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samantha Oct 2017
5 months ago I had shorter hair and a longer life
5 months ago I had two close friends and minimal loss
5 months ago I received an invitation for change
And I accepted

5 months ago I was so completely sure or myself
Now it is 5 months later and I don't think she remembers
And today only holds a sad significance to me
She has forgotten and started to move on
Her presence has left me hollow and empty

It is 5 months later and I am in shambles
I am left to clean up the lovely mess
While the images of the past replay through my mind
Those secret moments that are burned into my soul

Today holds significance, or at least it used to
Today marks the end of a friendship, the beginning of love
Today used to signify time passing, the time we survived
But we no longer celebrate today together.
We no longer do anything together.

I want to change back to my old self, To find peace
But I have changed so much, so completely
I do not know how to find the girl I used to be
That girl is lost in the world and she is drowning
Everything she feels is unrequited and cold
samantha Oct 2017
I can sit for hours staring at your face, just looking into your eyes. they can be looking back at me or at something else,
but i still find all the answers in them every time.
I look in your eyes and I see hope and love and feelings and i see fear. I see my reflection in your eyes and i see fear.
I am afraid because one day i will look in your eyes and i will no longer see hope, or love, or feelings that i will one day long to feel. I am afraid of the day when you won’t love me back.
samantha Sep 2017
the only thing i ever feel is a constant pain, and it
stops for no one, stops for nothing. it gives no
warning and does not see what it destroys.
i am consumed with a pain that regrets
no casualties. i have no relief...none.
is this how life feels? do other
people live through this?
if so then i am second
guessing my ability
to continue.

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