Ricky

Ricky Feb 2018

You remind me of sun kissed mandarins & moon rock;
A precious stone- you’re earthy though of a different nature
I carry this void full of sorrow
You replace it with ecstasy
I let these demons get the best of me,
I apologize

Ricky Nov 2017

Drugs and Lust

I keep secluded in voids
I don't belong in anyone's heart
My haphazardous thoughts consume me
I consume trouble
In the wind like game leafs in autumn
Worst case scenario there's no **** in my system
Washin' the dirt down with saliva
Always needing sativa
Always needing a woman but lust ain't helping me keep her

#drugs #lust

Ricky Oct 2017

Love Tangent

Your lips transcend reality

A levitation of sorts

Our hearts beat faster

My tongue etches promises of forevers into your mouth

Your lungs; collapsed and wounded from empty promise after empty

Promises

Only exist as a crutch to walk the doubts in my mind away from my OCD

Hey, "R.I.P. to da CD can't eben play my hits"

I just remembered your angel-like voice singing that song

I don't keep in touch with my faith as much as I should

Now I'm just rambling

But you know I do this a lot

You know I'm scatterbrained

I'm certain now that you are my soulmate

I pull my lips away from yours

I pulled my lips away from yours

She knows.

#kiss #love #loss

Ricky Aug 2017

To My Other Half

Your aura spills into my half empty soul
I'm pessimistic, I refuse to believe it's half full
You know when we hold hands for too long and our palms get clammy?
Well I don't mind, the sweat reminds me of the anxiety I had when I first met you
How you turned that anxiety into comfort
How that comfort completes me
It's not that my soul was broken
It just wasn't fully developed
I know you
Your voice plays a familiar song
Your smile tells a familiar story
I hadn't heard that story in a long time
But now I recite it every time you cross my mind
I smile
Your aura spilled into my half empty soul
No longer do I feel incomplete

Ricky Aug 2017

Leave a mark

Balance never restored gotta take the time to reach for
A goal but I'm steady taking detours
Depression at its finest couldn't be cured with no diamonds
Cause the void could never be filled
Still be poppin these pills
Every single day is just a cycle
Taking steps to not feel ******
Grasping tight onto a bible
Getting high for all those times low
Aint no place like home inside my mind tho
Theres no winning so this journey almost feel like Shiloh
So maybe I'll take life slow in hopes that I dont plateau
Always been an old soul so my skin I've outgrown
Always been a leader but nobody ever followed
Truth be told is all I want's a better day tomorrow
I've been living with this sorrow
But im glad I got the will to never feel like i have gotta grab the bottle
And im glad I got people I can trust on
Ain't stable by myself feel like I need someone to love on
Another part of me just wants somebody I can **** on
Another part of me feels like he wants to be alone
I've been indecisive for too long im on my toes
I been tryna avoid this feeling of paranoia
Dinner at mamas plate of rice seasoned with goya
This life is not a toy a little toddler destroys a
certain kind of psyche vision dies when he will grow a
Man is never happy hes just grown to be a lackey
A man is never free he slaves to money as a caddy
Lackin fundamentals to survive this hell on the earth
They **** you in your spirit way before you're in a hearse

Leave a mark

#yep

Ricky Jul 2017

Broken (Haiku)

I break promises
So for your own sake do not
Put your trust in me

I apologize

Ricky Apr 2017

No Difference (Haiku)

They say the grass grows
Greener on the other side
I say the grass grows