Swallowed up by the ocean of despair
Tiny insignificant lost in the depths
Worn and bleeding
old and tired
No desperate searches have been launched
Missed by none
Defeated loser the count down is over
There are no seconds ticking away
Final chapter written
There is no chance for survival
No funeral fires will burn
No sad tears will be shed
Gone and never remembered
A short sorrowful story
Battered to the end
No wrenching good byes will be said...

Oh my wretched heart I will never think of you again

what i once wore on my sleeve
is no longer my fashion
i am sleeveless once and for all
as a bra on the fire, i am liberated
from the heavy weight of  the broken
released to fly from the pain
i soar as high from the liars and once trusted

what i once wore on my sleeve
is now just shattered pain
i close out the disingenuous
careful not to remove the shards
lodged in my soul

what i once wore on my sleeve
stab my feet as i walk over what is left
my cold life line no longer sustains me
i am unfeeling my sadness

i no longer wear what tore me down to nothing
i no longer wish for that which it offered
i know it was all empty promises
i have no delusions of bliss

what i once wore on my sleeve
kills me no more
i am gone

You no longer hang the moon in my sky
You are not the stars in my heavens
You once held my whole universe in your hands

You didn't want me....

You are no longer the twinkle in my stars
You are not the honey in my hive
You are no longer the harmony in my life song

You didn't want me...

You are not my soul
You will never be the warmth to my cold
You are not the knight to my princess

You didn't want me...

Now he is the steps to my dance
Now he lights my love path
Now he is the seconds to my minutes

He wants me...

He is the morning light that brightens my day
He is the pulsing life running through my veins
He is the breathe that fills my pounding chest

He is my moon and stars now and for life...

You take my blood so you can live.
     when will you stop?
You tear my soul from my warm body.
     why do you think you need what is mine?
You drag my heart through our broken heaven.
     when will the hell end?
You steal what I once gave freely.
     how can you look in the mirror?
You shattered our content, our private perfection.
     how long will you stalk my happiness?
You stand on the edge of my freedom like a thief.
     must you breathe my life, my spirit?
I will not acquiesce...you can not have my all, my everything.
     do you think you can take my essence?
No more taking!

Once again I say good bye to a happiness we shared
          So I don't cry..,
Once again I say good bye to that sweet feeling I got every time I heard I'll  love me forever
          So I don't cry...
Once again I say good bye to a day filled with joy hearing your excited voice on the phone. But not today or tomorrow or yesterday.
          So I don't cry...
Once again I say good bye to being your special someone.
          So I don't cry...
Once again I say good bye to love.
          So I don't cry...
Once again I say good bye to forevers.
          So I don't cry...
And once again I say good bye to my heart.
          So I don't cry...

Optimism is my mask
Hurt is my soul
Pain my shield
Laughter my sword
Silence my wall
You may not enter
Trust is violent
Kindness my instrument
You can not have the bullet to end me
I hide the true me

By B. Peterson

Can you hold my hand? She asked, as they walked along the white sandy beach together.

Can you hold my hand? She asked, as they gazed into one another’s eyes and promised to forever.

Can you hold my hand? She asked, as they watched with joy as their baby blow out the candles on his first birthday.

Can you hold my hand? She asked, as they tearfully waved good bye to the last child leaving.

Can you hold my hand? She asked, as they looked into the precious face of their first grandchild.

Can you hold my hand? She asked, as she sat by his side until he reluctantly closed his eyes for the last time.
How I wish you could hold my hand.  But she knew he would always hold her hand if only in her heart.

By B. Peterson