25, 26 25 years, on the 26th no stars, no wishes no candles, no flame 1 more, please be proud more oaths, more broken i think, i remain silent i swim, i drown in tears, in laughter more angels, no gifts yet am 25, on the 26th
Could it be that it was meant to be? Every moment in life Every situation in life Could it be that it was meant to be? To teach us To punish us To **** us To make us feel alive
I'mma be happy I'mma be high I'mma remain silent I'mma party all day
I'mma push everyone away I'mma rule my kingdom I'mma not stop smiling I'mma not stop being weird
I'mma not look back I'mma not regret I'mma get all that I want And a good RIP at the end of it all
I'mma not care I'mma live to my fullest With my unwell mind I'mma not care about who loves or not
I need you silence
Tired of being sad. Tired of trying to be happy. Tired of finding love. Tired of finding the truth. I ain't caring anymore. I ain't gonna **** myself up with past ****. I don't wanna **** myself again.
I think I have figured it out High on **** and smoking them out She could not even get out Of my mind
We started together as friends Then we became close, could tell each everything I love Doc McStuffins, so I called you Dorc, Coz you had a little cute flower in your hands, And a brown stuffing in her hands,
Beautiful she remains Call me everything nice babe Lay in her hands, I was okay for once But she loved me more when I was just but one friend
Supportive I tried to become But was chained in my legs Could not move to the next step Remember all the poems you read before? She could not take me a ******
I'm gonna give her a friend first Coz she need to be more of something that's there first Even for Jesus to be more than a brother first He got to be a brother first.
I have tried. Never being myself Don't even know who I am All i know is I love her And she gonna hate me if she knew what I really struggle with
I have really tried to be the best Guess am just ****** up Too weak to fight myself And the demons that have allied with my enemy
Can't pray Trying to fight these crazy thoughts I need God to save me from myself Coz I ain't know how to say no When it's what I am used to press forward
My mentality is sick My spirit withered Can't control my emotions Myself controls me instead My mind goes crazy and I can't help it
Love is what she deserves in the world A man, not a boy A boy who's just trying to fight his way through the world A boy who's just trying to fit in a world older than him Just like always
I don't know what and how My life is a blur My life is a mess Pretending that am okay But even Jesus knows am doomed.
I wanna be happy again Please let me be happy and okay Great storms fighting within me There must be a price to have me completely destroyed And am too weak to fight this on my own Sorry I ain't myself Help me Lord.
crying over you what a night what an hour that you decided to damage mine
being in my head day in day out what a time that you have decided ain't worth it
forever i just wanted to be you be a legend in my family and no longer the black sheep something they would have appreciated me for for it's being real with you, until you thought it fake
i wanna roll up two three joints forget about you but proving to be farm work pain crazes my blood down my veins to fill the hole that you left behind
remember it was the henessy i would not have known you now it's the henessy coz i wanna forget about you no longer love, to hell with just be friends
i now want the money i now wanna chase the bag get my accounts overflowing but ain't gonna fill the hole left behind for sure.
is it not life for me to die for voices in my head hate it all speaking different personalities into me
look at me who am i really the life i dreamt about as a child i now live its opposite
ain't life worth dying for for no life without death no happiness without anguish no purpose without mistakes
ain't life worth losing for ain't a smile on my face worth crying over ain't a smile on my face worth stressing for ain't a smile on my face worth fighting for
yet i just feel it's all in vain life is just the same not worth dying for not worth even living for
Sunday They call it beautiful Sunset Refreshing But I'm still cold My heart icy Angels departed Spirit low
To many thoughts Deaf to my preacher Blind to glowing faces Sadness surrounds me I don't wanna go home I don't wanna leave the house More peace in my cocoon.
Noise I hear People dancing their sorrows away I prefer mine stay They somehow keep me pushing Pushing to write more of these poems Fill my diary with emotions Get drunk on Fridays And just chill away from the world.
Broken and shattered She crushed me and I'm tattered My heart fragile as glass in pointed pieces I thought she was special but she's an evil angel Tear in my eye, on its way down But boys don't cry, do they?
Walking down the alley with my headphones loud Listening to Tentacion and Del Rey Bad boys in front of me, demanding am the worst First fist pay me black eye Insults on my gender, for the tear on my eye Because boys don't cry, do they?
My boss at the cafe yell at me I tried making the best Kenyan tea The customer just could not take my service Claimed I was rude after the names he called me Evening, fired and tired Get a cigar to drown my emotions For boys don't cry, do they?
Expected to be the best Expected to be perfect Mama told me boys don't cry For weakness ain't a thing for me But I'm the weakest being And I can't cry, should I?
Maybe I'm just foolish Trying my luck with you over and over Maybe I'm just mad Trying everytime expecting different results Maybe I'm just addicted Begging for coins just to have you Maybe I'm obsessed Thinking about you everyday Maybe I'm stupid Not admitting you are wasting my time Maybe I'm naive Not knowing which road I should take Maybe I'm just but a guy in love Not caring of what others think when I'm with you.
Life no fair Heartbreaks and hearts tear Is there not any more joy for those living For even in the brightest of days Is still dark
We all lose someone Whether we hated or loved them Still it makes the heart ache Will generations love life Or destroy themselves in fear of tomorrow
Suicidal even in a new day Hateful in a new morning Empty and dead one is Rotting on the inside Can one ever live again
We just walking corpses Souls left the body struggling to survive Yet all shall be okay, I think so All will be fine, let's pray In this life or the next.
My friends are ghosts One small mistake and he's gone One small mistake and another comforts Got no heart to forgive But haunt me in my dreams One I love but can't fight over Another I hate but is with me anyway Lucid dreams every day Apart insomnia every night In my head they ache me But at least I got friends, right? Always with me in my bed Hey halcie Don't go Goldie Not you too What you want Hadassah Come keep me company And give me some love At least I got friends, right?
Done with exams Done with tests Degree accorded Headwear in the air But why do I struggle to be happy I just did it daddy
Gown all day Hood in the wrong position Party rest of the day Sunday stuffed with meat Aunties are glad for me I just did it mummy
Lecturers glad am finally gone Chancellor with his vice Certificate colorful Time to commit a felony But why do I struggle to be happy For me and my achievement
Probably no one will understand. I don't either...
mercury good bye mercury my readers ain't gonna hear of you anymore why you lied to me i don't know why you made me feel ****** you should have spoken out early
you were the only happy thing in my life you took my soul and melted it you were the only thing in my life but the sun is brighter than luna i understand
is it too much to ask for love without being left much worse is that am unlucky in love or i care too much
mercury, i love you mercury, i hate you i left venus for you the prettiest of them all but i am just but a luna
I'm looking for someone to put up with my ******* Lonely, I got no one to disturb with my cuddles Last month she went crying I broke her heart, it was a mistake I didn't mean it
Now I'm drunk with Captain Morgan He can't take me home, his ship sank Staggering back home I could only think of her Wish I never held her with my careless hands And I can't take this cold anymore I need a sweater.
If only I could take out my head Wash my mind in the shower Leave it out to dry And have a whole day without using one Then I would be okay No thoughts for a whole day And that's peace to me. Not figuring out a thing
i waited for months i just wanted to love you to know if you are okay to know if you are gonna save my soul shine my way light up my path but you made a fool of me made me wait for you in the restaurant for hours at the dinner table now i am empty heartless and you are just but a point in the night sky all i can do is wish on you mercury
looked up to the meteor showers ain't they pretty? then she came into my mind just turned down my offer after everything that i went through but she can't understand the pain when her life's so perfect when all she needs are instas and tweets
i'm not messy i'm just messed up my room's floor is clean but i got ***** laundry in every corner of my room bed's not made sheets clean and i like it messy i feel at home in chaos i feel safer in mess but i'm not messy i'm just messed up.
have not yet found out who i am who i wanna be all i know is am not ready to take responsibility of my actions and the pressure the expectation to have everything under control is depressing
I took the road to the mountains Just wanted to be alone Yes, we live in the highlands Never afraid of wolves and porcupines
"Hello, you there" "I need some ****" The pain I could feel creep into me I need this smoke real fast
With my bike That I pushed instead I prayed it could get foggy Mummy and daddy use it to their advantage anyway To hide scars To fight each other and call names
Yes, this trip was to get away from the world But before I could, I had one more thing to remind myself How it felt to be high High up here High on everything, that's awful
Snatched my last pinch of white powder And thought of everyone's betrayal and wonder When they found out that I had been a pretence all this time That I was never the boy they admired Just a ****** up boy Who used women Who had to run from home Who used to live in his car
It was not my fault, was it? I never wanted this I lost the girl that I love And papa killed mama But who cares anyway
Smoke through my nostrils And white patches of the powder around my lips Reminded me how much more the world hated me I know you can't understand Coz you were different at age 23 Or you will be better by the tree
Don't cry, coz friends never looked at me that way. Just bury me once I'm done looking at the orange sunset Once I'm done with this blunt