you said i was amazing
but then i see
what you meant wasn't reality
a lie
a sweet and heartbreaking lie
a lie spun so intense and complex
that i didn't think to watch where i step
a black widow who lies

heart of gold
skin of steel
bones of thorns
eyes of mist
brain of glass
soul of holes

if i could solve all the world's problems
wouldn't that help
but then what would we do
with no chaos to swallow
our world would be bleak
no color to show
chaos is our programing
human is our passing

The world did not end in a bang or a whisper
But in one scream at a time.
The world wasn’t on fire or flooding
But the people made sure to bring its bleeding.
The world did not end with you.

One night,

I left for home. My drive too quick, my home too close.
I wanted a nice snack, a warm bed and quick nap.
I wanted one night for myself to relax.

But that's not what the world had in mind.
The man sped down the road, racing past a stop sign, the red light already blinking.
I turned onto the road, the man swerved through cars and rigs.
We crashed in 3.0 seconds.
Blood was trickling, was it mine or his?
I opened my eyes one last time, I was ready to quit.
I breathed again, my lungs filling with blood too quick.
I closed my eyes,
Time was flying by,
I said goodbye.

i want to write about all the good things
like love and beginnings
but my mind is clogged
only an ending

i want to write a story, a poem just for you
with my feelings and thoughts
but my heart won't stop beating
it's eating me

i want to write a word, a phrase for all times
good for bad, bad for good
but my hands won't stop trembling
caged in so tight

Take my heart and tell it to stop beating
Take my brain and tell it to stop thinking
Take my eyes and tell them to stop seeing
Take my hands and tell them to stop reaching
Take my love and tell it to stop
Stop what?
Stop feeling.

quiet and small
that's all you see
of me

my figure like a mouse
my voice a whisper

i smile and laugh
but that doesn't last

quiet and small
like a mouse too quick

here lies my love for you
dead and cold
after you threw me away
for my heart still beats but just not for you
here lies my soul
gone and taken
after i said i loved you
for my heart still beats and my body still moves just not for you

In this moment I cry for help

and in that moment my desperation's high

In this moment I yell your name

and in that moment my face is a crying shame

In this moment I close my eyes

and in that moment my end is nigh



In my last moment my breath is cold
and in that moment you close your door

books are curses
they hold you captive
show you a world you cannot have

books are curses
they take you away
hold you close and tell you it will be ok

books are curses
and their authors are just the same

books are curses

Haiku is not my
Style but try as I will I
Might fail miserably

What I write is what I think should be said
Learn about me through these words
I will smile and laugh
but really I cry and close my mouth
For I know my life is really just a debt
What I write is from the heart

If my life were yours and your life was mine
Then who's life would our's be if we both lived them free
If my heart was yours and your heart was mine
Then who's heart would be broken if we both ran out of time
If I gave you my eyes and you gave me your eyes
Then who's future would we be seeing
Because if is to then, then is to the future
The future would be different since you would see the wrong  one

Valentine
Her sweet, heart candy so poisonous is thee
Valentine
Her smile so stunning but devilish is thee
Her eyes so inviting but ready to bite
Valentine is a Spider
A black widow
She wears her sweet, heart candy to show that dangerous isn't her
Valentine smiles and your world will crash
Valentine has no mercy
and you will learn the hard way
Her sweet, heart candy
so poisonous is thee

Can you say that your past is a lie
that the people you loved are not puppets
that the family you lived with are not behind a mask
Can you say that your present is a lie
that the people you have meet are not munipulating
that the family you have are not unforgiving
Can you say that your future is real
For if it was real, then would your past and present be lies
since you must be real and time must be moving
Can you say that you are real
That you feel and breathe and your heart beats
Can you say
Can you say that the life after is real
that breathing isn't killing you
That time is

Wishes are dreams
They appear and fill you with hope
But when they disappear, they show you the worst

Your father said make a wish
You did
You wished for mother to come home
Your father smiled and said Dreams are not wishes, be realistic

Let me drown
Let me smile one last time
I'll say tomorrow
but death says today
He grins, takes my chin into his cold hand and whispers
Today
I'll cry to death and he'll laugh
Tell me he's happy to see me
Happy to know I'll be with him
Today
He bends down, his eyes darkening
Sweet and tinder, his kiss
Today death said, I'll take her
Death said she deserves so much better
Today, tomorrow
Death does not slow down
He waits for you to smile to strike you down

What are you afraid of?
Oh, nothing sir.
Surely, everyone is afraid of something.
Yes, sir. I am afraid of the dark.
Of the dark?
No, more of what is in the dark. What is in the dark is most scary since you cannot see. Does that count sir?
silence Of course. You, young boy, are brilliant.
Sir? What are you afraid of?
Me, oh I am afraid of dying. It means my life here is done when I felt it just got started.
I must go sir, have a lovely afternoon.
The boy skips away from the old man. The old man smiled, stood up, and walked away.
Nearby, a woman said,
That boy is crazy, talking to that old man's grave. Why, he's been dead for over twenty years.