the small wisp of heart i have left
was almost wisked away with the dismissal in your face.
the dismissal of my family
a thing that you have no right to write off
like a shopping list of things
you already bought
i don't give a single **** for your teenaged melodrama
it's a holiday
and i wanted a ******* photo
of the stretched scrap of a family that i have left
why couldn't you just let me have one thing
that felt normal
you are a selfish ******* *******
just like our mother

write all the mean poetry you want
about how twinkling lights
and family photos get old
you cut my arms with the things you write

little sister,
you should be ashamed.

and i've noticed that
every receipt
from every place
we went to together
has a poem scribbled
on the back of it

i guess you just
made me feel
like writing

Been eatting healthier and feeling rewarded
Investing in myself turning things around
Meeting new ppl being a better me
Writing more ideas out
Reading for inspiration
Got more hours at work
Hoping to get it back do more
Get more out off life
Not being selfish but know what needs to be done
Taking pride in all aspects
No more compromise for less
Aim to be the best live be more

I watched cars sail under bridges
and smiles fade in the distance
Graffitied buildings begging
questions like, why is it so
hard to make it out of the house
without having a panic attack?
Three hours from Philly to Scranton
Just three long hours with you
on my mind and I can hardly breathe
because the world looks so big
through wide windows
Tall trees and deep lakes
all around me, but stretches
of ugly highway are all I see
There's so much to love,
so much for me but I
can't seem to change my mind
I can't seem to leave your name behind