Sometimes I get so **** nervous when I'm with you, it looks like I've forgotten the English language.

Even sitting here alone in the darkness,

It doesn't get me any further away from my problems

It doesn't help me become blind to my problems.

"Leave him. You're gonna go crazy."

**"I'm already insane."

You're like the sun,

You light up my life,
But you also burn me.

They said time will heal, time will cure you
I've been deeply hurt; months, even years won't do

I have a feeling that this pain will last a lifetime...
I'll just have to learn to live with it,
Learn to live with this curse that will forever within me lie

I got bruises and black eyes
Running into walls, trying to find you

But I guess love really is blind after all.

"You're tired, aren't you?"*

Not in the way that you think.

Lonely is the night
But my head very occupied
The thoughts of you are running through my mind
It's making my heart beat faster, making me feel alive

Please don't hug me
Please don't make me laugh
Please don't give me that smile

Don't you see I'll get even more attached to you, when I'm trying to let go ?

"I'm irresistible," he says jokingly.
"You know you want me."

*Oh, if you knew...

"You should tell him how you feel. If you really want him that badly, you should. If you don't, it means you never really wanted him."

*"Okay... But how can I tell him if I always get **** nervous when I'm around him? How can I tell him if the words are always stuck in my throat?"

Just thinking about the person I could've been kissing
Thinking about the person I'll forever be missing

Thinking about all the mistakes I've made
How I can never correct them, for it is too late

Thinking about how you were mine all along
But you never know what you have until it's gone

You used to love me when I still didn't realize that I too, loved you back
You fell right away, too fast,
While I had my eyes closed, still hanging in the air

Now that I have finally opened my eyes, and know that I have really fallen

Sadly, I fell too late, too late...

Now it is I who loves you too much when you've already stood up from the ground and walked away.

My question is, where will all this love go now?

How cruel of you to come into my life
And convert the gray around me into rainbows

And when I'm finally able to see colors
You leave and take them along with you...

That's what pain truly feels like,
A constant roaming in the shadows of the night

You have a face full of beauty,
Sadly a mouth full of lies

Forked tongue spitting venom like a snake's duty,
But oh how I still miss you when I look at the sky

I remember the good times we had like if it were yesterday,
But I never saw this coming, never thought I'd have to say goodbye

What more is there even left to say,
But just let out a relinquishing sigh

Although my heart aches at the thought of being apart from you,
I will walk away, for you have opened my eyes

The harsh reality that I was a speed bump,
On your journey to find the one

I thought there was love between us,
But I should've known that before it even started we were already done.

I know you're not mine,
But I can't help feeling jealous, you know?

I don't know why
But he makes my heart beat faster
Even when I don't want it to beat at all.

When you look at me, you take my breath away

When you flash me a smile, you take my breath away

When you talk to me, you take my breath away

Even just your very presence is enough to take my breath away

That                                  Smile
   Of                ­                Yours
      ..                               ..
            It                      Is
                    Perfect.

He has no idea how much he means to me

He is just so beautiful

And I love him so much...

But then again, who am I to deserve someone as special as him?

He is so beautiful
I think he came right out of a painting from an art museum

He is so beautiful
I think he is an actual angel who fell from heaven

He is so beautiful

So beautiful I can't find greater words to describe him, because these aren't enough

Can a boy's face be described as beautiful?

Because that's all I think about when I see him.

Pretending like I don't have feelings...

Hurts more.

The light from my eyes fading away
My throat burns as I try to get air

But I know that breathing will keep me alive, and I'll be forced to keep living in this broken world we call life

So I feel the pressure of the cord around my neck closing the connection to life, and the opening of the path to the unknown;

And unknown life where things may be better...

Lonely is the night, but my mind very occupied
Busy with the thoughts of you swirling in my head
Then a wave of you hits me, I think I might be dead
Then I realize that I'm alive and the shore to salvation is just ahead...

But somehow I change my mind and let myself drown
And in the sea, I'm drifting deeper down...

"Oh, did he break your heart?"*

More like I broke it.

The lakes inside my eyes dried out

I wasted every drop on someone who wasn't worth my tears.

Was I that easy to forget?

Well, at least I know how much you actually loved me.

Nothing is good. Everything's bad; there nothing but darkness.

*Then why does the moon and stars exist?

Your hand fits perfectly on the curve of my hip,
My hand fits perfectly on your shoulder blade,
And both of our hands perfectly fit together, intertwined with love...

And now we shall dance the night away, and
Forget about the w
                                o
                                  r
                         ­            l
                                        d... ❤️

"How are you?"

"I'm okay."

"Are you really?"*

                 ...

And I am left speechless.

I love you so much...

No I don't need you.

Um, I think you do...

No because I don't love him.

Hmm, I think you're lying.

No I'm right. I don't want him, I don't need him, and I don't love him.

Sure, whatever you say...

I remember the day when you were sitting on one end of the couch and I was sitting on the other one.

You motioned me to come and give you a hug
So I stood up and wrapped my arms around you while you were sitting

In that moment you pulled me down intentionally so I was there on the couch with you.

We stayed like that for a few minutes, cuddling....

And in that moment I realized that nothing could ever make me feel like I was home than being held in your arms.

Oh,
   
         how                
        
                     I'm                                        ­             
                  
                              fa­lling                                  
  
                                             for                        
                                         ­               
                                                 ­     you

I want to tell you how I feel
But when I'm with you
My heart stops
My mouth opens, but I'm left speechless
I try to make out the words my heart has told my mind
But all that comes out are a slur of words; nothing's understandable
I don't want the beautiful words I have to say to you
Turn into a mess of unfinished thoughts
So maybe I think I'll say nothing at all...

This little kid and I were talking the other day...

Look at my knees! They're all bruised because I fall a lot!
Ouch, that must hurt.
A little. Do you have any bruises?
Oh yes. I have a really big one somewhere.

He looks down at my knees, but sees nothing. Then he looks at my arms, and sees nothing either.

What? I don't see any. Where is it?
Here.

With my index finger, I point at my heart.

Your heart? How can you have a bruise in your heart? I don't get it.
**You will when you fall in love, kid.