if I hadn't been such a coward
and I'd let my feelings show
maybe then she would remember me

if I hadn't bitten off more than I could chew
maybe I wouldn't have choked
and maybe
just maybe
then she would remember me

if I hadn't burned it to the ground
using her beauty as the flame
and my addictions the gasoline
maybe then she would remember me
fondly

I scream until my throat burns and melts and my body shatters into oblivion.
And then you hear me.

I've been everywhere
and
there's nowhere to go.

  ~mce

I have spent 45 tedious, difficult
years trying to learn the universe.
Now, I spend all my energy
trying my best to unlearn it.

Which is better?
Which is even different?

  ~mce

Weave your
nightgown
out of the
darkness.
Modesty
imparts to
your nakedness
willowy grace.
I thirst for
clarity.
I want
to drown in
the white bones
beneath it.

  ~mce