I don't know who I am,
but I know the person I want to become.
I want to be rich,
like mother teresa's heart of gold,
like the iridiscent colours in sunshine-eyes.
I want to be poor,
like the beggar who appreciates any scrap of food,
like the bankrupt who eventually learns to count his blessings.
I want to be quiet.
Like the introvert who wishes she wasn't so,
like the girl who meets her boyfriend's parents for the first time.
I want to be loud,
like the drunkard who casually spits out truth,
like the pounding club music that makes my head hurt.
I want to be nothing,
like how the girl who doesn't belong anywhere is treated,
like how a guy who's afraid of commitment denies your relationship.
I want to be everything.
Like the atoms our entire physical world is constructed out of,
like the girl who's your first pill of the morning
and last of the night.
I want to be weak,
like professor xavier, who's too kind for his own good and can't walk.
like the flimsy piece of paper that caused your paper cut.
I want to be strong,
like professor xavier, who can control people with his mind,
like how it feels to be reminded that you're needed and loved.
I want to be a bundle of contradictions.
Rich yet poor,
quiet yet loud,
everything but nothing,
weak but strong.
Well, maybe I don't.
Or maybe I already am.