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127 · Jan 2020
Unsuited.
B Sonia K Jan 2020
Gushing out like liquid from a faucet
The expression of my intense passion for you
The pleasing outcome of riding this tremulous wave
And crashing down beautifully
Into our reality of brimming tension
And secrets left unspoken.
We are living a lie.
Some things are not meant to be.
126 · Apr 2020
Chasing Stars
B Sonia K Apr 2020
I try my best to feel nothing
And in that, I feel nothing
No pain, no loss, no disappointment
Or anger.
For passion is my middle name
Every emotion felt and expressed
With intensity beyond explanation

I get scared
That there’s no coming back for me
My broken heart cannot mend
Unlike yours
I just won’t survive
I’ll drown to a depthless death
Leaving an empty shell floating on the surface.
So I leave that switch off.

In all these, I am blameless
Entrusting my fragile heart to another
Is like free falling into an abyss
No landing guaranties
Only uncertainties

They sneak up on me sometimes
Leaving me in a daze
‘Till my body is slammed awake to reality
By my forever guarded heart
Then I fix up the cracked walls
And stay beyond reach.

You seem so certain
Every displayed emotions calculated
The next few moves seemingly planned
I am envious
All your wants seem before you
While I am constantly in search of certainty
Perfection in imperfection
like Chasing stars.
125 · Jun 2022
Orisha’s Eyes!
B Sonia K Jun 2022
Staring at me
Looking into my soul
With eyes as white as snow
As blue as the skies
And as clear as glass
Searching to find my lost soul
In this empty shell
Once alive in art

The sights of the gods
Shall we worship?
Shall we start an ablution
Are we worthy?

The rush of inspiration awakens
The sightless sights of the gods
Orisha’s eyes!
•••
124 · Dec 2019
Contradictions!
B Sonia K Dec 2019
Living in contradictions
A slow death
I have killed myself

Trying to uphold expectations
My every breath
In full judgment of myself

Hiding my innermost thoughts
Moving around in stealth
Limiting myself

One step forward, Two steps backwards
Changing on every opinion
To suit everyone’s’ purpose
Killing my mind and self


Where am I ?!?
Lost in their definition of me
Now in search of direction
Surrounded by endless distance
Between who I am
And who I ought to be

Now I wait
For the turnabout of a new wind
To ******* unto the right path
Opening into vast opulence
Saving me from myself
And the endless death I died
Being someone I’m not


Or maybe I’ll cease time
And rewind?
122 · Jan 2020
Ode To Passion.
B Sonia K Jan 2020
Touch me
In the place of  heightened emotions.
Feel me,
See me,
Without a thought or care for opinions.
For here we both stand
Unclothed with burdensome words
In our freeflow of expressions.

The unguarded heartbeats of my heart
Enraptured by the sight of you,
Emotions pouring torrentially
From temple to our very depths
Evidenced by our dilated pupils
And shy gazes,
Time slowly ticking as you walk in.

Tender touches lingering at night
Eyes closed,
My wandering mind
Journeying to dark secret places
Where passion flows freely
Unrestricted emotions,
Expressions without judgment
Attending to our every needs
Our compatibility unquestionable

Lost in eachother,
We find ourselves
One to another
Without an end
A depthless hunger
Unleashing untamed emotions
Always at your arrival
Rendering speechless my soul
At the blink of your eyes

Satisfy me with your truth
And your touch
Flowing through me
Like liquid fire
Burning away any doubts
Capturing the oppulence that is my mind
Leaving me drenched in passion
Longing to never be free again.

Touch me.
120 · Mar 2020
Here We Are Now.
B Sonia K Mar 2020
A surreal experience
After periods of thoughtfulness
Enlightening to the core
Fueling all decisions
Questioning opportunities missed
And emotions lost
Never to be found again
Or not?

Actions already enacted
In my very thoughts
Now released in an explosion
of pent up frustration
Focused on one point.
Emotions poured out
Like torrential rain

It falls on you
And there’s no room for cover
Only acceptance
As we learn to bask in it
Waves and waves of chills
Left behind by droplets of this rain
Leaving behind fuzziness
And you light headed.


You think I’ve done something to you?
I haven’t even started.
118 · Jan 2020
Forget Me Not!
B Sonia K Jan 2020
I thought about you beautifully
Wrote you down carefully
Determined to keep you with me
You're safe and sound with me
But for this glitch,
Erasing you completely
Robbing my mind of your glory
With only faint traces of your being
Now a hole in me I keep
But your words forgotten
And the faint sound of your screams
Ringing persistently
Forget me not.
But I did.
109 · Dec 2019
Desire.
B Sonia K Dec 2019
Gyrating bodies
Swimming around in my subconscious
As I stare into eyes similar to mine
Mind filled with different angles
Swirling to sonorous sounds

Eyes meeting
Lips lifting
In confirmation of our passion
Brows raised in a question
Surrounded by an intense stare of desire

We shall now retire
To our sacred place
Where skin like silk touches the other freely
Bodies curved and bent in adoration
The fulfillment of our desire.
The beginning of a rapid freefall
Into weightless nothingness
Overflowing with overwhelming emotions

All that, I read in a stare
that in real time lasted five seconds
And I was a goner.
106 · Jan 2020
The One You Love To Be.
B Sonia K Jan 2020
I will always be
The one you love to be
Not crazed or unsound of mind
With tentacles spread wide,
But sweet and tender
Like roses in summer.

No tough words needed
Where like-minds are gathered
No simple thoughts or expressions
But simple words leaving an impression
Your aspirations and dreams
The soothsaying future you gleaned
It will always be me.
97 · Jan 2020
Lost?
B Sonia K Jan 2020
Staring intensely at the screen
Yet, seeing nothing
Only the colors of my thoughts
As they fade into the past
Leaving emptiness in their wake.
Yet, this persistent fullness
Bursting at the seams of my mind
Fills up its over-crowded but empty rooms
With passion and words
And nothingness
Leaving my mind wildly blank
Yet,  expressionless with emotions...
Inexplicable thoughts.
94 · Jan 2020
Changed.
B Sonia K Jan 2020
Burrowing down ***** rusted tunnels
The unsightly dark slimy beast
Crawling to Oblivion
Covered in a shroud of darkness
An almost empty nothingness

That was my soul
Crippled by limitations
The unending abyss
Grasping at straws
Until the light flooded in
Bathing my soul in the wildfire that is life!
85 · Jan 2020
Doubt!
B Sonia K Jan 2020
I'm weakened by my thoughts
Yet this void I must fill
With one or another
Yet, none a fit

Trading one for the other
Unsure of the outcome
And afraid of the possibilities
If only I could just stand by a choice?

It creeps in,
Those dark thoughts
Making the right seem wrong
Cripling my mental capacity with its intensity
Tearing down the walls of logic
To bring  in my insecurities
What if I am wrong?

In the end,
you're its slave
'till you take a stand
The awakening of your spine
Tearing it down from its root
'till all that's left before you
Are glorious wins.

— The End —