I drowned in the self love you taught me but even worse...it left when you did.
I don't know if I loved you, how do you even know? You gave me hope that I wouldn't be so alone in this new big world of mine
But, turns out that I wasted your time
I don't know why I wasn't enough but hell...at this point, that's not what bothers me
It bothers me that you took every ounce that I poured into you but couldn't bother to absorb my weeping minerals
As the days go on, I can't help but to feel confused
Because sometimes I'm those weeping minerals begging to be absorbed by the first thing to come my way
Then
Other days, I'm a ******* stunning willow that has taken those minerals and bloomed
I don't need you, just like you don't need me
I just wish you would've known that I was too much to absorb before I let my roots run dry
Drier than the desert, trying to satisfy your roots,
But
It's okay
Because I will continue to bloom into my ******* stunning willow
While you will eventually beg for me to come water your roots
I will be beautiful & touchless
& you...
You will be shriveled up & dying like I once was for a splash of affection

Forgive my sins
I didn't realize loving him
Went against everything I believed in

Tiger, i
swim at night to keep my skins
Pale. And marinate moon-dipped tundras.
Splash, ripples as i spear tides with flesh and bone, collapse into waters taut as untested brides. 'Paradise,' I'm told, though my eyes reveal but shadows upon the shores. Not to be depressing.
Stay under with me a bit longer my love.

long, slow, standing-in-the-middle-of-the-street kisses

walk-me-outside, knew-this-was-coming, i-was-expecting-you kisses

1:30-in-the-morning kisses: soft, sleepy, simple

sparkling, rushed all-of-a-sudden kisses

you-still-taste-like-champagne kisses

brand-new-beginning kisses, kisses that turn the clock,

cross from the old year to the new.

“one more,” you kept saying, “one more, one more, one more."

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who’s gonna be the
first to say
goodbye?

we all need change

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a simple hello could lead to a million things