Oh. So you're back.
I knew it.
She didn't cut it
So you've come back around.

You still have faith in us?

Where was that faith
When you left me?

Where was that faith
When I begged desperately?

Where was that faith
When you moved on from me?

It wasn't there.
You left.
**So now it's my turn to bail.

You are nothing
That I'd fight for
Why?
Because I already fought.
I did all I can do
So now I give up on you.

I feel like I'm drowning
But I'm on dry land

I'm gripping so tightly
But there's nothing in my hands

I'm sleeping sublimely
But I'm dreaming chaotic things

I fell in love with you.
But then you took that away.
And gave that "in love" to her.
And left me with blank lines.
And empty dreams.

**** me if it makes you feel alive

Drain me if it makes you feel revived

Hate me if it makes you feel alright

Hurt me if it makes you feel complete

Suffocate me if it helps you breathe

Cut me if it stops your bleeding

Slap me if it calms your nerves

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**** me if it makes you feel alive

I've spent most of my life running

Running from my past

From what I used to be


I've spent most of my life running

Running from the truth

From my horrible reality


I've spent most of my life running

Running blindly, endlessly

Recklessly escaping, retreating


I've spent most of my life running

But maybe you can only run so much

Until you just can't go any farther


Maybe you can only escape so much

Before your running is pointless

Because you've been running in circles the whole time..

the way the light in her eyes suddenly disappears
the way her words leave her lips
the way her springing legs stop
the way her thumping heart is gone
the way she was there and now is no more

The cold wind shatters me inside
as the darkness takes my life
the frost starts to spider up my skin
the soul that was there  is now nothing within
the tarp just holding as a house
the empty pockets, empty wallets
as if a mallet has taken my life

her hair skims her back like seagulls over water
her eyes light up the night like stars are inside her
her heart thumping like an elephants step
her will to stay away
her feet never lose beat
her drive to run,
run away from him