It's 4am

And I lay here awake
Beside you

4 years go by
And yet I'm still here

I still call for your love
Which I don't receive

But yet here I stay
Waiting for you to notice me
Waiting for you to kiss me

I get a pack here and there and off he goes

We love together
Nothing has happened
It's been 8 days

The touch
I miss it so much
I miss those hot hands

These small hands of mine won't do

I need you
I want you
I crave you

You have me
But you don't want me

What am I suppose to do love
Wait for you?

Do I fight for you
Or leave you

You will never feel the way I feel
You will never be put down
You will never have tears in your eyes
You will never feel my pain

My drenching pain
The pain you put me through
You have the strength to put me down
To lay your hands on me
To caress me for a little while
And then it stops
You go back to your evil ways
And it's to late for me to even notice
For me to get away
Because I'm under your spell

It hurts because you get to hurt me
Because you don't care
But me hurting you?
Never
I can't do that
I'm not evil
I'm not cruel like you
I care for you
I love you
And I will not do such thing to hurt you
You're my angel from hell
And yet so handsome and bright

Never will I let you feel my pain

People hate being rejected
When you ask someone out in a date and they say no
Or when you go in for an interview
And look your best
You want the job so badly
And they say they'll call
But never do
You hate it

Or when you get rejected from ***
Yes ***
Guys get rejected
And it *****
But when a girl gets rejected
It's like a contraption of pain and mixed emotions going through you

You stumble
And cry and think
Did I do something wrong?
Am I not good looking enough for you?
Are you bored of me?
I don't turn you on anymore?
What's wrong with me?

Even if I'm fully naked and on top of you
You say no
Geeze isn't that what you always wanted?
Me naked
Showing off my skin
My body to you
Instead of wearing a shirt or bra
You told me before that you rather have me naked
And on you
Now that I finally did that
Nothing happens?
You lightly push me off and say I'm to tired?
Geeze all that work for nothing ?
I built up my confidence just to do that you know?

It *****
Rejection *****
And I'm here laying in bed right next to you... Naked
Some guy would be happy to lay next to a girl naked
They would caress my body and ****** me
They would have the best time of there life
But all I want is you
Just you
Making sweet love to me

What does a girl have to do to get some satisfaction around here ??
Honestly...

Don't call me crazy
You don't know what I've been through
Or how I feel
You don't acknowledge me
Nor my pain
You're not in my shoes
You don't see what I see

It hurt
It was painful
What you did to me

Why did it have to be this way?
Why didn't you just tell me the truth
I had a gut feeling
I knew what you did
And yet sometimes I wish I didn't findout

Maybe it was a good thing I did
Atleast she told me the truth
And now I am alone
And ashamed
You became the person I thought you'd never be

It hurts
So just don't