Forests and trees
And the shiny morning dew
Brings a quiver to my knees
As if It brings back a dream I once knew
Blooming flowers
And wilting trees
Morning Spring Showers
And sleeping bees
Rippling waters
And a gentle stream
Falling snow glimmering with glow
And downpouring rain that gives the world a clean coat
So to nature I say
With your beauty and grace
You have made my day
And brought a tear down my face

Cracked relationships
To Cracked skin
Cut friendships
To cut wrists
Broken Families
To broken necks
Breathing
To feeling
Feeling
To crying
Crying
To writing
Writing
To hanging
No one noticed
No one cared
They never saw me struggling
They never saw me cry
They never saw me bleed
Now I hang from a fallen chair
Now my sight goes black
Like the night that took my life
The knife that knew me most
Is beside my bed
The noose that hugs me most hugs me now
In my ultimate escape
My broken family now shattered
My cut friendships now split
My cracked relationship now drowned in sorrow
I'm no longer breathing
I'm no longer thinking
I'm no longer feeling
I'm no longer writing
I just hang their dying
The days I was called names
The days I was judged
Fade away
My anxiety
My paranoia
My depression
My Anorexia
Are all cured by a one time medicine
As I hang I think
Look dad I can finally fly
I'm finally free
No longer will gravity affect me
So goodbye
Good day
And goodnight

It’s funny to think
That people change in a blink
One second it’s this amazing light
The next second it’s a crow that’s taken flight
The moon changes phases every night
Like everyday it needs to change to stay relevant
Society does the same thing
We force ourselves to be relevant to not be forgotten
To not be isolated
To not be “weird”
Today's society find depression relatable
Someone's downfall is a funny thing
But no one thinks of it
Why does something so negative be relatable
Why are all the kids depressed
Why is the media focusing on the bad
Why is everything negative
Why does society tell kids they're not good enough
If their not skinny enough
If their not fat enough
If their not funny
If their too boring
If their not pretty enough
If their too pretty
In the eyes of society were all not good enough
But let’s think for a second
What is good enough.

I'm not okay
I'm not alright
My mind is filling with negative permanent thoughts
The kinds of thoughts that will drive a man insane
The kinds of thoughts the could scar a body
Scar a mind
And scar the people around them
The kinds of thoughts that take lives from people
The kinds of thoughts that make people want to hurt themselves
I say i'm fine but I don't mean it
I say i’m okay but that's a lie
I say It’s gonna be okay but I lie to myself
I lie to myself to create a shield from myself
To shield my mind from the harsh reality that im not okay
To shield my heart from another break down
To shield my body from another attack from myself
These racing thoughts are driving me mad
But don't worry I'm fine
I'll be okay
Don't worry about me
Everything is gonna be alright
I promise
Oh by the way
I lied.