here lies my love for you
dead and cold
after you threw me away
for my heart still beats but just not for you
here lies my soul
gone and taken
after i said i loved you
for my heart still beats and my body still moves just not for you

I have followed you so willingly into the rain
To make sure you don't lose all that you gained
And if my efforts go to waste let them know
That I could keep the pace

I have done what others wouldn't do
And that is battle death with a righteous mind
Hold my head so high that the heavens quake when they see me off to put death to bed on a Friday night
Let them know that this is for me, my might

Let them know that I am not going to lose
to you

My own little world
Where the sun dies every night to let the moon breathe
Where all the little creatures live in harmony
Where all the people sing with lovely rhythms for me
My own little world where nothing goes wrong
My own little world
Where the moon tries to stay alive longer; drowning the poor sun
Where all the predators hunt for everything that breathes or moves
Where all the people scream for me
My own little world
Where the mind goes mad, so do I

if i could solve all the world's problems
wouldn't that help
but then what would we do
with no chaos to swallow
our world would be bleak
no color to show
chaos is our programing
human is our passing

One night,

I left for home. My drive too quick, my home too close.
I wanted a nice snack, a warm bed and quick nap.
I wanted one night for myself to relax.

But that's not what the world had in mind.
The man sped down the road, racing past a stop sign, the red light already blinking.
I turned onto the road, the man swerved through cars and rigs.
We crashed in 3.0 seconds.
Blood was trickling, was it mine or his?
I opened my eyes one last time, I was ready to quit.
I breathed again, my lungs filling with blood too quick.
I closed my eyes,
Time was flying by,
I said goodbye.

They help you feel indifferent
Or they help you get high enough
To fall asleep with all the things you've done
Painkillers and Sleeping Pills
Make you forget it
They bottle it up and say take it
Call it medicine
Painkillers and Sleeping Pills

Pretty, blue and dark
deep and wide
like a mouth full of tar
pretty, deep ocean
open your mouth
and swallow me whole
pretty, pretty ocean
so deep and dark

quiet and small
that's all you see
of me

my figure like a mouse
my voice a whisper

i smile and laugh
but that doesn't last

quiet and small
like a mouse too quick

It’s kind of sad honestly
I mean
We’re literally floating on a rock in the middle of nowhere waiting for something big and scientific and amazing and miraculous to happen
See it sounds sad and pathetic
I mean
The only thing we ever think is happening is what is in front of us
And we are just floating on a rock in the middle of nowhere, with no where to go and waiting for the sun to blow us up or someone to take over the world
Yeah pathetic really


Reality Check total:
34 people enraged
12 people contemplating
54 people confused

Can you say that your past is a lie
that the people you loved are not puppets
that the family you lived with are not behind a mask
Can you say that your present is a lie
that the people you have meet are not munipulating
that the family you have are not unforgiving
Can you say that your future is real
For if it was real, then would your past and present be lies
since you must be real and time must be moving
Can you say that you are real
That you feel and breathe and your heart beats
Can you say
Can you say that the life after is real
that breathing isn't killing you
That time is

Take my heart and tell it to stop beating
Take my brain and tell it to stop thinking
Take my eyes and tell them to stop seeing
Take my hands and tell them to stop reaching
Take my love and tell it to stop
Stop what?
Stop feeling.

Valentine
Her sweet, heart candy so poisonous is thee
Valentine
Her smile so stunning but devilish is thee
Her eyes so inviting but ready to bite
Valentine is a Spider
A black widow
She wears her sweet, heart candy to show that dangerous isn't her
Valentine smiles and your world will crash
Valentine has no mercy
and you will learn the hard way
Her sweet, heart candy
so poisonous is thee

What are you afraid of?
Oh, nothing sir.
Surely, everyone is afraid of something.
Yes, sir. I am afraid of the dark.
Of the dark?
No, more of what is in the dark. What is in the dark is most scary since you cannot see. Does that count sir?
silence Of course. You, young boy, are brilliant.
Sir? What are you afraid of?
Me, oh I am afraid of dying. It means my life here is done when I felt it just got started.
I must go sir, have a lovely afternoon.
The boy skips away from the old man. The old man smiled, stood up, and walked away.
Nearby, a woman said,
That boy is crazy, talking to that old man's grave. Why, he's been dead for over twenty years.

The doll maker is not a lover
The doll maker will spend decades with death
The doll maker makes no mistake, he makes the people quake
And if you come face to face
Shut your mouth
He takes no chances with you or I
The doll maker will end your life like a fly in a web

The spider and the fly.
An interesting couple, don't you agree?
The spider wants to trap the fly,
have the fly in its parlor, to dine and feast.
The fly wants to get away
from the spider and its venom, the fly is hunted.
And the spider is the hunter. Quick and clean.
Watch out little fly, don't step into the spider's parlor.
Be careful little fly, here comes the spider, ready to dine.

Shiny cars and Plastic seats
Perfect clothes and Fake people
Mushy brains and Nimble feet
Look at the world with its treacherous deeds
Where souls come to live and bodies to rot

The world did not end in a bang or a whisper
But in one scream at a time.
The world wasn’t on fire or flooding
But the people made sure to bring its bleeding.
The world did not end with you.

Time is slow and invincible
Time is holed and inconceivable
Time is effortless and smooth

Time is all those things, but what is time without
those who live in it
like you or me

Let me drown
Let me smile one last time
I'll say tomorrow
but death says today
He grins, takes my chin into his cold hand and whispers
Today
I'll cry to death and he'll laugh
Tell me he's happy to see me
Happy to know I'll be with him
Today
He bends down, his eyes darkening
Sweet and tinder, his kiss
Today death said, I'll take her
Death said she deserves so much better
Today, tomorrow
Death does not slow down
He waits for you to smile to strike you down

blissful and sweet
euphoric and keen

keep with you always a sharp mind
for your heart betrays you, in the best of times

deadly and meek
traitor and bleak

keep always your heart on your sleeve

In this moment I cry for help

and in that moment my desperation's high

In this moment I yell your name

and in that moment my face is a crying shame

In this moment I close my eyes

and in that moment my end is nigh



In my last moment my breath is cold
and in that moment you close your door

Do you hear the suffering,
and cries.
Do you see the desperation
in my eyes.
Do you see the drowning
of your lies.

Can you feel, Mrs. Black Widow?
Or is your heart black as coal,
and your mind void of hope?

What I write is what I think should be said
Learn about me through these words
I will smile and laugh
but really I cry and close my mouth
For I know my life is really just a debt
What I write is from the heart

heart of gold
skin of steel
bones of thorns
eyes of mist
brain of glass
soul of holes

Where can I find you
On the brink of death
Or hanging by a thread for joy
Where can I find you
Waiting for me at the threshold
Or by the Giving Tree, with spirit
Where can I find you
Right next to me
Or gone for the next hold
Where can I find you
It echoed

Wishes are dreams
They appear and fill you with hope
But when they disappear, they show you the worst

Your father said make a wish
You did
You wished for mother to come home
Your father smiled and said Dreams are not wishes, be realistic

I do not write for tragedies and happy endings
I do not write for fame or money
I do not write to hurt others
I write to show you that feelings are everywhere
Not just the ones you have