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3.8k · Oct 2015
The Only Escape
Caroline E Oct 2015
As I slash the flesh from my wrist
And the blood from my veins grow hot,
I count the seconds until the light from my eyes fade away
And as I'm drowning out I see flashes of memories here and there
But the ones that stand out the most are the ones who led me to do this to myself.
The only form of escape I have.
For those struggling in life and having suicidal thoughts. Keep your heads high, don't let life slam you down. Get back up and continue the journey. It'll get better.
1.3k · Feb 2016
Exhausted
Caroline E Feb 2016
"You're tired, aren't you?"*

Not in the way that you think.
Yeah I'm tired. Tired of loving the wrong people and getting hurt.
926 · Dec 2015
Broken
Caroline E Dec 2015
She was a person who could put the
broken pieces of another
back together
Sadly she was a person who couldn't
make her own broken pieces
fit
once again.
821 · Jun 2016
1:43 a.m.
Caroline E Jun 2016
Why is it that the nights fill me with sadness?
797 · Jan 2016
Nervous
Caroline E Jan 2016
I want to tell you how I feel
But when I'm with you
My heart stops
My mouth opens, but I'm left speechless
I try to make out the words my heart has told my mind
But all that comes out are a slur of words; nothing's understandable
I don't want the beautiful words I have to say to you
Turn into a mess of unfinished thoughts
So maybe I think I'll say nothing at all...
At least not until I gain more confidence...
770 · Jan 2016
Unsuccessful Disguise
Caroline E Jan 2016
"How are you?"

"I'm okay."

"Are you really?"*

                 ...

And I am left speechless.
No I'm not.
745 · Jul 2016
12:53 a.m.
Caroline E Jul 2016
If you fall in love
Make sure you fall for the person
Who will catch you
Without a doubt
741 · Aug 2016
I Don't Love You
Caroline E Aug 2016
You always want to know how my day has gone
You try to make me laugh when I'm down
You tell me how you want to be with me all day long

You ask me how I am every single day
You say you love all of my imperfections
Nothing else screams "I love you" more than your subtle ways

And I really appreciate all that you do for me
But the sad truth is
As hard as I've tried, I just can't love you as much as you love me
734 · Aug 2016
I'm Not Alone
Caroline E Aug 2016
Maybe it's true
That someone won't cross the sea for me
Walk through fire for me
Or fight for me...

But that's okay, cause I have myself
And I'm the only person that I ever really need
713 · Feb 2016
Sunburn
Caroline E Feb 2016
You're like the sun,

You light up my life,
But you also burn me.
710 · Dec 2015
Thoughts
Caroline E Dec 2015
I used to like being alone because I had time to think.

Now I fear being alone, because there's too many things on my mind.
Before, I simply thought about the world. Now, when I'm alone, all I think is about the mistakes I've made and how sad I've become. Thoughts, they ruin me.
703 · Jan 2016
Curse
Caroline E Jan 2016
Curse my sense of touch.
Because of it, I wouldn't have thought that the feeling of being in your arms felt like I was finally home.

Curse my sense of smell.
Because of it, I inhaled your aroma when I hugged you; it's addictive.

Curse my sense of hearing.
Because of it, I was able to hear your voice and every time you spoke it was so soothing and intriguing.

Curse my eyes.
Because of them, I was able to see your beautiful face.

Curse my mind, for keeping you there all the time
And curse my heart, for thinking you were the one.
Without the poem of a great writer (*cough cough* m i a ), I wouldn't have been able to gather inspiration to write with this one. <3
606 · Apr 2016
Lack of Inspiration
Caroline E Apr 2016
Lately I have lacked a great deal of inspiration to write...
Why is it? Why can't words flow in my head? Is this even right ?

It is said that a person picks up a pen when they're falling in love or their heart has shattered...
And I'm neither of those right now... Well no wonder.
592 · Dec 2015
The Light
Caroline E Dec 2015
The light to guide our way to happiness isn't a lamp
It is in finding yourself that you will be able to find
Joy in this world
Caroline E Feb 2016
That's what pain truly feels like,
A constant roaming in the shadows of the night

You have a face full of beauty,
Sadly a mouth full of lies

Forked tongue spitting venom like a snake's duty,
But oh how I still miss you when I look at the sky

I remember the good times we had like if it were yesterday,
But I never saw this coming, never thought I'd have to say goodbye

What more is there even left to say,
But just let out a relinquishing sigh

Although my heart aches at the thought of being apart from you,
I will walk away, for you have opened my eyes

The harsh reality that I was a speed bump,
On your journey to find the one

I thought there was love between us,
But I should've known that before it even started we were already done.
Collab., by Star Gazer and myself. By the way, go check Star Gazer out! It was a pleasure working with him (:
563 · Mar 2016
True Self
Caroline E Mar 2016
Your beautiful features
Slowly turned ugly
With each horrid thought
of yours.
560 · Feb 2016
Gray
Caroline E Feb 2016
How cruel of you to come into my life
And convert the gray around me into rainbows

And when I'm finally able to see colors
You leave and take them along with you...
Idk, it just came to me...
559 · Dec 2015
Your Arms
Caroline E Dec 2015
I feel like I would be better if your arms were wrapped around me
But at the same time
I feel like I'm going to burst into tears
if you touch me
550 · Feb 2016
9:54 p.m.
Caroline E Feb 2016
He has no idea how much he means to me

He is just so beautiful

And I love him so much...

But then again, who am I to deserve someone as special as him?
545 · Jan 2016
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Caroline E Jan 2016
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I want you here next to me.
Is that too much to ask for?
537 · Jan 2016
Dry Eyes
Caroline E Jan 2016
I want to cry and let it all out
But I guess I ran out of tears
537 · Aug 2016
Get Back Up
Caroline E Aug 2016
We were in love
We were both very content
We knew this was meant to be
This was destiny, not an accident

But then one day
He said the magic had disappeared
That he didn't adore me as much
'He doesn't love me anymore,' I feared

And just like that he walked out of my life
Because it turns out I was right
Everything went dark, I was devastated
But I knew I had to find the light
Not about me, but a friend who's been having rough times.
But don't let your past partner set you back from being happy.
536 · Feb 2016
You're Mine.
Caroline E Feb 2016
If wanting you more and more each day or
If wanting you for myself and myself only is bad,

Then call me **egotistic.
534 · Dec 2015
Figures
Caroline E Dec 2015
It's a shame falling for the
wrong people
thinking they were the
right ones.
526 · Aug 2016
A Smile
Caroline E Aug 2016
I saw her one day, at school
She was absolutely gorgeous and I was too shy
She looked like a model while I just loved to eat all day and all night
I knew I had zero chance with her, but I decided to give it a try

I approached her at lunch, I said "Hey"
She smiled and started a conversation
I couldn't have been happier that day

We started hanging out together since then
But my spirits dropped when a guy much more 'fit' tried to win her heart
And one day when we were  talking he came up and asked her to be his girlfriend

I could feel tears coming out of my eyes
But of joy not sadness because she said
"Oh sorry. I'm dating this guy," and pointed to me

Later when we were alone she confessed that she liked me
I asked her "Why? I'm just curves, the kind people don't wanna see"
She said " I don't care what you look like, because I care for what's inside
Besides, there's only

One                                           Me
        
       Curve                            To
          
                  ­That      Matters
I see a lot of encouragement and support for portly girls. And yes, they're beautiful because all girls are just extraordinarily beautiful despite if we're skinny or a little overweight, but I see very little encouragement and support for the guys. No matter what, you're all beautiful too, so I decided to make something for them.
522 · Jan 2016
3:48 p.m.
Caroline E Jan 2016
Why can't I get you off my mind?
Your name plays over and over in
my head all the time
I can't seem to think about something other than you
I love you, that's true
But why does the thought of you make me sad and blue?
511 · Dec 2015
9:37 p.m.
Caroline E Dec 2015
One of the worst things in life is when someone doesn't love you back.
You have so much love to offer them,
But sadly they don't see you the way you see them.  
No one can be forced to love us, but it still hurts.
Sometimes it's not because of something you don't have  
But they just don't love you back.
Some of us cannot accept this terrible truth,
So we blame other things, other people,
And we try to find some sort of explanation for this atrocity
And that's when we go insane
491 · Dec 2015
9:42 p.m.
Caroline E Dec 2015
Words can hurt,
But the silence kills me.
490 · Mar 2016
Useless
Caroline E Mar 2016
Before I'd give up everything for you
And I thought you felt the same too

Funny how a sentence, even a word, can change it all

Maybe I have realized too late  
But now I know that your pretty face
Was not worth the wait.
418 · Oct 2016
The Broken
Caroline E Oct 2016
Some people smoke
Some people drink
Some people do drugs
And others fall in love

They all die in different ways
404 · Oct 2015
Tomorrow
Caroline E Oct 2015
I feel empty
I feel broken
I feel like I'm dying inside
I feel sad
I am depressed
But I hide my pain with fake smiles and laughs
I will still prepare myself for what will arrive
But all I can do right now here on my arms where I shed my sorrow
Is just hope that there'll be a better tomorrow.
Don't let the past get in the way of your future.
393 · Nov 2016
Daydreaming
Caroline E Nov 2016
Here obsessing over celebrities and singers that don't even know I exist

In love with fictional characters that are only part of a story

And falling for strangers I won't ever see again
But there's nothing wrong with dreaming right? (:
387 · Jan 2016
9:33 p.m.
Caroline E Jan 2016
Too much hope can ruin you.
386 · Jan 2016
Around You I'm Silent
Caroline E Jan 2016
"You're very quiet," he says.
"You don't speak much, do you?" He says.

Darling, I've got a lot too say;
I'm just afraid of making a mistake.
I don't speak; I don't want the wrong things coming out of my mouth whenever I'm with you.
383 · Jul 2016
Love Sometimes Isn't Enough
Caroline E Jul 2016
She loved him.
He loved her.

So why did it end?

Because love and compatibility are not the same thing.
382 · Jan 2017
Lost
Caroline E Jan 2017
Tell me...
Why can't I find what others have found?

Why hasn't that "someone" arrived yet?
The person that I will cross paths with; not by accident but by destiny
The person that will come into my life to stay
The person that will adore me with every bit of their heart
And show me that love is not conditional?
Did they get lost on the way to find me?
Or perhaps is it I who has lost their way?
373 · Feb 2016
I Fell Too Late
Caroline E Feb 2016
You used to love me when I still didn't realize that I too, loved you back
You fell right away, too fast,
While I had my eyes closed, still hanging in the air

Now that I have finally opened my eyes, and know that I have really fallen

Sadly, I fell too late, too late...

Now it is I who loves you too much when you've already stood up from the ground and walked away.

My question is, where will all this love go now?
I'm so sorry for not realizing it sooner. I really am.
346 · Oct 2016
No Regrets
Caroline E Oct 2016
You destroyed me; you didn't seem to care
I screamed; I fell on my knees
And even though you saw the blood
flowing from my heart
You didn't let go of the knife that you had
plunged into me
338 · Oct 2016
Anxiety = Insanity
Caroline E Oct 2016
Out of the blue, the monster inside me unveils
I try to hold onto my sanity, but there's always a price

The oxygen has been taken away from me, I feel like I am drowning
No matter how much I gasp or try to take air back in, I just feel more submerged

I see people walking past me, and I am screaming, hoping they notice
But rivers flood my face when I realize no one will come to my rescue

My heart has sped up uncontrollably, there's no way I will be free
Oh, what a curse this is; I've now accepted insanity as a part of me.
I have become insane. I made myself the monster's home.
319 · Jan 2016
The Secret Bruise
Caroline E Jan 2016
This little kid and I were talking the other day...

Look at my knees! They're all bruised because I fall a lot!
Ouch, that must hurt.
A little. Do you have any bruises?
Oh yes. I have a really big one somewhere.

He looks down at my knees, but sees nothing. Then he looks at my arms, and sees nothing either.

What? I don't see any. Where is it?
Here.

With my index finger, I point at my heart.

Your heart? How can you have a bruise in your heart? I don't get it.
**You will when you fall in love, kid.
Love has punched me in the heart.
313 · Jan 2016
The Opposite
Caroline E Jan 2016
When we fall in love we believe that the other person is the one who you were meant to be with; your soulmate, your everything
And you believe that this person is what you have been looking for all this time and that it won't ever work with somone else...

All these beautiful hopes become nightmares when we realize that everything turns out the opposite of what you most wished for.
313 · Jan 2016
4:29 p.m.
Caroline E Jan 2016
Your name is added to the list of mistakes I've made.
310 · Aug 2016
Promises
Caroline E Aug 2016
Promises are lies
They're never guaranteed
Because
Promises are never... promised.
But somehow, we still choose to believe in them
Because it's the only thing we can hold onto
That gives us a small ray of hope
That promises made
Will be promises kept.
309 · Feb 2016
Thinking...
Caroline E Feb 2016
Just thinking about the person I could've been kissing
Thinking about the person I'll forever be missing

Thinking about all the mistakes I've made
How I can never correct them, for it is too late

Thinking about how you were mine all along
But you never know what you have until it's gone
305 · Feb 2016
Sunblock
Caroline E Feb 2016
If you enjoy the sun, then go outside, have fun.

Just remember that each time you go outside, wear sunblock every time

Or else you'll get burned.
*Translation: Loving people is a wonderful experience, just don't get carried off and forget about yourself. You have to protect yourself too sometimes.*

Kind of like my other poem 'Sunburn', but I still liked it.
291 · Feb 2016
Blind
Caroline E Feb 2016
I got bruises and black eyes
Running into walls, trying to find you

But I guess love really is blind after all.
291 · Dec 2015
Opening
Caroline E Dec 2015
She was a quiet girl who wouldn't speak her loud mind
Luckily she found good people who
Encouraged her to say all the wonderful words she had been saving
I am so grateful for the people I've met. My friends have changed my life and are always there for me.
289 · Apr 2016
Mourning
Caroline E Apr 2016
I'm gonna miss you.
That's all I can really say.
287 · Oct 2016
Science
Caroline E Oct 2016
When you looked at me maybe your pupils didn't dilate

And maybe when you looked at me you didn't
feel that rapid heartbeat in your chest  

But the lack of affection didn't break me down

It was my extremely high levels of adrenaline and dopamine
I got everytime I was with you that turned me into a cadaver
283 · Apr 2016
Take Me Back
Caroline E Apr 2016
I miss not caring about what the world thought of me
Never mattered who saw, I always did what made me happy
Now everyone judges who you are
But sometimes society pushes it too far

I miss being so joyful and full of cheer
I was happy, even if bedtime was near
Now everyone just knows how to stress and worry
There's no time for leisure 'cause we're all in such a hurry

Back then people used to play with dolls and such
Now people play with hearts and see sad faces too much

Oh, I miss being so carefree
Never mattered what the world thought of me
I was always so happy

But then you're thrown into this cruel place
Funny yet sad how you think this was something you'd never face
I remember how I used to say "I want to be older" all the time
And now that I grew up, I think, *Man, how wrong was I...
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