Bailey Ann Dec 2015

Im with someone who does not put fear in my heart
Instead he unleashes sunshine in the darkest storm
Makes sure my garden is properly watered & fed.
He makes the flower bed in my heart grow & grow
I may be naïve
For when I'm with him theres no place id rather be
One in the same
The only difference being our names;
You can't throw something this strong away.
It may feel like we have an impending doom;
Here is what I have to say to you:  

I will be difficult, hard to love.
immature, irrational & all you can think of
but I'm here standing at your door step with my heart in my hand
willing, waiting, wanting to love you at your command
Sometimes I fear, that I might be to much;
I do have ugly parts that remain untouched.
Still Im here
Ready to love
Even though I know love will never be enough
Maybe if i give you my heart this time it will be
Ill revolve my whole world about you & me.

if you will
I promise to love you more than anyone has before
Ill follow you across the sea or
Let you fly away & wait for eternity
Its scary for me to write things, things
ill never muster the courage to say.

Somehow I look into those brown eyes,
you give me the world;
You hold me close,
without penetration we become one.
When there is, I'm satisfied
If I didn't know any better id say you're the Devil

What is the devil?
An angel fallen from grace.
Ive never been anywhere near that heavenly state
Except for when I look in your eyes
Except for when i have you by my side.
When your not around, somehow i feel incomplete
Its like you bring out the best version of me.

Just know that the unknown is not something to fear.
Ill take your hand, be right by your side all the way.
If you look in my eyes I promise you'll see no lies
when i say:
everything's going to be alright.

Even if that means a future without me..
Ill let you fly, be free
no matter how much it may hurt
I want whats best for you.

You have my heart.

To J.
No matter what happens.
Bailey Ann Aug 2013

my pen is screaming at me to pick it up
i dont know to say what
there is nothing in my head but all the words that you've said and everything that ive recently done.
it makes me wonder who ive become
ive seen the hurt caused im no fool
the same thing he did to me, i did to you.
now im going back to sit in that chair
try not to cry, pull my hair and scream
just not care about any sense of control
thats what i lost, not me as a whole
but the control
its to late to go back now
to many things have been said
are we still going back to playing pretend?
i dont think thats what this is anymore
its something ill know for sure
if we can get through this then we can get through everything because ive done everything i can to push you away and in some how in your own twisted way
you still love me and stay
now we will see if these friends are right
we all have a piece of love to give at one point in time
its true when we said sould mates, never ever apart
each one of us holds another in our heart
we've all made and repaired to many scars
thats shaped us into the people we are
so with those little broken pieces of love
that we've only ever known
the causation being our homes
somehow between all these broken hearts and broken bones
we found each other and made our home
somehow by force of nature we are bound
all of our broken pieces of love fit together
changing how we it forever.

this poem is to my 3 best friends and everything right now
Bailey Ann Jul 2013

i paint beautiful pictures in my head
about how things could be if we were different
this is a world we're not meant to be
that is just going to have to be ok to me i guess
see the thing is, you're not like the rest
the comfortable silence we share
all those cliche things that tell me i'm in love
i know i'm not enough
maybe i am just being a fool
wanting you more than i should
you said yourself im your rock and this will never change
i think your being a fool to
of course things have changed
we went from being friends to lovers
in less than a months time
now everytime i see your face i cant help but think of our bodies being intertwined
your lips igniting everything in my body burning the butterflies to crisp
tell me you don't feel any of this?
just look me in the eyes and kiss me one more time
i crave your body near to whisper sweet nothings in my ear.
ive tried to get you out my system with other guys
its empty space in the sheets there is no heat
tell me when this began
how come sleeping with someone else doesn't feel nearly as good as kissing you?
still by daylight those kisses don't exist
look me in the eyes and say you don't love me
look me in the eyes and say its all in my head
and i promise to be the bestest friend you've ever had.

Bailey Ann Jul 2013

sitting on the ground slipping into insanity

you call over from the bed to come in your arms

contemplate for a second

then our fingers intertwine

lying down side by side

my mind is down the rabbit hole and you're a crazy fool

looking at you descending into madness the animal inside me can't help but

want  you

Bailey Ann Mar 2013

Ocean's have  gorges that sink far beneath the surface
when the wind blows
They shake
but never stop crashing on to the surface
beautiful and constantly inconstant
when there is a storm
they roar
grasping at the sturdy land
wearing it down with every breath
In the shallow waters I am pretty enough
you can admire the colors of the reef
how the fish play
dancing with the waves
one day when you want an adventure
I invite you to come under the sea
where the water is deeper
past were most people are willing to go
where there is nothing
just dark
to far down for the light to reach
where mysterious creatures thrive in
down in the depths of the ocean
where it is nothing but black and cold
the place where no human could possibly go
the place where i rest my soul
i am an ocean
i will hold up ships but slip through your finger tips
i am solid
but never quite whole
i am a mystery
i am nothing like what i appear to be
i am me

Bailey Ann Mar 2013

if i could try and put into words how much i miss you
its not just a word i use frequently
and yes ill "miss" my other friends
not even close to the same way that i miss you
your energy you bring
the intelligence of your presence
when your not around, you can never be replaced
i miss you
like your my home
i miss you
like you are my moon and sun
lighting my world
by day
by night
forever apart
forever by each others side
i miss you
like the summer in the middle of
like the grass misses water
like the ocean misses waves
they will always kiss
but can never stay
i miss you
like a bird who lost their wings misses the sky
i miss you more than you will ever know
i miss the whole you
even the parts i dont like
the parts of you i drag home in the middle of the night
i miss you in your every state
sometimes i wish i would've stayed

missing my bestfriend
Bailey Ann Jan 2013

Inscribe your words on my heart

Show me you never intend to part

Save me from my storm

Can I confess to you my dark side?

Sometimes I dream I was never born..

You’ve become more than a shoulder that bares my tears

You are my floor

When I can’t fall any further, when the air has escaped my lungs

You are my ocean

Sometimes the seas get ruff

Like the captain on a sinking ship, you’ll be here till the last minute

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