to how, he climbed right up that tree.
And claimed himself a boomerang, for which he had waited so patiently.
Aug 2010 · 1.5k
Let's Do This Together
deanena tierney Aug 2010
If I were to write our story.
Could others comprehend,
The depth of what I feel for you,
Can you help me tell them, friend?

We shared our poetry together,
And inspired the other along.
Gaining admiration as we went,
Finding somewhere to belong.

You found me in my darkened world,
All huddled on the floor.
You picked me up and dusted me off,
And I was better than before.

You encouraged me when times got rough,
When I felt like giving in,
And you took the broken pieces of me,
and put them together again.

You made me smile from the heart,
After some very long days.
In fact, you made me love you,
In so many, many ways .

No words could ever thank you,
Or ever tell the whole,
Of the passion and the joy that you
Bestow upon my soul.

If I were to write our story.
Could others comprehend,
The depth of what I feel for you,
Can you help me tell them, friend?
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Of what can I control?
What depends on me?
Patient contemplation,
Makes it clear to see.

To toil with externals,
Is priceless time just spent,
Like staring at a clock, but still,
In awe of where the time went.

So let me deal internal.
To what is mine...let me give care.
Let my soul be self sufficient.
In spite of all which it must bear.

Let me be quiet and reflective;
A disciplined citadel.
Write and read and practice,
No passion trite compel.

And even aims that promise despair,
I'll usher right in...if needed to.
For it all leads to my freedom,
And my quest for what is true.
Aug 2010 · 632
A Few More Words Of Wisdom
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Truth is always real.
What seems real isn't always truth.
If you're having any doubt,
Wll then, you should ask for proof.
Aug 2010 · 776
Life In The Fast Lane
deanena tierney Aug 2010
If I just keep running,
fast..as fast can be.
All the worries stalking,
Won't catch up to me.
Wake up bright and early,
Hit the door as soon,
Run a million errands,
All before 12 noon.
Play the music really loud,
To help increase my pace.
Just act nonchalantly when,
They look me in the face.
Clean the house with earbuds in,
Dusting every nook.
Let the cell just vibrate,
Never stop to look.
Take a Benadryl exhausted,
Strip off clothes and then,
Fall asleep with head in hands,
Wake to do it all over again.
Aug 2010 · 441
You Know What's Eating Me
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I know it hurts you to see me cry
and I'm sure you know the reason why.
So why do you ask me, even though,
The cause of my pain, you already know.

Please stop all this pretending , Dad,
We both know you are also sad.
I wish some tears would fall from you,
So I'd feel like mine are ok too.

And we could sit and sob together,
And not feel so far apart.
Our grief could just be split in half,
We'd share a broken heart.

You don't need to be strong for me,
It's your weaker side I need to see.
So let's mourn Mom together tonight,
So that me and you, Dad can be alright.
Aug 2010 · 655
Also In Need Of A Title
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Sometimes people just don't love you back,
And they choose to go away.
And you'll never understand the reasons why,
And it doesn't matter anyway.
Aug 2010 · 384
No Justice Here
deanena tierney Aug 2010
There is a lonely place out there,
Where I know that I belong,
Where right is right, and only white,
And wrong is never wrong.
And there is no judge looking down,
No jury in which to sway.
Only me...there is only me,
And that's where I will stay.
Aug 2010 · 614
Ignorance Is Bliss They Say
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I don't need to know everything,
Sometimes it's best to let things be.
When I look in my mirror,
I don't like what I see.
A coward is looking back at me,
Who proclaimed to be so strong.
But I buckled under the pressure,
And proved myself quite wrong.
And all the explanations,
Well they matter none at all,
You placed me on that pedestal,
Just to watch me fall.
Aug 2010 · 570
My Heart Is Heavy
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Just a little note to tell you,
A little about my day,
Work was long, I saw your mail,
And the sky was grey.
After work I went and met,
With my daughter at the mall,
And no she is not coming home,
And doesn't miss me ...not at all.
I see your orange little blinking light,
At the bottom of my screen,
But I don't feel like talking right now,
I'm not trying to be mean.
I must go to the attorney's office,
Very early in the morn,
I'm really just a walking zombie,
Who is torn..so very torn.
I cried in the rain this evening,
And no one even knew,
I wonder what you did today,
Was it raining there too?
I know that you are reading,
Everything I write,
And somehow I feel a little better,
A little bit more "right."
I have grieved a lot of loss,
Over the past few years,
Tear-free then, but crying now,
A lifetime's pent up tears.
You've always had all the answers,
So please, can you tell me, my friend,
Just when will the weights be lifted,
When will my confusion end?
Aug 2010 · 828
The Battlefield
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Please do not convict me,
Of a crime I've not yet done.
Just because I pondered retreat,
Doesn't mean that fear has won.

Every time a war is waged,
Within myself, I try,
To view the battlefield from afar,
With every slant of eye.

And strategically position myself,
To see every point of view.
And then do some recognizance,
Before deciding what to do.

Please do not convict me,
Of a crime I've not yet done.
Just because I pondered retreat,
Doesn't mean that fear has won.
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I see you there in the shadows,
Behind the curtain where you stand,
You left the play at intermission,
And the show can not go on as planned.
Is it cold there in the shadows too?
Because I'm freezing in the light?
I don't feel myself without you here,
Nothing feels quite right.
I can't take the stage without you, friend,
You said you would hold my hand.
And despite you telling me why you left,
I still don't understand.
Aug 2010 · 542
The Receiver
deanena tierney Aug 2010
If I am just patient,  
And if I just stay still,
Answers become apparent,
Conserving my own will.
And all I really have to do,
Is wait for what will be,
Without any interference,
From indecisive me.
deanena tierney Aug 2010
From the center of the carousel,
I see it all go by.
All shades of different colors,
Flash before the eye.

From the center of life's carousel,
The view, alike, as such,
Changes travel just as fast,
It's shades are just as much.

And with each rotation,
And every unfocused sight,
By motion we are blinded,
As if stunned by a bright light.

And still here in the center,
Anchored, remaining still,
The carousel keeps circling,
Despite the strongest will.
Aug 2010 · 1.3k
Nobility vs. Stupidity
deanena tierney Aug 2010
A sign of true nobility, they say,
Is to exit premature.
Denying the host the privelege of,
Showing you the door.
Scrutiny upon your leaving,
You're regarded a bit obscure,
But did she really want you to go,
And tell me are you quite sure?
No offense regarding the title but it seemed to fit perfectly.
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