you liked to swim in waters that were too deep

where my feet couldn't touch the ground

i almost drowned trying to follow you

you liked standing on top of mountains

because you belonged on top of the world

my skin was raw from the sandstone

you live in adventure

and i live in your shadow

the day you leave i'll be stuck here forever

because it seems i've forgetten how to walk on my own

you called yourself a safety net
and i told you that wasn't true
but every night after my trapeze act
i knew you'd be there to catch me
and now everything i thought was funny doesn't make me laugh anymore
because you were right

and i am falling

I'm sorry for muttering when i speak sometimes  
And I'm sorry i walk so slow
I'm sorry for being short and making you look down on me
I'm sorry i still order kids meals at restaurants
i'm sorry i'm bad with adults
I'm sorry i haven't done anything
And I'm sorry I haven't seen the world
I'm sorry for wanting you in the way that i do
and mostly
I'm sorry for not being someone you'd want

Sorry

Sorry for sending you that
If my concern is embarrassing

Anxiety is squeezing my heart
And I thought tin cans on string was a good idea

I forgot that tin cans might cut the sides of your face

they say we meet people for a reason

so then i must have met you to feel true agony

i know you so that i may want you

and i want you so that i cannot have you

if it is true that this is fate

then fate must want me dead

i can wait tonight
and sleep alone

knowing i'll see you tomorrow

i can live in delusion
and daydream out loud

because there's a chance i'll see you tomorrow

soon you'll be gone
and i won't be this lucky

But for now i'm alright

until tomorrow

"I worry that’s how it is with first loves.

They wring your heart for all it’s got,

and then it’s over,

and you’ve got nothing left to give anybody else."