I hate the nights
when I'm missing you
and can't do anything
to hold you, to tell you
how much I really do
I just miss you
and can't help but cry over it
til it brings me to sleep
I used to love it
there's no pain when sleeping
but tonight, I found you there
and it's not a dream anymore
but a nightmare
of how you still
push me away in other world
but what I hate the most
are the sudden wake up's
when it's dawn, cold and lonely
then reality will remind me
my nightmares are reality

The sun knocks on my heart
Where there it sets and I am relieved
I smiled because I knew my sun
Its sunrays are enough to recharge me
Its calming radiance never refuse
To wipe my tears when the pain comes
Its warmth is enough to defeat coldness of any kind
It is when the night shall enter
Grim darkness is ready to clothe my universe
The sunset in me will glow still
-- an everlasting blythe
Enough to lighten up others' too

and please be careful when you say that it was over
I will not come back when you say that you miss me
I will not come thru when you beg me to save you
I will not go to places that will remind me of you

I will gently strum your chords in the key of G
and sing the lyrics of my heart to thee
if you promise to listen very carefully,
so do I will play our music eternally.

I am a poem who will embrace your soul
my rhymes will be in tune with the beats of your heart

I am a poem who will give warmth to your winter
December will never felt wrong here in my arms

I am a poem who will be forever yours
written in me are the words that will cherish you forever

but why, my love...

even if I could be the best version of poetry that I am


Still, I am that poem whom you will never read.

I want to be that text message
That you would read all over again
Because it gives you sweet shivers

Second chances
Are not a chance at a second time
It is for a millionth
that been given in every second I see you
in your pleading eyes
leaving me astounded, heart melted
I can't take to throw you away
just the way you did to me
And tho every chances I've give
Is a chance I take away to myself
To receive what is best
It is never you, I knew it
But you are the chance I desire to have

I grieve on an empty grave where I should be
Til I'm drowning in tears, vulnerable and free
There are no monsters under my bed,
They are resting easy inside my head
That's why it's always heavy, as the skies are always stormy

Do not get drowned with me,
Even if I am reaching for your hands.
No, don't go.

i hope that when i wrote you a poem
you'll read it
it's not about you
not totally describing you
or what you did to me
or how we used to be
it is not a mere poem
it is my heart poured into letters
--my soul's message for you
so whenever i write poems for you,
I hope you read it.

The art of letting go is getting tough
I thought I'm living enough
Well it does if it means agony
I over-saturated your totality in me
You're not my everything
You are my one thing
The grievance is great
Yet my love for you is greater
So here I am, standing still,
Letting you go with a smile painted in my lips
Does it mean, I've mastered the art of letting go?

What a satisfaction it brings
When people are left off wondering
Search me until you are lost
I'm always close to nothing
Thought I was near but lightyears away
No one will ever know
The universe clothe my soul with galaxies
Which part of me do you love
Have you met me in all my dimensions
No one will ever know
I'm the kind of paranoia that bothers thy peace
Impulses are destructive so it did to me
I was buried in ocean deep of secrecy
A masterpiece of mystery.

today feels like yesterday
and tomorrow's just another day
can someone tell the difference?
only time runs but not with my agony
it never runs out
still waiting for the death of darkness
but still i love the night
when someone walks in through
my strong great walls,
they break
when will be my daybreak
i want to finally learn to love light
because it seems to love me
then realized it was not about any other entity
its just me and my sadness
it never got any better,
somehow thankful to the lies
because it keep my dreams living
so whenever you see me smile
maybe i just get used to it
and yeah.
the saddest poem i'll ever write
is never really written in these words
the saddest poem i'll ever write
is the hollowed part engraved in my heart

i have learned to be wary
of my own smile, of my own happiness
because it costs a lot...
of tears, disappointments, pain
it is very expensive and i fear that
maybe one day, big amount of credits
are ready to swallow me in
i don't want that.
and for a second thought, is happiness
still a choice? or something we always
try to bargain with?

Movies.
Who does not like movies?
It is something that satisfies
Those dreams that will always be dreams

And so it was a tragedy
A tragedy ended in beauty..

Thinking of something poetic,
All I'd think about is you..
You are my poetry.

Not all lost were found
some are forgotten

I don't know if this is wrong but
It never felt this right before
I don't know what to do
I'd never been this way before
I somehow want to fight for it
But will you join me in the battle?
I don't know
I'd never told you before.

Liquids of sadness
Falls from her eyes
Just too many why's
She did lived in lies.
This world is a liar

oh! where did I go
slamming the door of regression
taking a step forth progression
I'd dive into the sense of thousand fears
knowing that it was a million tears
would go anyway
that's the only way
the road that's breaking
is the path I'm taking
my legs are now tired
but my will was fired
.... like the gun
no, not fun
it was an unending maze
of nowhere but craze
don't worry, I'll take care
all they would do is stare
as I was running
but realized, I'm not moving

If you wanna leave, then leave
But don't take my shattered heart with you

if your hands are cold
let me warm it
if your eyes are teary
let me wipe it
if your body is shaking
let me comfort you
if the world haunts your dreams
let me shelter it
if fears are taking you
let me take it away
if you are worrying
let me be your assurance
if regrets are haunting you
let me say it's okay
if you are having low self-esteem
let me be your cheerleader
if you're lost
let me walk you home
if sadness consumes you
let me be your happy pill
if you think you're not enough
let me hug you
as I utter words of beauty
and significance because that...
is your worth
and please let me prove it.

When fear creeps into our land
Know that God is always our great Helping Hand
No matter the disease and number of deaths
In God's mercy, we find peace and rest
If you feel like hope is fading away
Stay with your family at home and pray
Do not ever underestimate
The power of prayers and faith

devour me 'o daredevil




                             I'll be the danger that you want




                                                        if you promise to **** me afterwards

memories are just psychological images
that our prosaic minds replay without consent
once or twice will be marked as nonchalant
but for hundred times it's difficult
it is not a mere memory anymore,
but a virtual, psychological world
you are living the same history everyday
bittersweet, in a dungeon of illusory reverie

I'm tired of you
I'm tired of receiving so much dramas
I'm tired of listening to your rants
I'm tired of watching your silly moves
I'm tired of your weird personality
I'm tired of understanding your logic
I'm tired of your boring life
I'm tired of your childishness
I'm tired of how you talk
I'm tired of seeing you laugh loud
I'm tired of seeing you frown
I'm tired of seeing you cry
I'm tired of how you look
I'm tired of you.
I'm just really tired of everything about you
I'm used through it.
All I ever want to do now is to love it.
All I ever want to do now and forever is to love you.

Watch me burn
Touch me not
Hear me scream
Say nothing
Collapsed and distressed,
Stay on point
This room so crowded
No place for pity
Watch me burn
With smile a lot
Hear me scream
Say a laugh
Collapsed and distressed,
You stayed on point.
You killed me twice.

the poetess runs out of her words
how can feelings be translated?





/let her hug you from body to the soul.

She is a catastrophe
of mixed tornadoes and thunders
She's always seen as destruction
in the eyes of the near-sighted
But over the massive fogs of doubts and distrust,
after the tranquility of her strong winds,
There is calmness in vibrant paradise of her love
And even it requires a long time and bravery to reach for her soul,
Do not stop.
I hope you'll travel a little farther against all of her odds
In the end, you will meet her again
Dressed in florals, blooming like a sunflower
Her smile is peace in a golden sunset

You have to meet her as a catastrophe
To be worthy of her beautiful love.

he's so sweet
like a forehead kiss
that he does when i'm scared
or worried or insecure about
how i look
imagine how a sugar
became everything nice and
that was him
because he's so sweet
and it feels like an epinephrine
was introduced into my bloodstream

I am made of glass
annoyingly fragile, heavy, more than a handful, too much
—the adjectives you used to paint me
as you only have to drop me once and my whole life will fall in pieces
then labelled "dangerous",
suddenly I am the harm

but why?

how was I the danger when it is you who shattered me?
I am as sharp as a knife, but they call knife as a tool
while I am just a broken glass, labelled "dangerous"

Oh right, because I've bleed when I picked up my pieces
my tears is the glue that I used to patch up
the pieces of myself that I didn't break
too long until I stopped weeping for pain, so now I just cry tears of wrath

to reiterate, I am made of glass
don't be a fool to think that
a single smash is enough to ruin me

I've gone through furnace as hot as hell,
I am refined, crafted so skillfully,
my life is a vast potential of infinite possibilities
I can shapeshift, I can be anything or everything

so harm me once, twice, thrice, or a thousand times
going through another burning hell is just therapy to me,

I am made of glass, I can even make you bleed with my littlest move
I simply don't wish to
I am the glass out of highly refined elements,
your blood is just a filth I don't want to taint on me