We found each other,
Two souls lost in a hurricane,
Searching for an anchor,
Grasping each other.

I pulled you out of the dark,
You glued the pieces of my broken heart.
You said that you were no saint,
Bu I am an angel.
Well if I am an angel,
Then you were my savior.

We were molded together, you and I,
Two broken creatures living side by side.
When did we break?

Left me for another,
Did the same thing to her that you did to me,
Now she's broken, I'm broken, and you're scott free,
Living your dream.

Here I am again,
Cleaning up the mess you made,
The hearts you left behind.
But we're alright,
Lost souls in your hurricane,
We've found each other.

There is something about you.
Something that holds,
And won't let me go.
A magnetic pull,
A gravitational force.

You are exquisite.
I love you.

Relaxation of muscles,
Slowly of breath,
Peace like this is achieved only in death.

Slipping further and further,
A spell so sweet,
Only interrupted by the chaos of dreams.

The bitterness of life,
The pain of love,
The grief of loss,
None can reach me here.
Peace swallows me whole.

Wake me up with a tender touch,
A soft kiss,
And a pretty word.

Lie with me,
Watching the sunrise,
Holding me close.

I'll snuggle in an we'll talk about the future,
Waste the day away.
Say you love me,
And I will too.
You lean in,
But then you're gone...

I wake up...
You're still gone and I lie awake,
Wishing that it was reality...

There's me,
There's them.
Same room,
Different planet.
To them, I don't exist.

Secluded I sit,
Quiet I stay.
I don't really belong in their group anyway.

Like a ghost,
I slip through their radar.
Unseen.
Like ships in the night,
Slipping through foreign waters
Scared and alone,
Just trying to make it through.

Their happy, smiling faces,
Their mundane, mind-numbing chatter.
Drugs. ***. Parties.
To me, none of that matters.
Same room,
Different planet.

Once upon a time, you never loved me.
Once upon a time, I was a happy child.
Once upon a time, I didn't feel like a stranger in my own body.
Once upon a time, I could actually feel emotion.
The thing about "once upon a time" is,
It's a big ******* fairy tale.

Do not fear,
Do not despair,
It will get better.

Yes, the waves will crash
Yes, you will stumble and fall
Yes, the hourglass of life will flip
Yes, by climbing that mountain you will slip
But grab hold, don't drop.
Stand firm.
Be a rock.
It will get better.

You will cry,
You will scream,
But it will fall on deaf ears.
There will be no one to see your tears.
Be loud,
Feel more,
It will get better

It will get better Darling, just hold on.
Just take that leap
Just get some sleep.
Do not fear,
Do not despair.
It will get better.

They say it's a pretty day,
But all I see is grey.
They ooh and ahh over all the colors,
But each one looks the same as the other.
They notice every single change,
But to me it looks all the same.

Their optimistic, holistic views,
Giving way to a heart that doesn't know.
The pain of losing and grieving;
They'll never know...

They tell me they've seen it all,
But in reality, they break every time they fall.
I fall, but I only chip,
I can't afford to break apart,
I have to tighten my grip.

Tighten my grip on the ones I love,
Pulling them closer in,
Trying to find a reason to live.
Anchoring myself to this world.
Standing firm for them.
For if I fall apart, so do they....

Burn me at the roots,
Engulf me in flames,
Char my skin until I am no more.

Ball of fire,
Burning bright.
Bright as the sun,
Brimming with potential.
Amidst the deafening roar of flames,
The crackling of breaking down,
Whisper these soft words.

Beckon me,
Give me hope.
Instruct me.

Those soft verbal caresses,
The water to douse the flames.
Watch me erupt.

"Arise and be all that you dreamed."

Meander down the halls,
Touch the broken walls,
The walls that surround you heart.

You watched them crumble,
You watched them fall,
And now you pay the price.

Alone with the hurting,
Alone with the sorrow,
Praying it'll all get better tomorrow.

You let them in,
You let them see,
And now you're back where you used to be.

Day by day, brick by brick,
Rebuilding that wall.
Regrowing the thorns,
Stitching up the places that are now torn.

People wonder why I don't talk or why I don't sleep.
The reason is because you're not here with me.
You were my heart,
You were my life.
My rock,
My anchor,
My angel.

I know I let you down
I know I wasn't there,
But it's because I didn't want to see,
I didn't want to believe...

I didn't want to see my world slipping away from me.
I didn't want to see you so weak,
I didn't want to see how I abandoned you...

I lived in denial,
I lived in fear,
But deep down I knew I'd wake up one day,
And you wouldn't be here.
I'll never forgive myself and I'll never forget,
But please come back to me...

You are infinite,
You are beautiful.
A twinkling star among a black sky,
A rainbow during a hurricane,
A rose among thistles.
But you don't see that...

Who made you this way?
Who took the light out of your eyes?
Who pushed and shoved 'til you could take it no more?
Who beat and broke you?
Tell me Darling, who?

Who broke your heart until it could feel no more?
Who made it to where no more tears could be shed?
Who ****** all the life from your body?
Tell me Darling, who?

Tell me Darling, who?
For God help them if you do,
Maybe they should try feeling this way too...

I left my heart on your bedroom floor,
Like ***** laundry it was dropped.
What was I thinking?
Where was my mind?
Why did I think it would be different this time?

A beautiful night,
Our first kiss.
The memories haunt me...

I left my heart on your bedroom floor;
Forgotten, it was carelessly dropped.
Hopefully you remember it whenever you look at her.

This haunted corpse,
This broken shell,
This empty lifeless body with it's putrid smell,
She still walks.

She roams the streets,
Her heart on her sleeve,
Bleeding and broken, yet still beating.

There's no light in her eyes,
There's no mirth in her body,
No truth in her speech,
And no joy in her laugh.
There's nothing left.

She gave all she had,
Bled until she could bleed no more.
A corpse.
A shell.
She still walks.
There's nothing left.

All I see are lonely hearts,
Standing,
Shivering in the dark.

The demons are closing in,
Shadows toying with their minds,
Imprisoning them in their own life.

Hiding from the truth,
They cover the proof.
Clean the blood in the snow,
Never let the skeleons show.

Hiding their faces,
Showing no fear.
But all I see are lonely hearts,
Quaking,
Shivering in the dark.

Blood in the snow,
Skeletons in the closet,
The demons are closing in.

Keep your eyes open,
This is your warning.
Close them, and lose yourself.

You're surrounded by monsters,
Lurking in the shadows,
Watching and waiting.
Though I know your body's weary,
And all you want is to give in,
I'm telling you,
Keep your eyes open.

They're sitting there,
Just waiting for you to fail.
Waiting for you to fall.
If you slow,
If you sleep,
They'll catch you.
Keep your eyes open.

Run,
Hide,
Don't close your eyes.

Laughable, lovable,
Cuddly and sweet.
But threaten his family and you're dead meat.

His growl rolls out like thunder,
His feet are apart,
His body is squared,
The hair on his back stands up,
And his teeth are bared.

His fangs flash like lightening,
You have every right to be scared.
You can tell he means business!

Take heed, for your next move could very well be your last.
As he moves to face the threat,
You can hear his growl clearly say
"Come any closer and I'll rip you to shreds"

The broken bells chimed high today,
Signaling the end.

Broken bell,
Broken sound,
For the broken people on the ground.

Looking up,
Feeling down,
Humming along with that sweet, broken sound.

"It is like sadness and joy,
Coming together,
Nothing sweeter,
Nothing more depressing."

Those who hear it often say,
And none had ever heard it more clear than today.
The broken bells chimed today,
Signaling the end,
For the broken people on the ground.

I saw you with her today,
In your hands, you held both of our hearts.
Hers. Mine.
Her face held the brightest smile,
One that's been missing for quite a while.
So I ducked my head and let it go.
Gave up my love for someone else to hold...
After all, you were rightfully hers,
I really had no claim.
Just know that you took a part of me,
And while it's missing, I just won't be the same.

I hope you make her happy,
I hope you make her laugh,
Because if I ever see tears darken her eyes again,
I'm coming after you with a bat.

What do you do when it's time to say goodbye?
When the concrete keeps moving under your immobile feet?
When your heart stops beating in your chest.
Hanging there,
Bleeding.

You watch everything you love,
Leave you in the dust.
Powerless,
With a mouth as dry as sand,
And a body seeming to break down.

Lifes beautiful rose,
Shriveled before its first bloom.
All potential,
Lost..
Such is a life wasted...

"I'm fine" she tells you,
Tears rolling down her face.
Inside her heart is breaking.
Weeping on the inside,
Hiding the waterfall inside.

Pulling down her sleeves,
Wrapping her arms around her body,
Wishing for someone.

She calls back,
She's trying,
But doesn't know how much longer she can last.
Voicemail speaks,
Like a whisper of death.

She swallows it,
Accepting another restless night,
Crying herself into a sleep without peace,
Yet again...

Nobody answers the phone when I call,
When I message, they look and walk away.
Nobody takes time to ponder,
Nobody takes time to think.
They don't answer,
They don't realize how easy it could be.

What if that girl you just ignored needed someone to talk her down from her ledge?
What if that call you just declined was one that could have saved a life?
What if that kid who always messages you does it because he deluded himself into thinking that someone actually cares?

"It's not my problem."
"They'll be okay."
"I was just really busy that day."
Is this justification?
Or lies you tell yourself over and over to hide the fact that you threw them away?

It's simple really,
Don't be a *****.

If I was going to commit suicide,
it would probably be in September.
That's the month when everything goes wrong,
When everything falls apart.

It's the month when summer ends,
And it becomes fall.
When alive things die,
And sane people break.

My life always seems to crumble,
Every crack magnified,
Every tear multiplied.

It's like a Green Day song once said,
"Wake me up when September ends..."

Get your lips off of me,
You're dangerous.
Don't touch me,
I can't think straight.
Stop,
Take a step back.
Why did I ever get involved?

You used me,
You played me,
You threw me away.

I trusted,
I loved,
I thought you'd stay.
Boy was I stupid,
Silly girl,
What were you thinking?

This needs to end,
I need to walk away,
This needs to quit.
I can't, I fell too hard.
This vicious circle goes 'round and 'round.

The dark shadows pass over the light,
The brush of the past overcomes with such might.
How long have I been in this fight?

I look left,
I look right,
There is no one by my side tonight.

Long have I fought alone.
Long have I hid the pain.
I talk to myself, but it's not the same...

The enemy approaches,
Their numbers have grown.
On my side, it's just me
All alone...

We're called survivors,
Told we're heros,
So strong,
Yet treated as fragile glass.
Why?
Because we're the people at the back of the class.
We're those people that get thrown nervous glances,
As if we're a grenade about to blow.
We're those people who wear our feelings and hard times on the outside,
Yet we don't suffer as much as it seems.

These feelings,
These pains,
These tragic affairs,
They're not ours,
They're yours.

We're the people at the back of the class,
The ones who feel with our hearts instead of our hands,
The ones who shove aside our hurt to pull you from yours.

We take our proverbial wings and glue them to your back,
Keeping you afloat.
We fall further and further from Heaven,
Giving you your glimpses.

We crack and we bleed,
But we put on a good front,
We pull ourselves together and offer you a smile.

We are the broken glass,
The bombs that have blown,
And those glances thrown back in your face.
Avert your eyes like always,
Ignore those false heros,
Don't acknwledge these hands,
These hearts who ache for you.
After all,
We're just some kids in the back of the class.

Spread your wings, little broken angel.
Spread your wings and shelter the hurting.
Forget the storm at your back,
Forget the beating on your arms,
Forget the world on your shoulders.

Root yourself.
Be a rock.
Be the one they need.

Worry not, little broken angel.
Be what you can.

Pull your pieces together,
Fill in the cracks.
Hold on.
Hold on for them.

Spread your wings, little angel.
Do what you can.
Spread your wings and shelter the hurting.

Why do you stand by?
Why do you ignore then when they cry?
Why don't you meet their eyes?
I'll tell you why.
You're scared to be them.

You're scared to feel their pain.
You're scared to end up the same.
You're scared to hear their cries,
So you tell yourself lies.
"Oh, they'll be fine."
"I'll talk to them next time."
Then you walk away.

So tell me, does that time ever come?
Do you ever hear their cries?
Do you ever meet their eyes?
No?
Then, do you meet their parent's eyes?
Do you hear their best friend's cries?
Their cries of pain,
Of knowing that their light is gone.
Never to shine again.

I came face to face with my demons.
They teased and taunted, terrified and tricked me into submission.
The torture went on and on, battle scars up and down my arms.
And I came out, beaten, but breathing.

People avoided me and whispered, thinking I couldn't hear them.
Those who didn't, looked at me and said
"You're lucky to be alive"
Shocked were their faces when I told them
"No, not really..."

I wish they would have killed me,
I wish I wasn't here
I wish I didn't have to live in fear
I wish for the sweet caress of death.

Soft, tender, loving, peaceful.

I've always been there,
I've always cared.
I've given up sleep,
Foregone birthday joy,
Listened until my ears gave out.
So tell me,
Where are you now?

You're tired?
So am I, but I'll stay awake for you.
You need something?
Ok, let me drop whatever I'm doing.
I need something?
***** for me...

I'm not your counselor,
Of course I care,
But I can't always be there.
I have my own issues.
My life is crumbling you see,
Oh wait, you don't,
You don't even see me...

Slamming doors,
Shattered plates,
Angry curses,
Words full of hate.

16 years,
Grown up all too fast,
Shielding everyone else from the inevitable blasts.
Broken soul,
Busted heart,
Watching her entire life fall apart.
Hide the kids,
Protect the dogs,
Pray for mercy from God.

12 years old,
Knowing the time when the burden will be hers is just down the road.
Struggling with her identity,
Just wanting a way out..

4 years old,
Enough fear to make her blood run cold.
Hiding behind her older sister,
Her guardian angel,
Protecting her from harm.
Staring at the monster that she once knew,
Covering her ears when a door is approached,
Because she knows of the inevitable slam.

Closed doors,
Glass in the trash,
Floor swept clean with soft, quiet murmurs.
All at once it seems,
The dragon has run out of fire,
And the storm has ceased.

Heart so pure,
Face so sweet,
You used to make my heart skip a beat.
So who is this monster before me?
Who is this blood-thirsty demon?
My caged love?
Or something sinister?

Used to be as gentle as a faun,
Now resembles the predator who kills viciously  everything good.
I know you're in there somewhere,
My beautiful darling.
All my fault,
Your imprisonment,
Didn't protect you like I should've.
One bite and it's all over,
No cure,
No time.

I promised to never give up,
To bring you back to me,
To find a cure.

I failed.
There's no hope.
I cradle your demise as I watch you sleep,
Steel my heart,
Feeling it break in two.
Forgive me for what I am about to do...

I'm sorry my sweet,
I love you my darling,
Goodbye sweetheart...

We ran,
Breathing hard,
Not looking back.

Hand in hand,
Into the thicket.
They'll never find us,
We'll never surrender,
Together we can survive.

We had to leave,
We had no choice.
They tried to break us,
Make it to where we couldn't breathe,
I almost didn't recognize you,
And you didn't know me.

They couldn't break us,
We decided to breathe,
I recognized you,
You remembered me.
They can't tell us what we can't have.
So, we ran.

I'm the invisible daughter,
Forgotten right down to the core.
The bane of my parent's existence;
The bad apple fallen from their Tree of Life.

I only exist when I'm in trouble.
But I wonder,
What do they see when they're yelling at me?
Do they see my mistake?
Or theirs?

I watch my father with his other daughter,
The perfect doting dad.
I flashback to my childhood and the love I never had.
I pray for my sister,
Pray that this last forever, and that she never know him as I did.

I watch my mother from afar,
The distance between us insurmountable, though in the same house.
I pray for my sisters, that they never see her as I had.

I'm their disappointment,
Their failure,
Though still I remain, The Invisible Daughter.

You are not alone,
I am with you.
Come little broken heart, your angel is here.
Let me shelter you.
Let me wrap you in my warm embrace,
Forget the storm raging on around you.

Come little broken heart,
I will hold you tight.
I will stand beside you and take on your fight.

I won't let you fall,
And though it may seem that way,
You're not falling at all.

Come little broken heart,
You bring the pieces, I'll bring the glue.
And in the morning, when the sky turns from gold to blue,
I'll take your hand, pick up your feet and whisper that one day, again, we'll meet.

Come little heart,
You are no longer broken.

The future looms, staring me in the face
Pulling, tugging and prompting me in to place.

The handcuffs snap, binding me
The chains pulling my hands further and further away from the cord of freedom that keeps me going.

Pushing, Pulling, Prodding, Poking.
The future, so seductive.
Tricking me in to wanting, but withholding.
A worse tease than any girl,
Confusing me until my head starts to whirl.

Do I go or do I stay?
I really have no say.
Things will go as planned...

Stay alive.
Deep breaths.
You're calling me a hypocrite, I know,
But darling,
I'm not worth as much as you.

Your beautiful smile lights up the room,
Your words paint a picture, captivating everyone.
Your arms embrace so many,
Their pain are scars on your wrists.
Stay alive.

Live on for me.
You're calling me selfish, I know,
But darling,
I'm not worth as much as you.

The lives you've touched multiply daily,
They all talk of the one who gave them light,
Who looked at them with love, not spite.

You're crying,
Calling me stupid, I know,
But I wasn't worth as much as you.

Emotionally drained,
Seeking a purpose for this empty shell.
Identity stripped,
Every tie cut,
Who am I now?

Lost soul,
Adrift in a broken world.
Monotony is the enemy,
Restlessness is driving me mad.

Mind running in circles,
A hopeless insomniac, ,
Drowning in the sorrows of lost innocence,
Every mistake ever made,
Free-wheeling in my head.

Every thought mocking,
Prickling,
Like needles under the skin.
Never letting me forget,
The eternal question...
Who am I now?

Fresh blanket,
Cold snap,
Peace all around.

With open arms,
The angels on the ground.

Sky glows,
Crimson and orange,
As the sun sets.

One look down,
At the shadows on the snow,
Reminds me that even something so pure,
Is not safe from the dark.

Like a shark surrounds it's prey,
You skirt around me,
Never hitting head on.
Backing into a corner,
Scaring me into hiding.

Was the pain you caused not enough?
Are not my emotional scars enough?
Or is it because I fought back that you need something more permanent?

Eliminating my army,
Eliminating my support,
One by one.
Until I am alone...

I will not give up,
I will not back down.
I will fight,
I will win.
No more of my blood will be shed for you,
No more of my tears will you get.
The fear has turned to anger,
I'm warning you now, RUN.

A small slip of the tongue,
A simple flick of the wrist,
Something innocent like a first kiss,
And everything we know comes crashing down.

One love.
One choice.
One mistake.
But this is the price for the risks we take.

We can't always see,
We don't always care,
And the only thing left is the pain we all share.
Sometimes we're broken and we don't know why,
But all we can do is try.

Find the beauty in it all.
The forgiveness of a friend,
The light in the dark,
And the beautiful memories on which, in the storm, you'll depend.

Walls up!
Conceal!
Don't feel!
Never let anything show!

It's all the same,
Everyday the same game.
Hiding, blocking, failing, feeling.

I can't stop it,
I ca't control it

Feeling everything, yet nothing,
Seeing what they see,
Looking into their past.

They ridicule and scorn me,
They act like I have a choice!

I don't want this!
I don't need this!
I can't take this anymore!

Walls up!
Conceal!
Don't feel!
Don't let them know!
Never let anything show!

Look in the mirror,
Make a face.
Open the bag and let it all fall out.
A little bit here, a little bit there.
Another color here and another and another.

Put down the brush,
The mask is complete.
Will they be happy now?
Will I?

Line the eyes,
Dot the lips,
Blot.
Oops, missed a spot.

Guess it's as good as it's gonna get...
Will they be happy now?
Will I?
Out the door,
Time to face the critics.

I stare at the wall.
I should be feeling,
I should be breaking,
Crying myself into a dreamless sleep.

There's nothing.
As soon as emotion appears,
It is silenced.
Hard heart,
Cold as ice,
Freezing any pain,
Any joy,
Any sorrow.

It took years to achieve this,
Years to curse myself into perfection.
Years to feel as hollow as people seem to think I am.

Their words bounce off,
Cutting like glass as they leave.
But I feel no pain.
I am numb.

It's only 12:31,
But it feels as if I've been up forever and a day,
I tried getting some help,
But all I got was doors in the face...

Its okay,
I'm not afraid,
I'll let you go and you'll be fine.

My breathing's getting slower,
And my heart starts to fade,
As the tears fall from your face.

You wipe them away,
You pull me in tight,
Trying to make me stay.
Trapped in love's embrace.

It's okay,
I'm not afraid,
I'll let you go and you'll be fine.

The beat's almost stopped,
My voice is getting faint,
And with my last breath I lean in to say,
"It's okay,
I'm not afraid,
I'll let you go and you'll be fine.
I love you."

There will be no blood tonight,
There will be no fear.
I'm eliminating all threats today.
You will find safety here.

Come child and I'll keep you safe and warm,
I'll wrap you in my arms,
I'll wipe away your tears.

Breathe,
Laugh,
Live.
You're free.

You're free from the pain,
You're free from the shame.
All of the disgrace has been cleansed from your name.

This is the promise I make to you,
This is what will come when you leave the world behind.

I'll wipe away your tears,
I promise.

Rising from the smoke,
Shaking off the ashes of a world destroyed.
The tide is turning,
This broken angel is switching sides.

Her once torn and filthy wings,
Unfold.
From the fire,
Dead plumage gone,
New, shimmering onyx.
Black and full.

Gone are the stains of tears,
Shed by those sheltered.
Gone are the bald spots,
Feathers pickedto make someone else's wings.

She emerges,
A new, beautiful, frightening creature.
Heart of stone,
Voice of ice,
Replaces that which was sweet, warm,
Gentle and nice.

With the strength of new wings,
She pushes those she sheltered,
She throws them into death's waiting arms.

Soaring high on traitor's wings,
She looks down at the frightened faces that she left behind,
Their vacant stares,
Looking their fate in the face.

Heart of stone softened,
Ice melted and tears streamed down her face.
One look towards Heaven,
A prayer on borrowed breath,
"Lord forgive them, they know not what they did."

With a final tear,
She fell.
Trading new life for heartbreak,
And sheltering those who betrayed her.

I don't have the strength to stand.

I'm done with the crying,
I'm done with the hurt,
I've given up fighting and I stay down in the dirt.

I'm numb,
I'm broken,
But I'm just sitting silently,

I'm done with the screaming,
I'm done with the yelling,
I'm done trying to make you hear me!

I can't make you hear me,
I can't make you see what you're doing to me.
Why can't you see?
Would you care?
Well, I don't have the strength anymore,
I'm done.

What do you do when the tears run out?
When he pain becomes so much that you can't remember a life without?
What happens when you can't breathe?
Tell me, what do you do?

Do you lie?
Do you smile?
Do you wear long sleeves to hide the damage done?
I'll tell you, I've done all of these things, yet I still have not won.

I'm still here.
I still live in pain.
Never without constant fear that I'll never be the same.

I cannot cry,
I cannot breathe,
I wish again for the shelter of the long sleeve.
I cannot feel,
I cannot speak,
I fear being labeled a freak...

So tell me again, what do you do?
I need something new.
I don't know how long I can go,
Before I lose control...