WHAT UPSETS ME IS THAT EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT IN EACH OTHER'S LIVES ANYMORE I'LL ALWAYS HAVE THE MEMORY OF YOUR LIPS TOUCHING MINE AND NOW AND THEN I'LL TOUCH MY LIPS BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE YOU'RE STILL HERE EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE LONG GONE AND NEVER COMING BACK AND THE OTHER MORNING I WOKE UP AT FIVE A.M. BECAUSE I SWEAR I FELT YOUR LIPS PRESSED AGAINST MINE BUT THEN I REALIZED THAT IT WAS JUST MY HAND PRESSED AGAINST MY MOUTH FROM SILENCING MY CRY OVER HOW YOUR LIPS WILL NEVER BE ON MINE AGAIN

I STILL TASTE YOUR TONGUE IN MY MOUTH AND I CAN STILL FEEL THE WAY YOU USED TO ****** THE ANATOMY OF YOUR TONGUE ALL OVER MY SKIN LIKE IT WAS SECOND NATURE TO DO SO WHY DOES MY SKIN ******* BURN WITH JUST A SIMPLE RECOLLECTION OF YOUR EXISTENCE MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE WHENEVER YOU USED TO TOUCH ME IN THE SLIGHTEST BIT THERE WAS AN ELECTRIC SPARK THAT FLOWED FROM YOU THROUGH ME AND IT WOULD SHOCK MY HEART MAKING ME FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ALL OVER AGAIN I NEVER TOLD YOU I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU AND I NEVER TOLD YOU ABOUT THE SPARKS YOU REPEATEDLY GAVE ME BECAUSE YOU'RE PROBABLY GIVING ANOTHER GIRL SPARKS AND YOU'RE NOT HERE TO GET ELECTROCUTED BY ME ANYMORE

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT MY FAN BLOWS COLD AIR IT MAKES THE HAIR ON MY ARMS TIGHTEN AT THE PORES AND I SHIVER AS IF YOU HAD JUST TRICKLED YOUR HANDS DOWN MY ARMS AND WHENEVER SOMEONE TOUCHES ME I HOPE IT'S YOU TOUCHING ME BUT IT NEVER ******* IS THE FAN IS THE CLOSEST THING I HAVE LEFT OF THE REMEMBRANCE OF YOUR TOUCH AND JESUS **** I WOULD **** FOR YOU TO JUST TOUCH ME WITH YOUR HANDS AGAIN

THE HYSTERICAL THING ABOUT YOU LEAVING ME IS THAT I BET YOU THOUGHT I'D STOP SMILING JUST BECAUSE YOU AREN'T IN MY LIFE ANYMORE BUT THE JOKE IS ON YOU BABY BECAUSE I FOUND SOMEONE WHO YOU CAN NEVER COMPARE TO AND I'VE MET HIS FAMILY AND HE ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT ME WHICH IS MORE THAN I CAN EVER EVEN BEGIN TO SAY FOR YOU BUT HAVE FUN SLEEPING ALONE BABY I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HATE IT

THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOUR EYES I KNEW I WAS BEYOND ****** BECAUSE YOU HAD THE MOST SCINTILLATINGLY BEAUTIFUL PAIR OF BROWN EYES I'VE EVER SEEN ON A BREATHING HUMAN EVEN YOUR ******* EYELASHES WERE HARD TO FATHOM THEY LOOKED LIKE THEY COULD FIGHT AND WIN AGAINST A STORM WITH ALL THEIR THICKNESS AND MAN OH MAN THEY WERE HARD TO FATHOM AND SEEING THEM BAT AT ME CAUSE A TIDAL WAVE TO CRASH AGAINST MY INTERNAL ORGANS I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HAVE YOU LOOKING AT ME AGAIN INSTEAD OF NASTY COLLEGE GIRLS WHO DON'T KNOW WHAT THE ******* **** THEY WANT ANYWAY I KNOW WHAT I WANT I WANT YOU I WANT YOU I WANT YOU

Your absence is the closest to torture I've ever been

I WONDER IF YOU KNOW IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS AND EIGHT DAYS SINCE WE LAST SAW EACH OTHER BECAUSE A WEEK AFTER WE FIRST MET YOU SAID "IT'LL BE A WEEK SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU" BUT THEN I REMEMBER THAT IT'S BEEN TWO ******* MONTHS AND EIGHT DAYS SINCE WE LAST SAW EACH OTHER AND I REALIZED THAT IF YOU WANTED TO SEE ME YOU WOULD HAVE MADE IT HAPPEN BY NOW