I spent my evening weaving
together a fantasy
of the future I silently ache for.

I dreamt of finding love,
somewhere where love belongs.

So imagine my surprise
upon drifting into sleep
to find somewhere in the
depths of my subconscious


you are there.
begging me not to move on.

My stomach turns.
I should be sleeping.
but I can't.

when you joked
and said I had no heart,
nothing but a
seething black hollow,

were you really just telling me
from the start
that you would leave me
and what would follow?

Desperation in rage.
You are the fire
in my *soul.

inside of my mind
something lingers, awaiting
nightmares
aflame with inner demons.

The
vast
light
shone,
dreading darkness
she could not defeat.

The only love I long for,
is your nicotine breath.