I won’t wait around
I’m not waiting anymore
So I’ll tighten my laces
And stomp out the door.
I’ll make a big scene
So maybe, you’ll see
That I’m getting over it
Now you get over me
I’m done with this madness
I want it all to end
But I won’t give up
I won’t just be your friend

The first step in, I want to step out
The first word spoken, I wanted to shout
The very first sentence, “life is so tough”
The very last breath, It just wasn’t good enough.

The worst of the best
Like a curse that’s been blessed
Better than better
But all I am is just.
Just okay
Just average
But better than good
But if I could be better
I always would.
I wish I could be
As good as you are
And I can’t just face it
You are a star
*And I’m still just okay

The fast lane is too **** slow
Stop signs never turn to go
The geniuses just do not know
The fast lane is too **** slow

I'm tired of nothingness
Monotonous, lonely, stupid ****
Careful kids and reckless authority
Empty, broken, stupid conformity

The fast lane of moving assembly lines
The same **** action every time
"Gimme, gimme, it's all mine!"
Conveyor belts and assembly lines

I'm gonna go against the majority
Redefining your priority
Careful kids and reckless authority
Empty, broken, stupid conformity.

You killed the commoner who didn’t do a thing
You let the ******* win and let the devils sing.
You killed the commoner and buried her beneath
Your screams, your lies, her filthy cries and the smell of defeat.
You killed the commoner and laughed as she died
Blamed it on the ******* who thought you were on their side.
You killed the commoner all you wanted was to win.
You blamed it on the ******* who supported all your sin.
You killed the commoner, and escaped from your cell.
You killed the commoner and you’re going to hell.

Knowing you care is all I need
But saying it isn’t enough
and maybe I just need someone
To tell me that life is just tough
But how am I supposed to let go?
Tell myself that I’m fine?
But I know it isn’t true
Still, I know, you aren’t mine.
So insincere, the things that you say
Maybe it’s true
you’ve never cared anyway.
I just need to know
I need to know that you care.
But words are insufficient
I need to know that you’re there.

The last time I was in love, I wasn't.
But ****, did it feel like I was.
I felt butterflies in my stomach
Had my insides in a round of applause.
The last time I was in love, I wasn't.
But ****, did I feel a rush
But that wasn't love, it was whiplash
I was shattered and I was crushed.
The last time I was in love, I wasn't.
But **** did it feel like it.
But it wasn't love, for when you're in love
It shouldn't feel like ****.
The next time I'm in love, I will be.
I'll be on top of the universe.
'Cause next time I'm in love
She'll be my guardian angel, not Lucifer.

Please just leave me alone
Leave me here to rot
You think that I am fine?
Believe me I am not.

Please just leave me alone
As my sanity demolishes at last
Please don't make me cry
I've cried enough in days passed.

Please just leave me alone
I'm begging you, begging you please
My mouth says it again and again
But my mind keeps screaming
*don't leave

Don't you know what I put up with?
Feel my heart and feel the pain.
My heart's not beating, boy it's throbbing.
Felt like you hurt me for your gain.
They said we had that connection
Not of body but of mind
Thought you'd always be there waiting
But you just left me behind

Left out
Like I’m not even here
Like I’m a million miles away
But they know I’m so near
Left out
Like they don’t even care
They’re right in front of my eyes
But it’s like I’m not even there
Left out*
And they don’t even know
I want to walk away
but I just can’t let go.

Felt like a slap across the head
alive but still dead.
another fork in the road brings another knife in my back.
Taking the wrong path ends in heart attack
The slow crash of speeding cars.
a reach so close but yet so far.
another broken-hearted soul
a sickly dream of deep, dark holes
we fall in as we walk the way,
and then we’re left with  nothing to say.
But hollers to the world. unheard.
a final breath. a final word.
gasping for air,
I was left there.

You taught me how to love
You made me feel like flying
You have raised me up
When I was on the verge of crying

You taught me how to love
When all I knew was hate
You taught me out to feel
Happiness, not ache

I couldn't ask for more
For *you taught me how to love
I couldn't thank you more
But thanks will never be enough.

I don't know but I've been told
You've not learned until you're old
I walk on carpet, you walk on gold
I don't know, but I've been told.

I don't know but it's been said
Fourteen years and almost dead
Haven't a reason to get out of bed
I don't know, but it's been said

I don't know but you've said it enough
Life is unfair and that's ******* tough
Pushed around and yelled at, rough.
I don't know but you've said it enough.

I'm not sure, but I think I know
I need you to just let me go.

I pray for lightening
I wait for the rain
I watch for the water
The water of pain
With pain comes serenity
Happy with sad
I pray for the lightening
To burn all things bad

Warn the world of hate and sorrow, but it will all be fine tomorrow.
So listen well and don’t forget, don’t drown your life in your regret.
The sadness we’ve gone through is such a shame, but make your mark and they’ll remember your name.
Words are flowing from my heart, or maybe my head, but it’s a start.
Someday someone will hear my words, in a song that is sung in the whistles of the birds.
So listen close for someday you will remember, the day when you read this, back in September.
That was the time that I realized, the tears swelling up in the corner of your eyes.
I wanted to help but there was nothing I could do, but give some good advice to you.
So listen well and don’t forget, don’t drown your life in your regret.

little drummer boy play your rhythm on my spine
let me be your snare, make music out of me
little drummer boy it’s been a long and lonely winter
and the heartbeat of your drum has got me through the coldest nights
little drummer boy oh won’t you bruise me with your drumsticks
break my bones and tear my skin, break my entire world apart
little drummer boy play your rhythm on my ribcage
leave my pale pink skin black and blue and purple and red
little drummer boy oh won’t you break me into pieces
for all i am to you is an instrument to be played

I guess that's who we all try to be
That "Little Miss Perfect" that has haunted all our dreams

You see her
And you really want to be here
But you know your dreams are unattainable
They see you
And they're lucky they can't be you
'Cause they don't wanna be invisible

I guess that's who we all try to be
That "Little Miss Perfect" that has haunted all our dreams

You see you
And you sure don't wanna be you
Because you really hate yourself
You see her
And you really want to be her
You just wanna be anyone else

I guess that's who we all try to be
That "Little Miss Perfect" that has haunted all our dreams
Not me.

I see you
Why don't you wanna be you?
Why can't you see you're wonderful?
I see her
Why do you wanna be her?
You're Little Miss Wonderful

If i tried a little harder
I could be a little smarter
But what's the point in trying
Just inching close to dying

Yes, I've got minutes plenty
but I'm living like there's twenty
Maybe I have got a century
Who knows? I'm just fourteen

But years, they are years, and years go by
But time is arbitrary and time is mine
Time is my ***** and times by my side
So I'm living like I'm living and I'm livin' my life.

I'm living like I'm living and I'm livin' my life.

Some things go, and some things stay
But why did they have to leave this way?
Some people wonder and some people know
Why everyone eventually has to go.
But those who wonder, those so young
Who have they wronged? What have they done?
What can we change? What can we do?
To make the world safe for me and for you?
Who do we go to, to end the war
To make our lives last a little more.
For self-defense, we use are guns
But when people do otherwise, what is there to be done?
We can stay strong and with all our might
We'll help each other to be brave and to fight
All we have now is one another
But are we strong enough to just love each other?
Some things go, and some things stay,
But we don't have to live this way.

So many lonely nights
So many lonely girls
Not enough happy days
In a lonely, lonely world
So many lonely people
Lonely girls and lonely boys
So much hollow sadness
And never any joy

Long distance relationship
A relationship that hardly exists
Long distance, barely true
It's long distance, but I still love you

I look at you
And I don't know which way is up
I stare deep in your eyes
And I'm just out of luck
I look at you
And I dunno what's real
I'm blind and clueless
To what it is that I feel
I look at you
and my voice goes off key
I look at you
But you don't look at me

I’m lost in your soul and lost in your eyes
Lost in the way you made me feel.
Lost in the love you’ve shown to me
The love that isn’t real.
Lost in the illusion, that you love me too
Lost in the way that I love you
Lost in the idea that our love could mean something
But I was blind to the fact that to you, I am nothing.

Pain scurries like a rabid squirrel
Lost love screams like a little girl
An angry cry shouts from above
The silent tears of lost love

Love
I need to forget it
It's just a mythical thing
So complicated, I don't get it
Is it really real?
A thing of the heart?
Or has it all been our brains
Right from the start
After all the heart's just a blood pumping *****
But we blame it for our emotions again and again
But we're the ones to blame

I don’t need someone to talk to
I really need a hug
I need someone to rid of
This stupid love bug
Crawling up my legs
And starting up my back
This bug is getting ready
Ready to attack
Bug spray will not affect it
It’ll only make it worse
I’ll falling for him, off a cliff
I’m stuck under his curse
The bug is growing stronger
Tearing me apart
Crawl over my shoulder
And crawls into my heart.

Love is not a triangle, love is a heart.
Love is a whole, not only a part.
Love is a bond that it harsh, but it's bold.
Love is a story that has yet to be told.
Sand that refuses to wash from the shore
A hold that is held forever and more.
Love is a wish, a promise, a prayer
Love is knowing that someone is there.
Love is shared between one and another
Love is being there for each other

Love is something you'll never know,
Love is a wonder you cross as you grow.

He loves me, he loves me not
Questions in my head
Flower petals on the ground
And tears in my bed

He loves me, he loves me not
Is he worth my time?
Making me feel this way should really be a crime.

He makes me feel so special,
wipes away my frown.
He helps me feel amazing,
like nothing will ever bring me down.
I know he's unattainable,
and it leaves me with such pain.
He'll never see me crying.
Staring out into the pouring rain.
He makes me feel so beautiful,
like my life is a happy song.
He makes me feel amazing,
I've known it all along.
*But I just can't see it anymore

Make up your mind
Are we friends or not?
Because maybe we aren't as close as I thought.
I stood by you when nobody would
I'd be there by your side
If only I could

Everyone has a mask that they hide underneath
But under every mask is the tears of defeat
Because everyone cries and everyone hides it
But sometimes you know that you just can't deny it

First of all I pray
That everyone could say
That they remembered a name
I pray that every one
Can remember those daughters and sons
That aren't all the same

Secondly I beg
That every broken leg
Heals with grace and ease
Every broken heart
Feeling torn apart
Can heal.
I beg, please

Most of all I want
A world that doesn't haunt
My mind with disrespect
Most of all I need
A world that's free of greed
Is that too much to expect?

Maybe someday
Words will be more than words
Tears will be more than tears
Somebody speaks
Somebody hears

Maybe someday
Ears will be more than ears
Eyes will me more than eyes
You see, you hear
Understand. Realize

That maybe someday
Words will be more than words
They'll be lyrics with meaning
And maybe that day
The world will be gleaming

I spend so much time crying
I can't even think
If I stop for a moment
I know I will sink
In the tears that I cry
In the pain I set free
Maybe I'm crazy
Or maybe I'm me.

You say that it's natural
Everyone feels this way
But then why do I feel
Like I'm alone everyday?
I walk like I'm confident
Wondering if they see through
The mask that covers me
The show I put on for you
But that mask slowly fades
And I set myself free
Maybe it's better
Just being me.

Empty compliments
But sincere goodbyes
Shallow pools
Of abysmal lies
Stupid apologies
And awkward conversations
Supposed truth
And repudiation
Always ignoring
What's really true
Always ignoring what's there
*Me and You

Make me into a rainbow
To lighten the day.
Make me into the showers
That bring tulips in May.
Make me into the sunlight that helps the world thrive
Make me into the medicine that helps one survive.
Make me into the spring or the summer or fall
Make me into a megaphone
*And listen to my call

Cold silence shatters
Awaken the shrill voices
Of minds in the night

Mirror, Mirror, on the wall
Who are you to say?
Who’s the fairest of them all?
We’re all beautiful in our way.
Mirror, Mirror, on the wall
How are you to know?
Some are beautiful on the inside
But cannot let it show.
Mirror, Mirror, stay away
I don’t need your lies
Everyone is beautiful
The way they are in my eyes.

Take me back to Tennessee in the Garten of Kinder
The border of the south where there's barely a winter
And when there was, the snow was stolen
From the boy next door who wanted some snowmen
Take me back to the eggs on the floor where she slipped
But she was okay after Mommy's forehead kiss
Take me back to the little things that made it all okay
Take me back to that fight we had every other day
Because we loved too much to keep up a fight
So we took some breaks for one day or a night
Take me back to the "friends forever"
Forever eternalized:
*Misremembered

Remember the first time we kissed?
The beginning of a relationship that was always hit and miss
But now the misses are consistent
And if we're being honest?
*I really don't miss it

I miss him,
I can’t let go
He’s always on my mind
but he’ll never know
I miss him
I can’t move on
But I’ll never stop loving him
I’ll never move along.
I miss him
and I need him here
but he'll never return
he'll never be near.
*But I miss him

I miss you,
and you don't even know.
I miss you,
and I can't let it show.
How I miss you,
how much I miss you so.
I miss you,
and you will never know.

My mistakes don't make me stupid
My mistakes are cries for help.
So help me, *******.
Don't put me through hell.

I'm scared to get it wrong
So I don't try to get it right
I don't want to deal with you
Instead of sleeping at night.

This monotonous life
A ringing in my ears
As consciousness drags me through all of these years
This monotonous life
This never-changing frown
A life that refuses to turn upside down
Light me on fire
Set me aflame
For this monotonous life
Is driving me insane

Happiness, sadness grips me
I stop, I pause, I freeze
Topsy, turvy, tipsy
An attitude in the breeze

This way, that way, this and that
Changing minds, changing clothes
Anger, fear, terror, and laughs
Really, anything goes.

The agonizing headaches
Constantly switching sides
The happiness and the heartbreaks
Change in heart, change in tide.

We walk the same carpet
You don't walk on gold
But you walk with a stride
That is conceded and bold

You hold yourself above
Us "peasants," so young
Up on the wall
Where your certificate has been hung

You've got a degree
We've just been burned
We are still learning
And you've already learned.

But there's still something
That we have and you don't
We've got time to learn
Something that you won't

We can learn to respect.
Our elders and peers
most importantly
Everyone we meet through our years.

I’m moving on,
It doesn’t matter where I’m going
as long as I’m not coming back to you.
It’s wrong and I wish we could make it right
But for now I have to say that this is through.
I’m moving on
It doesn’t matter if I’m happy.
Just know that I don’t want to say goodbye.
It’s bad and I wish I could make it good
But we know it and we just cannot deny.
I’m moving on
Because I know it’s wrong
and I know you know it too.
It’s stupid I wish I could make it smart
but I just can’t come back to you.

I’m moving on,

It doesn’t matter where I’m going

as long as I’m not coming back to you.

It’s wrong and I wish we could make it right

But for now I have to say that this is through.


I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
I’m moving on
Moving on
moving on

I’m moving on

It doesn’t matter if I’m happy.

Just know that I don’t want to say goodbye.

It’s bad and I wish I could make it good

But we know it and we just cannot deny.


I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
Moving on not coming back to you.
I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
I’m moving on
Moving on
moving on

ff
And when the time is right
You’ll still be in my sight
I’ll look into your eyes…
But until that night….

I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
I’m moving on
Moving on
moving on

I’m moving on

Because I know that it’s wrong

and I know you know it too.

It’s stupid I wish I could make it smart

but I just can’t come back to you.

pp
I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
Moving on not coming back to you.

Moving on not coming home to you.