LITERALLY ALL I WANT TO KNOW IS WHY YOU STOPPED TALKING TO ME ALTOGETHER BECAUSE YOU SAID YOU UNDERSTOOD THAT SINCE WE'RE IN HIGH SCHOOL WE HAVE MIXED EMOTIONS BUT NOW I RECALL THAT THAT WAS BEFORE YOU GRADUATED SO I GUESS SINCE YOU'RE NOT IN HIGH SCHOOL YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYMORE I ******* HATE YOU FOR LEAVING

You're sleeping next to me
the time on your old digital clock
lights up the room in neon green
6:23 am

my head hurts from crying myself to sleep
but you already knew that

You're sleeping next to me
or trying to rather,
the sun fill the room as the clock
the clock just stares at me
8:47 am

I should have left before you'd notice.
I don't want to see you
I don't even want to talk about what you said

6 months ago I promised i'd stop writing about you,
here i am
or here we are

here i am
there is no we
there hasn't been
but somehow even in my dreams your words
your words haunted me
"... I just don't love you anymore."

I miss the curve of your lips and the way you used to moan my name through the cracks of your teeth

There comes a point when you just don't love someone anymore. That point will never come with you.

I WISH WE COULD JUST START OVER BECAUSE I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D BE SOMEONE I'D HAVE TO MISS AND I MISS HOW I USED TO GET HIGH OFF YOUR VOICE AND DRUNK OFF YOUR LIPS WHY THE **** DID YOU LEAVE ME

I OFTEN WONDER IF WHEN YOU HAVE *** WITH SOMEONE ELSE IF YOU'LL END UP WISHING IT WAS ME AFTER IT'S OVER OR IF YOU'VE ALREADY HAD *** WITH SOMEONE ELSE IF YOU REGRET IT NOT BEING ME I HAD *** WITH SOMEONE ELSE AND I FAKED IT FEELING GOOD THE ENTIRE ******* TIME AND I'LL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF FOR HAVING *** WITH SOMEONE WHO SAID "LET'S KEEP THIS ON THE DOWN LOW" AFTER IT WAS OVER BECAUSE ALTHOUGH YOU DROPPED ME OUT OF NOWHERE YOU NEVER MADE ME FEEL LIKE YOU WERE EMBARRASSED TO BE WITH ME AND FOR THAT I THANK YOU BUT I STILL ******* HATE YOU FOR LEAVING

you lit my sky on fire but now you're gone and everything is pitch black