Everyday, I make an effort to talk to you, but you always move away the moment you see my shadow.

You don't know how much it hurts. Where do I even begin?

The sharp pain in my head, the choking feeling in my neck, or the deep cut in my heart?

Because tell me, how would you feel if all you're efforts were put to waste?

"Tragic," you would say each time I get a chance to catch you before you leave.

It's no tragedy, dear, it's one godforsaken melodrama.

I've never tried so hard to apologize to someone unwilling to forgive.

And each day I suffer by your absence, my mind snaps into two: one that hates you, and the other that wants you back.

And unlike a tragedy where the hero dies, I live with an empty mind and heart.

Just how many tears do you think I've shed just to get you back?

10 droplets?

No, a whole tub won't even hold all of it in.

The only reason why I've felt this down is because of you.

You who treated me humanely like no one would, yet left me still like a thief who stole my humanity.

You who made me think you cared when you didn't.

You who gave back what I lost only to ****** it away again.

I hate you.

And I hate that I've missed you more each passing day.

Hindi minsang naisip ng aking munting ulo na ika'y darating sa aking buhay.

Araw-araw nakikita kita mula sa pagpasok mo sa paaralan, pag-akyat ng hagdan, at paglagay ng bag sa ilalim ng upuan.

Araw-araw ako'y napapaisip, kung ano ba't lagi kang tahimik, laging malamig ang hangin, at laging tulala ka sa papel mo na walang laman kahit sulat man o doodle.

Ano ba?

Kung sa tingin mo ay nagkakagusto ako saiyo ay hindi ka nagkakamali ngunit hindi ka rin tama.

Binibini, ako'y nangangamba kung ano man ang nasa isip mo.

Sa unang tingin pa lang ay makikitang hindi ka pangkaraniwang estudyante.

Ikaw yung tipong hindi magsasalita kahit na nahihirapan, yung tipong hahayaang magpasakal sa taong kaniyang iniibig, yung tipong kagaya ko.

Araw-araw tinatanong ko ang Panginoon at sarili kung ano ba't nakita kita at nakilala?

Hindi ako nagkamali, katulad na katulad mo nga ako.

Katulad mo akong ayaw bumitaw sa patalim ng pag-ibig kahit na paulit-ulit na itong isinaksak sa aking puso.

Katulad mo akong gagawin ang lahat maibalik lang ang nakaraan kahit na matagal na niya akong itinakwil at iniwan.

Katulad mo akong malungkot na nagmamahal araw-araw.

Kaya, binibini, sana'y makaabot sana saiyo ang mumunting mensaheng ito mula sa wasak kong puso:

Mahalin mo man siya o oo, mamahalin pa rin kita araw-araw.

Precious eternal sunshine,
Whom I wish to be mine,
Let not your rays die,
Do, but pour rain in your eye.

Your grace be full as summer,
Your gaze be warm in winter,
Calm thyself in dusk fall,
For ever shall I wake to your call.