I am trying so hard to please
Those I care to make at ease
But since you’ve gone, I truly tried
To smile and laugh, but yet I cried
For moments that I shared with you
The only one that loved me true

Do not be sad, as you look upon
The girl who misses you since you’ve gone
Two steps forward, and one step back
I try with might, but strength I lack
Forever you said, that we will be
How can I bear life without thee?

I know that you have sought to guide
From up above, the other side
So if I must wait till I die
To heal this pain, and curb my cry
I promise you, I’ll do my best
To find my way, and pass this test

Forgive me, love, that I am weak
The past too often, I do seek
To see your smile that made mine too
The love we shared that almost grew
To heights I’ve never thought would be
And now I know will never see

Soon, I say, that I will find
My way and leave my past behind
Till then have patience, my dearest one
I wait the day when shine the sun
In time, I dare to hope and see
What life, the future meant to be

For now, please keep your eyes on me
Until the time again I’ll see
Your truthful gaze that shone with love
When I reach heaven up above
As I write these words of woe
Your love will guide me until I know

He sits at the table
Everyone watching him.
It's another year to be older,
So he blows out the candle.

When they take pictures
Now that he has taken his wish
It's scary what his smile hides,
Him thinking he's another year older and ready to die.

I went to the animal park,
I saw a tiger, in the park,
I looked at his eye, and
I was scared and came off.

The tiger eye, it is scary eye,
Slowly the scariness disappeared,
As I was looking into the eye,
Tiger eye gave me strength,
Tiger eye gave me hope.

I felt very courageous and strong,
I think this tiger spell a cast on me,
With his eyes and made me brave.
when I opened my eyes I saw the tiger
Sitting next to me, in my bed.

This was my grandchild's big tiger,
which looks exactly like a real tiger,
Then I remembered, telling the story  
to my child about the heroic act,
of the tiger and I realized my dream.
Adikaran19/02/12

She grew up in a land of bliss
where nothing could go wrong.
She protected herself with a night light and a parent's kiss,
she thought she was so very strong.
She read poems and books and wrote all day,
She filled her head with knowledge.
She charmed people in her own special way.
Her dream was to go to college.
One day everything ended,
she realized she grew up.
Many hurt feelings were left un-mended.
She was no longer a young pup.
Nothing turned out the way it was intended.
She wondered to herself,
"Is this really maturity?"
Her feelings were always left on a shelf.
"Why is everyone in such a hurry?"
Then she realized with distinct clarity,
The monsters were not in the closet or under the bed,
She had been fooled and had never expected this reality,
Actually all of the scary monsters were in her head.
After that things were tough,
Life turned upside down.
She had realized that life was rough.
It was hard trying not to drown.
Hope seem lost.
She lost faith in her fairytales.
"Safety" was found at such high a cost.
Her grades went from straight A's to fails.
She went into drugs.
She got mixed up with the wrong people.
She hung out with the thugs.
Her attempts at escape from this life were feeble.
She got so lost, she tried suicide.
Help seemed hard to find,
Scars no longer seemed to hide.
Then one day someone was truly kind.
He seemed to be from a fairytale, a Prince Charming if you will.
He had such an understanding heart.
He too was quite ill.
Together they found a fresh start.
The sun seemed brighter if they were together,
The road was still dark some days.
Their names were bonded forever,
Life was new in so many ways.
She began to pass again,
Teachers noticed her improvement,
They recognized her reconnection with her skill of pen.
Her story had begun a movement.
She turned her struggles into a book,
It was read far and wide.
Many people took a look.
For once, in many years she had pride.
Her marks continued to get better,
Many colleges wanted her.
She had been released from her fetter.
Although, she knew her past would never be a blur.
Finally, she had become strong.
She realized not everyone gets a fairytale ending.
She dedicated her life to help others carry on.
As for her Prince Charming?
He made it too.
They got married and continued to inspire others.
It turned put his heart really was true.
Their lives were filled with many bold and beautiful colors.

Once you start to fall apart
The world is uncaring, scary and dark
Once you begin to lose your way
It gets harder to cope day by day
Once the sadness eats you up
You don't care anymore, you don't give a ****
You spend all of your time isolated in bed
Despairing over what's happening inside of your head
Soon enough you'll want to die
To end it all and close your eyes
In the hope that when again they open
You're in a lovely little place
Where no-one's broken

They look in the windows to see if I'm sleeping,
Through the sills and holes they'll come a creeping.
Darkness and shadows and scary things fun,
Will always keep you up on the run.
They mess with your mind so you see things at night,
They're bark is far worse than their sharp bite.
You might think about how they aren't real,
But do you ever realize what they come and steal?
Sanity, sweet dreams, and peace of mind,
Are what they feast on, they take what they find.
Ghosts and goblins and all thing frightening,
What they bring is not to my liking.
Pray for your children with all of your might,
When you go to tuck them in at night.
Pray for sweet dreams and safety throughout,
Pray for demons through the night without.
And when they come and curl up in your bed,
You know what came and found them instead.

Am I the only one who has ever thought
Of tying a cherry stem into a knot?
Of flying high beyond the starry skies?
If I said “yes” then that would be a lie.

Am I the only one who has ever kissed
The surface of my curious bestfriend’s lips?
Or has had a hard time winking just one eye?
If I said “yes” then that would be a lie.

Oh, I know I’m not that special,
I’d be a fool to think to myself
That if I asked you to stay a while,
There’d be a chance that you’d say “yes”

But would you please hold my hand?
Would you have me just how I am?
What if I stayed with you all day so you can tell me about the one you love?
You think at the end, I’d deserve a hug?

Am I the only one who has ever thought
Of planting trees with you on a vacant lot?
Of painting something that you’d appreciate?
Yes, I know that I’m now too late.

Am I the only one who has ever wondered
If maybe I could be that one first kiss?
Am I the only one who’s dreamt?
Am I the only one who’s wished?

Am I the only one who’s cursed
At the whole entire universe
Coz’ just when I thought that I could be the one,
She got there first.

Oh I know I’m not that special
I’d be a fool to think to myself
That if I asked you to be mine,
There’d be a chance that you’d say “yes”
Coz’ I’m not the only one.

I really wish I could better understand myself,
Like be able to reach in, instead of reaching out for help.

I wish my thoughts wouldn't compress on my brain,
Begging to get out, begging to keep me sane.

And I've reluctantly come to notice,
When it comes to life, I'm actually just a novice.

I could pretend to know something about everything,
But in reality, I'm still endeavouring.

To succeed, to achieve,
To figure out what I need.

I struggle in my sea of confusion,
My arms tire as I swim to keep from losing.

How do you know when it’s all done?
When the final fights, fought and the war’s either lost or won.

And you sit there and think of all the things you could've done differently.
“Maybe I could've said something else, or only to a different degree.

The simplest things could change a lot,”
These thoughts always manage to get me distraught.

The mistakes I've made catch me at night,
Where I'm looking for myself, in a room with no light.

It’s hard to say, what I think I'm looking for,
It’s easier to say that I really just don’t know anymore.