I always come back here Where I can speak without shame Where there are no acquaintances to judge Or offer ignorant advice...no whispers As I pass I pass uncaring anyway I've learned no one really matters No one's thoughts or opinions mean a **** thing in the end The way I see it we are all born with an estimated 75 to 100 year life sentence I've spent over half my term sharing space with one addict or another Checking the cell for contraband while they sleep Not for fear they would take me out with it More out of fear they would end their sentence prematurely Which is so unfair to the rest of us. And when the sleepless nights Get to be too much I just go a little mad Enough to get solitary for a little while You see I've learned enough lessons for now I have no use to learn more than a man needs to know in this place I can recognize a liar and the one who schemes behind my back But most disturbing I see the brokenness of all mankind that will never be fixed At least not while "in ward."
The hours seem to pass so slow While the years go spinning by Forgotten dates of long ago So fixed. Yet still they fly. As wind carries forth the seasons And shadows mark the day So go the treasured memories As the mind meets with decay.
I'm attractive enough Smart too Willing to do things Others won't do The purple in the room of white The spirit that no one can hold Nothing ever meets my prize No one ever sparks my soul Alone I wander alone I live And cry in torture every night That I've no one to share this life That nothing no one makes me right
The wind will grant its pardon And the clouds a blessed reprieve The sun will take the shorter route And earlier will come the eve. The air itself will become more clear And the horizon will begin to sprawl The smell of fire and crisp leaves Will welcome in the Fall.
"Crackle" goes the brittle leaf Orphaned by the tree. "Shh!" the dow responds to it "The hunter's after me!" The hunter takes his aim and whispers "I've got you now..at last!" Until the bear sneaks up behind and grinds out,"not so fast!"
With a jaw tight as a vise And eyes with pinprick beam I swallow once unnoticed Withdraw at every seam No thought at all...a statue No ears to longer hear A focal point behind you Is all that is still clear A moment yet a lifetime A drop without the fall I breathe and walk right past you As if you weren't there at all.
There are no knights in armor There is no castle by the shore No three wishes in a bottle No living happily evermore There is no perfect ending And much to my dismay You will never see a "miracle" No matter how hard or long you pray. Good doesn't always beat evil Most times it's the other way around My tales are not quite as fun to hear But I've both feet on the ground I myself fell victim once 'Course that was many years ago Believing in that one true love That I saw come and I saw go.. We all grow up...I'm older now So much older and more wise Little girl.. that's why I share the truth So that you won't believe the lies.