Another sleepless night.

The voices in my head never seem to stop.

The screams and the yells are a continuous wall that I just can't  seem to break through.

My body feels like it's trapped in  a cement cage.
A feeling so dark and confused, it's seems no bullet or pill can bring sweet pleasure to what's left of my empty soul.

How do you love, when your heart is unattached ?
The pieces are missing , and the center is cracked .

How do you love , when you want to give up?
When your mind says okay,
But everything else is  ****** .

I guess the best way to love, Is to just let go,
Let the pain take over,
And give the devil, your soul ...

I shot for the moon for you , and only landed among the horizon of space.

I promised that I'd be there for you when you come back .
But it aches.
The pain of losing you into a black hole.
A distance and a galaxy far away from you,
feels never endless ,
and nevertheless,
hardened by the earth's atmospheric pressure trapping me into a haze of emotions.

We take our lives for advantage,
We take each other's hand for warmth .
Yet,
All we can do is wait .
Wait in the suffering ,
of unforeseen futures,
taunted by others ,
neglected by more . ...

We never cared ,
Our love meant more than the words of pessimist and judgers ,
We walked hand in hand with each new war that came to us the next hour .
Yet you were always there for me ,
Your hand in mine.
Mine in yours .
As it will be when you come back ,
Forever and always
Through depths of space ,
and the distant future .
Landing me, among the stars .

I just keep walking
not knowing where to go
A distant future
But a past that runs so slow.
I'm lost and confused
With no one to grip
A knife in my back
A heart that's been ripped.
I live each day
With a steady breath
and a blink to follow
I never thought it'd be hard
Until my heart turned hollow .
I wanna shout out
For someone to come and save me
I'm crying and lashing
asking for a plea.
For someone to take away this dreadful pain,
That's clashing in my mind
I always thought I'd see love,
But I just ended up blind
Why is this happening to me?
What did I ever do?
It seems like sunny days are over
And all I can see is blue.
But black can't even describe my soul
My incompetent fate
I drown in tears
My soul filled with hate.
I wish i could start over
As if my life can respawn,
Or maybe it'd be better,
If I were just gone