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Annelise Camille Oct 2018
When everyone runs back and forth,
I am your true north

I'm afraid how the pendulum will swing
If you'll hate me in the day and love me at night
'Cause no matter what, I can't get it right

Even though you left for better things,
I'll be waiting for the pendulum to swing
Annelise Camille Oct 2018
I used to be your number one fan
Now I can't listen to a single song
Don't you remember the good days
When we used to get along
Our stomachs swirling
Our fingers dancing
Now my body is in mourning

We used to see eye to eye
Now your eyes wander
Once you say goodbye,
I'm a goner
Annelise Camille Sep 2018
Sometimes I believe my body is cursed
When I am burdened with all this pain
Wearing my disability like a bright, red stain
I think ahead to many years when it’ll be worse
When I can’t pick up a pen or unbutton my shirt
Or finish school or start a career
When more and more limitations start to appear
Sometimes I believe my body is cursed
Annelise Camille Jul 2017
I feel as if my head is sliding off my neck like ice cream melting down the cone. I am a witch melting, shrinking smaller as my spine stacks horizontally like shiplap. My body has been refurbished into a pinball machine. Something so tiny as a silver ball destroys so much. It bullets through my body, shooting off like Cuban missiles. I feel the turmoil and chaos seeping through the gutters of this old home of bones. It's like spilled oil sludging through my blood vessels or rats scattering through a sewer, nibbling and feasting away on these muscles of mine until they are frayed like gnawed-on cable wires. At odd hours of the night when time is propelled by the safe travels of breath (that weave in and out like Victorians at a ball) from sleepy children who have yet been touched by monsters or nymphs, whereas each of my breaths steer Odysseus's weather-beaten boat through ten years of treachery. My heavy, melting head slowly sloping like clay off a bust makes its home on my dingy pillow as I lay on a prison bed with cold shackles around my ankles that make my bones shatter into a mosaic as if that could shrink my ankles so I can slip out. I feel like a chained hawk at these hours of the night when I just want to fly until I screech to a halt and flail over the cliff that waterfalls into the ends of the universe. I'd be reluctant at first, perhaps, but what other escape does one have other than to make an autopsist's Y-incision on one's body, then slip out like a hermit crab freeing himself from his heavy shell? Embarking onto a new dimension where there's hope for a radical swap of atoms that don't shape a crippled, deteriorating human is the only choice when you want to live a life other than what you were cursed with. May we then find peace and live as naked souls bearing no heavy shells.
Annelise Camille May 2017
Every inch of my body is screaming, blazed with fire
There's lightning between my shoulder blades
Rain dripping from my dewy greens
And electricity weaving between my tendons

There is a chainsaw cutting my bones
There are needles piercing through my chest
There is lava rushing through my veins
There is a hurricane in my head

I can feel my cells shrinking
I can feel my branches breaking
I can feel my leaves crumbling

Everything hurts and there is no remedy
This is the life of inevitable misery
Annelise Camille May 2017
STRESS WARNING: ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP*
















I tried to forgive myself for not being enough for you when you needed something more something bigger than any entity on this earth and I tried to forgive myself when you could no longer look at my green eyes that you once said you could stare into for eons and I tried to forgive myself when you locked me outside your place after I was drunk begging for you to let me see you one more time and I tried to forgive myself for not being there for you when you lost yourself that day when the world stopped turning and I tried to forgive myself when you asked me to stop suffocating you with my desire to touch your skin to lock hands with you during that two hour car ride back to the home that no longer feels like a home because now you kicked me out and I sleep alone and the bed is cold and empty empty like the void in my heart now that I see you finally smiling again with her and I half-grin at the pictures of you two that I inevitably see online for a nanosecond until I feel that hole in my heart that choke-hold on my throat that twist in my stomach that makes the hot blood stop coursing through my veins and the air stop dancing in my lungs and suddenly I feel like I am six feet under in a grave buried alive because I cannot breathe or think all I hear is my heart pounding its way out of my chest synchronized with the pounding of my hands on the coffin and I feel claustrophobic like you did with the love you didn't want and I just wanted to let you know that in this coffin I will never forgive myself for the actions leading up to this moment this moment of being ****** into a vortex a black hole where I don't know where I am going or what will happen to my soul after I lose vision of the universe that is you and so I will never forgive myself for making myself live in a dimension without you
***STRESS WARNING: ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP***
Annelise Camille Feb 2017
i know it's only week two
i'm sorry i'm so into you
you're the reason for my sleep-deprivation
caused by an electric sensation
i think about you all the time
you **** me up, babe
i'm so high

oh, i can't believe
how much of an effect you have on me
you've put me under your spell
since then i've been going through hell

i screamed, "please don't leave me right now"
i wanna feel better but don't know how
every second without you is agony
somehow you are my everything
and i never saw you coming

oh, i can't believe
how much of an effect you have on me
you've put me under your spell
since then i've been going through hell

i swear i'm going insane
you've infiltrated my brain
i need an antidote
on my hands and knees begging don't leave
please don't
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