i miss your motherly instincts
your hot chicken soup whenever i was feeling sick
the way you sang me to sleep—
bonne nuit a toi aussi, maman
i appreciate you
you're lovely and sweet
and kind
i miss you deeply
i miss having you around
now i'm thinking too much—
i just hope you're okay
the sound of your voice tells me things aren't the same
they've changed
it's different now
we're distant now—
not really around
to pick each other up when we've fallen down into
the darkness
the chill of the underground
i miss being little—
i miss you
and don't worry if you break cause i fall too
and no matter where you are just know i got you
i love you

i'm sorry i shut you out
i wish i could trust who you really are
but i love you
regardless
of what's been said
and done
i wish you luck
and peace in the upcoming years
i'll be here if you need a shoulder
some love
some ears
don't fear, ***
i'm here
i'm always there to listen—
to hug you
you're intertwined in my system
yet i feel the distance—
i miss you
don't stress though
be cool
be happy
be you

i promise we'll
be better soon

i'm laying at the highest point on the hill
i'm feeling pretty mellow
and still
though i'm not even high,
i'm simply at peace
i smell autumn in the air as the leaves fall from their trees,
and turn from green to orange, red, and yellow
i'm not the same me i was
a week ago
cause i'm changing as the seasons do
the shift continues to flow—in and out of my soul
as i sit here and watch as some things die
and others grow,
but i guess that's life—
the way things go
the way things change as the seasons do