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Brenduh May 2014
December 17, 2011
A date in which my world came crashing down, like my tears when my mama told me
That you have gone without so much as saying goodbye
You waltzed out of the backyard and decided to never come back
You may not have noticed, but when you left, you took my heart, friendship, and trust
I came home expecting you to comfort me and allow me to tell you my day at school, to tell you about the boy across the hall or the ***** behind me, but no
I came to see my mother anxious and wide-eyed, looking for you, calling you name, walking down the street, into the alleys.
My smile was slapped off my face when she said "He got out again"
tears came and came, I knew this time was different
you were gone and weren't coming back, I can almost feel the anxiety on my neck
I ran, it was the only thing left to do, I ran as far as I could, far away from home, from my parents, from you.
But no matter how far I ran, everything reminded me of you.
I called your name, went everywhere we went.
Nada, I couldn't find you, I cried and cried ignoring the bitter cold that froze my tears to my red cheeks
I was hurt, upset, broken
As well as angry, infuriated, I wanted to hit something ANYTHING
So I did, that night I punched the wall until my knuckles were red. I mutilated the wall, my pillow, desk until I cried.
I cried that night, I still do.
Yes, you may realize it's about my friend. My friend is my dog, he left and never came back.
Brenduh May 2014
People call it a "phase" but I'm starting to think the damage is permanent
A day has not gone by where you somehow snake into my mind
Almost everything reminds me of you
My question remains unanswered to WHY
Why did you ignore, why did you erase me from your life
I gave you almost seven years of my life
Hoping one day you would be the first to message me
Instead of me always starting the conversation
So we met a couple of times, I hope you got the message from me "trying" to give you a hug to liking you instagram photos.
I'm just waiting for the day where you realize that I need you, more than you will ever know
Waiting for the day to FINALLY be out of the friendzone because to be honest it's a dark, lonely space.
You're on my mind, and I'm pretty sure you'll be staying there
I wish it was easy for me to tell you, but I had the chance 5 years ago, I didn't take it
I probably won't tell you for another more ~<3~
Brenduh Feb 2014
Am I sure what
That I'll be by your side
That I'll make sure anyone who makes a homophobic remark to you
wish they were dead
That you won't have to face the judgmental world alone
Or that you won't have to suffer your first heartbreak by yourself
That I might have to sacrifice weekends to watch movies with you
Choose you over my family
Suffer through hate from others

Am I sure that I'll be prepared for what might come ahead
Days when you say you can't go on anymore
Don't worry I'm going to there for you and stay with you all night if i have to

Yes I'm sure.
Brenduh Feb 2014
You help me and I'll help you
That's what best friends do
We help eachother on homework, love, and problems
You need some advice to talk to that guy
I'll give you some cute pick-up lines
Problems with your mom
Don't worry I'll be your shoulder to lay your head on (I kinda am since you make fun of my height -.-)

If I'm stuck in one of my situations
I know I can count on you to save me from them
If I'm having a bad day and is bogus to everyone including you
Some how you always meet me at my locker after school to say goodbye
I question sometimes on how you're able to put up with me
I guess this is a friendship worth cherishing for a life time
Brenduh May 2014
The need to hug you is powerful
The hunger to want to run my hands through your black hair
Is very powerful
Yet, i cannot do what I please, since you threw me out of your life in 2011
It's okay I still have our memories from when we rode the train together to when we went shopping with our moms
I wish I could reverse time and go back to that Wednesday night and say goodbye to you properly
But i have no one to blame but myself and my fear of losing you
I know it sounds cliche
How an 8yrs basically found their "true love" and has yet to say what  they feel for the last seven years
You'd be surprise, love comes through many doors, sadly i want our door to be lit on fire
Brenduh Oct 2017
What seems like yesterday
has turned into years

There are days where I can still remember the clicks of your fingers touching the letters on your keyboard
Your eyes glancing up to me to see if I was staring again

In your room it was just us
The slams of lockers and chatter seemed miles away
Even when on occasions students will come in
it still felt like just us

I remember your eyes
Blue like the color of my backpack

I remember your hands
the roughness of them when they touched mine
I always thought you never moisturized
You should.
Brenduh Apr 2017
You're turning into home
No, I'm not talking about some metaphor
of windows or door and souls

The way your laughter sends a warm missile inside of me
that explodes in the pit of my stomach
and spreads all over my body like a plague

The scent of you is clean and bright
A breath of fresh air

When our cells touch
I can feel them quickly mold with yours into one

Connecting with you felt like home,
loving and welcoming
Brenduh May 2016
Each strand seems longer than it looks
Your fingers with each individual strand, almost giving attention to each one
You whisper each word under your breath
Thinking no one will hear you, but I do

I hear your open thoughts
When you stomp your feet or tap your knuckles, you create music
You create an interaction
When you mutter small words to me
I think what you might be talking about

Your eyes create an illusion
Every time I see your baby blues, I question "why are they so blue"
Why are you so weird, you don't act your age
But you're wise
You know so much
You've been through so much
You're wise, but young
Brenduh Dec 2014
Let me tell you about my Adrian
He's a shy guy who has a lot to say
he's really important to me, but somehow he feels insignificant
Adrian is afraid to love, but he would find a way to express it
He is really funny and knows how to make me laugh
He has made me feel so many emotions in such a small amount of  time, that it's surprising how close we are
He is an amazing person
He's someone worth fighting for, dying for, and living for.
He would say that I saved him, but to be honest he saved me,
Brenduh Sep 2015
March 18th is a special day for my bestfriend Adrian
It's been a rough year
But somehow we came out on top
We have eachother's backs through thick and thin
When it comes to problems, we have our friendship to help protect us from the hate

I tell him so many times "I love you" but I just feel that it's never enough
Nothing is never enough for Adrian
He is thst special that I would give him my world
He deserves everything
He is the nicest person I know
He tries to make everyone happy all the time
He deserves to be happy
So that's what I'll give him
I'll give him happiness

I love you buddy to the moon and back ⚓⛵
Brenduh Nov 2016
As the leaves change color and the days turn chilly
There's one thing that stays constant
and that's my love for you

The second my future connected with your past
The minute I stepped onto the concrete sidewalk
I knew that I wouldn't get rid of you
I couldn't get rid of you
No matter how much I've tried somehow you haunted my thoughts
Creeping up when I least expect it
You recaptured my heart and I'm okay with that

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