So nice to your face
But holding a knife in your back
Laughing at you
Making jokes

Thought you were my friends
Guess I was wrong
Am I back in grade school
What have I done wrong?

Just because I like to document somethings in my life
Or write poetry and stories
That isn’t fun or right

I love what I do
I love my life
Social media sometimes blows
When your friends show their true colors
But yet suddenly you know

So alone in a crowded room
I will cut everyone out of my life so soon
Do what you want
Say what you please
I am what I am
At least some people actually accept me...

Wanting something so bad
Yet being hopeful
Feeling rejected
With each passing month
Being so thankful
For what I have
But the one thing I can’t
Is completely unbearable
Some people just don’t understand
It’s hard to express into words
How I feel about certain things
This ways heavy on my heart
Knowing it’s not in my hands
Unfortunately, I can’t change that

Freezing cold
Can’t feel my toes
Fingers are numb
Winter is dumb

Wind is howling
Snow is drifting
Everything’s freezing
Don’t hear the birds singing

Trees are moving
Garbage is flying
Accidents are happening
Nose is running

Stay inside
Try to be warm
As we brave this blast of winter
When will the temperatures get warm?

Always been rough around the edges
Like a thorn on a blooming rose
Flourishing and growing
Ever changing colors of life
Yet not losing my strength of heart
That was once a seed planted in the ground

One day you’ll look back
Forget the past
Live in the moment
Walk toward your future
One day….
The past has guided you
To live within each moment
Allowing you to move toward your future
Living your best life to the fullest extent…

My
Words
Fall out
Of my brain
Onto a blank
Page filling up
The spaces and
Lines to create a
Raw and unedited
Masterpiece that is
Trying to escape my
Head, becoming  
Transparent by
The words
That fall
Out of
My
Brain

Uncomfortable evolution
is a
beautiful transformation

Today I am better than yesterday.
Today I am strong.
Today I am loved.
Today I am living.
Today I reach for a better tomorrow.

Spreading happiness
is just one
smile away……


Try it….

Colorful
Lights fill the sky
Painting a picture in the nighttime
Red
Blue
Purple
Green
Fulfilling all of our hopes and dreams

Past the horizon in the distance, the only sight to be seen, the whispering of nature’s light glistening on the water from the sunbeams…

Stepping onto a scale and seeing the numbers go down is one thing but feeling the invisible weight being lifted off of you is even bigger knowing the stress is gone

Walks deep into the woods
Full of bright colors
No one is around but woodland creatures
Come across an empty bench
A little red cardinal sitting on the edge
I sit down, take a deep breath, close my eyes
I talk to the one I miss everyday
Dad, I miss you
I hope your doing ok up in Heaven
I talk to you all the time
Do you hear me?
Dad, I love you....

The cardinal flies and lands on my shoulder
Whispers in my ear
“I love you too”
Flies away...

Tears fall down my face
As I watch my dad fly back up to his “Home”
To watch over me each and everyday...

If your scared to take that step forward in life...
Put your feet together
Take a deep breath
Acknowledge how far you have come
Thank God for all you have accomplished
Then, and only then, will you be ready to embark onto your next chapter in your life

I deal with pain and numbness everyday
Most of you don’t know it, but it’s okay
Silent pain no one can see
I am who I am
And I am me

I don’t know you or what your going through
Loosing your baby is something a Mother should never have to do
A careless act of using your phone
Took the precious life of my baby so young
The pain in my heart ripped out from my chest
Now I feel like I have nothing left
Having to bury my baby at such a young age
Never having a chance to grow up and follow her dreams
My life will go on and I’ll get by
My little girl has gained her wings and is  now flying sky high

Happy Birthday to my rock
Today we celebrate you around the clock
In 24 days we’ll be in Disney
Spreading the magic, just you and me
I hope today is special for you
24 days and Mickey Mouse will say
“Happy Birthday” to a special guy like you

Out with old
In with the new
I will carry all the memories
Close to my soul
New year
Time for change
Strengthen from my core
Spiritual healing starts today

A quite place
Just you and me
Under a tree
Sharing memories
Just like it used to be
If only you were still here with me

Don’t follow, be the leader
Don’t complain, make a change
Don’t be cocky, confidence is beautiful
Don’t be overbearing, be humble
Don’t change, stay you
Don’t fall, be strong…

I generally write on the spot
With no rhyme or reason why
Filling a blank page
With what I feel inside

When I hear you calling
From across the way
Letting me know
All is okay

Look within the trees
Can you find me?
Search hard and you will see

I’m always there
When you are scared
Even when the tree branches are bare

I’m calling to you
From high above
I miss and love you
Just ask, I will come...

Our stories may be similar
The end result the same
But the journey for all us
Is a different game
We all played
Never being one in the same...

Believe in yourself
Let fear melt away
Troubleshoot the doubts
That get in the way
Follow the process
Trusting yourself
It all will turn out
If you believe
It’s your time to breakout

Endings are beginnings
Beginnings are endings
Yet, you still embrace the growth of your journey
Even during those difficult stages in your life
Not changing, rather growing
Fulfilling your heart desires with love
Surrounding yourself with positivity and everlasting happiness
Fully embracing one’s true self

Dear Lord,
Lay your healing hands
Upon this little girl
Ease her pain
Take it all away
Make her comfortable
Heal her soul
Let’s this little girl
Rise above it all
So much more
Life to explore
Dear Lord, please heal
This precious, wonderful, beautiful and amazing
Little precious, Addi Girl..

32 years and still going strong
From they day I was born I wasn't suppose to be here long
Being born premature
And without a windpipe
My parents and family were filled with fright
I don't know how I am still here today but
I am a baby miracle in every way
Living life to the fullest
And loving it so
Never thinking I'd be here
Where did the time go?
I thank God everyday that he kept me here
Spreading my infectious smile and giving cheers
32 years and going strong
From the day I was born I wasn't suppose to be here long...

At night
I’m the happiest I can be
Because your sleeping
Next to me

To have you there
Holding my hand
I feel safe as can be
Because your sleeping
Next to me

The best way
To end the day
In each others arms
When we whisper
“I love you baby”
To say goodbye to today

I feel comfort when you lay
Next to me
At the end of the day

Because your sleeping
Next to me
All my worries go away

Ones true higher self
Trusting within the locked up gold plated heart of self awareness

A place we frequent often
A place that we love
A place of laughter
A place of fun
A place to dance
A place to drink
A place for friends
A place that felt safe...
A night of fun and dancing had begun
Laughter filled the air
No a worry or a care
When a senseless act took place
Leaving people running for shelter or somewhere safe
Shots were fired
Many were wounded
Others weren’t so lucky, losing their lives
The safe place we call “home” went up in shambles right before our eyes
Silence grew upon the night as many were left wondering why?
Why this place, why us, why now?
We came out for a night of fun and it turned so foul
We are now left here in tears and shock
Wishing we could turn back the time on the clock
Grievance now will take place as our safe zone of drinks and laughter has now been darkened on this tragic night

Beauty lies within ourselves
The way your life lessons will make your heart beat
Is the pulse that keeps you alive and going
Once you stop believing your beautiful
Then, only then, will you flatline.......

The smell of your cigar and pipe in the air
A glass a wine setting next to your chair
For as long as I can remember I have called you Papa Bear
To this day even though your not there

Standing alone and glance up to the sky
I see a black and orange butterfly
Wings are spread as it’s floating by
Not a care in the world as it’s soars so high
I whispered to him “I love you and miss you so much”
In hope that he will deliver the message to my daddy in the sky up above
As I’m writing this the butterfly reappears
Swirling around my head then suddenly disappears
I believe my dad heard me
To send me love from high up above
A tear falls down my face
A flutter in my heart
Knowing you probably heard my message
Sent from the black and orange butterfly
From the ground to high above

A glancing pass
A childish dare
When I was a child
We got the timeout chair

We played outside
Til the street lights come on
If we were allowed
We would have played until dawn

Riding bikes
Playing games (outside)
Nowadays children won’t know how it was
That’s just a shame

Not all, but most kids
Glued to the video games
Television and iPads
No socialization to be had

Growing up when I did
Taught me to be grateful
For what my parents did (for me and my family)

Taught to be humble, strong and kind
Treat everyone with respect
To all of mankind

Taught us to work for the things we wanted
Work hard but also play hard
Was something they instilled in me all the time

Sometimes social media can be a twisted place
It sometimes feel like it’s a waste

Go outside
Catch some fireflies
Look at the stars
In the night sky

Hang with friends
Playing hide and seek
Mother may I and
Kickball, was definitely one to beat

If the children of today
Could go back to our times of how we played
They wouldn’t know how to act
Since a video game was blocking their way

So many things have evolved
Keeping up with the times is great
But social media has somewhat ruined it all....

This dress has been through so much
Made by hand, made with love
From picking out the fabrics, sewing by hand
All for our special day, to have him as my man
Almost 9 years later, this dress still holds up
Through my family’s house fire, it was just pure luck
My white dress, with a splash of color, was unharmed, I was shocked
Hanging in my closest, never to be worn again, it hold special meaning, for the day he became my man
This dress has been through so much
Made by hand, made with love
To show “Our Love” for the day we said
“I Do”
I couldn’t imagine a different dress
Made just for me, on our special day

The stars will align when I catch a falling star from the sky
Hold it tight, with all my might
Making a wish at the close of the night

Tears of happiness
Making memories
Belly laughing
Reminiscing stories
Car rides
Patio sitting
Watching movies
Cat playing
Chinese food
Dunkin’ Donuts
New Hope
Wedding bells
B and B
Family time
Starbucks guy
Good times

But now it’s time to say goodbye
To our family
Here’s to next time to making more memories

Tears of sadness
When we say “ until next time”

Watch me disappear into the fog

Want to find me?

Look for my heart glowing so bright

While I dance to the

Music of nature

Under the waterfall of

Endless possibilities

That will never

Run dry