You bend your knees at the edge of your bed and clasp Ya hands together
"Dear ma, You are my definition of forever."
You fix your gaze up to heaven and Ya mind begins to wander, wandering back to the day you were 4 and your life became an unending dark abyss, the day that you stared death in the eyes of your mother, you proudly told me that you have her eyes.
The day you wish you could go back to and alter but never want to relive. The sound of a gun takes you back 13 years ..
This is the day Mother's Day lost its meaning.
This is the day Ya heart broke and grew shallow, never fully able to let anybody else in.
The day you realized you'd have to teach yourself all about being a female. Why every 21-28 days Mother Nature takes a toll on you, why you grew balloons on your chest, why some boys ain't **** and that its okay to like girls.
This is the day you developed a million dollar smile and half hearted laugh that never seems to fade.
As Ya BestFriend, I can see through Ya barricade and I know that you are never to be fixed and your walls will never come down and Ya guard will stay on instant alert.
But take my hand and grow with me, run with me .. Learn to breathe, learn to smile and laugh without having to fight back tears, let's learn to live in the moment and not dwell on the past. At such a young age you gave up your entire world, it wasn't easy and yet you make it seem so.
My definition of forever is also, Ya mother.
-a.m.r